][.The furtherst distance is - e distance of e heart.][

][.The furtherst distance is - e distance of e heart.][

heyo bloggy..sudden haf a urge to blog..so jiu blog ba..haha hmm dunno wad i wanna blog too..so gotta be random la..haha

1st of all..i wanna thank sum1..thanks for being so understanding.."Ok.u all dun wan watch 2nd time oso nvm.No need always like that de.Since we accept ur other frens.We noe that u hav to spend time with them oso.We will understand."..to that special friend..haha thanks lots for ya understanding..it realli touches mi when i read that msg..we grew..chances to catch a particular movie tgt is getting harder n harder..cz of time..n e clashes..cz most prob that movie sum1 else will haf watched it too le..realli thankful that i gotta u all in my life..sum1 to lay bac on..i wun take u all for granted..n i hope no1 will..hee love u all always..=>u lean on mi and i lean on u and we will all haf support and stay strong..haha

den..hmm i came up wif a few ren shen dao ni while buying oreo..haha..=> we always noe that e particular place sells that thing..but after we left that place..we wun wanna turn bac..in fact we will jus walk n walk..jus to discover that in e end..we jus gotta go bac to e same old place to get that thing..is it stubborness ?..haha i dunno n dun realli tink so..its jus human..or maybe jus mi..

haha den e nxt one that i came up wif is..ppl always assume that e place that sells that thing will always sell it..haha taking things for granted..hee yah..i m like this too..i dun deny..

alright..aw ytr nite was fun..wif e oreo cheesecake n food..today was nat day celebration..so came hm super early be4 gg out wif bro..haha how much haf he grew man..from e little baby till sum1 who can take care of himself..soon he will jus be like mi ba..wanted to go take neoprint wif him..but e shop closed..yah..den today nat day celebration de time..i msg-ed wen..miss e times in ahs which we will stand up tgt to sing all we wan n throw face..but enjoy e process..i realli enjoyed em..this yr was jus sitting n stoning day..with occasional paint fights..it was fun..but when they were singing..i realli hope wen was dere wif mi..she was at ecp..hafing srjc road run..haha where u go? i miss u so..jkjk

den yah..haven get down to my work..but guess i gotta go pack my file n start work le ba..hee take gd care every1 !! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.sinne mi moro.][

][.sinne mi moro.][

unforgotten love..
haha this one ish copied from Love at 0 degree de show de..hee yah..aw haven been bloggin for ages..n this is such a bad time to blog..cz i jus reached hm..yesh..1plus am in e morning..n i gotta wakey at 6plus later..n i haf gotta do my pw eom n researched be4 i go out tml..thats like how POSSIBLE man..cz e other hw i can do outside..but pw cannot..i nd my com..

but aw nbm..in addition to that..i haf a whole CHUNK of hw..n i realli mean CHUNK..all by mon..wow..haha i m so going to survive thur mon man..promos is cuming n i m so not prepared la..realli not prepared..*shugs*..

aw..yah ytr was a fun day..got inter-hse captains ball..n soccer..den today ne..also quite fulfilling ba..haha went to catch e fireworks..hmm beautiful..n jus to quote from weixiang in love at 0degree.."Firework is v short-lived..i hate e short lived..but my mummy like the beautiful and magnificient beauty that they displays during that short moment.." are u one that enjoys short moments of joy..or everlasting moments..i wuld wanna everlasting moments..but if these everlasting moments ain't happy..i wuld choose e short n happy moments and keep em in my memories forever..

jus saw e lyrics of Photograph at wen's blog..e lyrics are so nice..memories..memories are essential in our life ba..memories in e past i treasure n rmb..walking past a certain place..doing sumthing silly..listening to a certain song..eating a certain kind of food..certain choice of words..practically everything will jus remind one of sum1 ba..i dun dare to assume..but at least thats for mi..=)..memories are meant to be kept and treasured..present is meant to be enjoyed and cherish..future is full of surprises..but i m still living at e present..so all i noe is..enjoy this special moment..

haha hao la..v crappy today..but e beautiful fireworks realli set mi thinking..hee n now i tink i m realli tired le..shall wakey later to do my pw..take gd care every1 ! byee..

..hate to see that tear..

][.FEarless.][
][.esto perpetual.][

][.perpetual.][

][.perpetual.][


~mei tian yi shou ge~
Everytime when I’m thinking of you
I just don’t know what to do
Tinge myself when I’m dreaming of you
Making sure that you can love me too.
How it slipped away
All my happy days
So I’m acting cool when I’m feeling blue
Just to show you that I’m through with you
Oh I never wanted to
How can love so beautiful ever slip away?
When I get to the place
I swear I’ll write you a song each & everyday
Oh god I’m missing you, is driving me so insane
Standing all alone in the pouring rain
Can’t explain..
Can’t explain..
All the pain..

haha this is e song that i haf been listening to..n repeating once n again..i finally dropped lit to h1 le..choice is made..=)..ytr n today had been great..i mean my fri n sat..our slumber party n our talks abt e past..i love these special moments spent wif these special peeps of my life..thanks for cuming into my life..6 ppl..+ 1 mixed species..

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.perpetual.][

][.wad was i doing.][

][.wad was i doing.][

hey bloggy..psps haven been bloggin for a wk le..act everyday i wanna blog..but jus dunno how to start..or else jiu shi too tired le..

life hasn't been a gd one this wk..but at least its still nice la..hai..got bac my results..gotta drop 1 sub to h1..i hate such choices..why mus there be choices in life..why are there decisions..i realli dread n hate making decision..but its part n parcel of life ba..

aw as i looked bac at my jc life..i realli feel like a useless piece of shit..compared to pri n sec sch..i realli feel like a small fry..sum1 so small n insignificant..haha results are like shit..how did i wasted my mths away man..gotta wake up n prove e world wrong..at least mus scrape thru promos n get promoted !..if not..i dunno wad will happen to mi..n i realli mean i dunno wad will happen..

haha hao la..feeling tired le..mentally n physically tired..i gotta rest 1st..tml i will hand in my drop to h1 form..n everything is going to start afresh..

to those who have been by my side n giving mi advice :
thanks..i realli appreciate..=)

take gd care every1..theres lots of nice song that i haf been listening to nowadays..shall share wif u guys nxt time..bye..eye lid dropping le..zZz..

][.FEarless.][
][.weak.][
][.thanks for being here for mi,my friend.][

][.if u need to crash den crash and burn.u r not alone.][

][.if u need to crash den crash and burn.u r not alone.][

hey bloggy..hee today's blog ne..i also dunno wad i wanna blog abt..but abt my treasured friends ba..i guess..hee ytr n today..sumthings happen n it realli make mi noe sumthing..n understand sumthings..haha..shall try to express how i feel via poem ba..dun like it to be in words sumhow..

ytr..
for everything there's a limit
even the most elastic rubber band will snap and break if u stretch it overboard

i saw e tears and i felt a sense of guilt..
overwhelming guilt and a sense of heartache..

was stunned and shocked..
was lost and din noe e right words and right thing to do..

first time ever i felt so helpless..
pray and hope that u will be ok..

finally when i saw ya smile..
i felt a sense of relieve..

haha yup thats how i felt ytr..hee ok..now shall try to write a poem abt today..

today..
everything was not going in the perfect way..
its not a nice day..
its jus another normal day which i haf many things on my mind..

was worried due to things that happened ytr..
was not realli in the mood..

but when i saw that msg..
i forgotten abt everything..
i felt a sense of helpless again..

u told mi to say anything..
n i was dumbfounded for a min..
i din noe the words that wuld cheer u up..

i was worried..
realli worried..
i hate e physical distance..
cz i realli hope to be by ya side at that moment..

u told mi u was crying..
n it jus worries mi even further..
i was helpless..
i jus wanna rush over n be by ya side..
i dun wanna noe e reason that u r sad..
but jus hope that u will feel better..

u told mi u r feeling better..
told mi not to worry anymore..
but that wun stop e worries my friend..
cz u r my friend forever..

hmm yeah man..thats how i felt ytr n today..din noe that i wuld ever feel so helpless when my friends tears..ha..was realli lost n din noe wad to do..haha maybe cz its always mi that is crying like a baby n em who always comfort mi ba..hai..useless man fe..onli noe how to cry..hao peng you cry le que dunno how..

but yuppy..jus wanna say this to my best n most treasured friends..
i may not be the best comforter
i may not have the right words for u..
i may not noe wad to do..

but i promise u..

i will be the best listener..
i will sit beside u..
i will stand by u..
i will be with u till u r feeling better..

if u need a shoulder to cry on..
take mine..
if u need a listener(a ear) for ya complains..
take mine..
if u need a punching bag to vent ya anger..
punch mi..

if u feel that your world is crushing down on u..
if u need to crash and burn..
rmb..
u r not alone..

yuppy..so hee bloggy ah..i pray..pray that both that i cherish is feeling better le..i pray that they will be ok..i pray that they will smile from the bottom of the heart soon..i pray n hope that if the pain is too much for them..jus give mi a call..n yuppy jus to let those that i treasure noe..if u need to cry..jus cry..there's no need to hold em back..cz i always believe that after a gd cry..u will feel much better than holding bac ya tears..dere's no nd to be strong in my presence..cz i haf nv been strong in front of u too..yup..thats how i feel..so u dun haf to agree with mi..=)..

hao la..aw..today's trng was not too bad..take gd care every1 ! a bit tired le..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.=) u all r my reasons to smile.][

][.relishing my precious memories.][

][.relishing my precious memories.][

remembered that i came across this quote sumwhere..
"you can take away everything from my life..but never will you be able to take away the memories that i had"..
yuppy..i like that quote..haha u can take away everything..but the memories that i shared will always be with me..

ooo aw..ytr (55 mins ago)..was a day full of memories..n looking back..n yah la..moi's bday..happy bday la moi !..haha

memories so sweet
memories so nice
memories worth keeping for life

as i look back at those memories
i smiled
i miss them so

jus how much i wish to have em by my side
sumthings change
but sum jus dun
n i believe that they nv will..

haha alrite..haf a nice chat wif wen today..hee or rather is i tok she listen ?..haha i dunno..reminds mi of the days at the back of e class..when lessons was going on n we lived in our own world chatting abt everything..haha its been years..so much memories that are treasured and remembered..now that we are on separate paths..sumthings changed..but sum remains..hee its jus all amazing fate..

thanks for this fate..
thanks for bringing my friends to my life..
thanks for turning my life ard like a windmill..

was realli kind of disappointed and worried for my freakingly poor mye results..realli but wad can i do?..jus gotta start working hard n buck up le ba..was kind of sianz inside..but hai hao ba..get to meet wen n recall all the beautiful memories..it nv fails to make my day..but lets cont to make more memories that will be with us forever yeah..hee n of cz had lots of laughs n was e "clown" during moi's mini celebration in sch..haha another page of beautiful memories to be kept..

diff friends
diff characters
diff joys and tears shared
but similar precious memories treasured.

n yup..din noe if i shuld msg sum1..cz realli nt feeling that great abt my results..so jus msg-ed n got a reply..was realli happy..

din noe that i wuld still be so happy abt receiving a msg frm U..
however my immediate reaction had betrayed the calmness that i tot i wuld haf..
i miss those days..
days which i will mug hard n scroll down my hp to look for encouragin msg by U..

its been long since that happen..
but whenever i m down..
i jus hope that u will be here..
jus be here
to tell me to go on..

if wad i do is a little act of kindness..
then wad u do wuld be..
e greatest motivation..

haha hao la every1..gd nite..go le..byee ! tc..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.nice.][

][.nice.][

head is still aching..
damm it..
headache seems to be wif me..
hee aw today's bloggy is to post a nice song de lyrics..
i tink e lyrics are realli nice..
but when i listen to that song..
its realli slow dao..
n i realli like sentimental n slow songs de la..
but its even slow to me la..
haha but i realli tink e lyrics is v meaningful..
so dere u go..
dedicated to all out there (esp my friends)..
forever5 !

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend
If the sky above you
Should grow dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud, yeah
Soon I'll be knocking at your door
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yes I will
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don't you let them
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yes I will.
You've got a friend
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again (oh baby don't you know)
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is callLord,
I'll be there yes I will.
You've got a friend
Oh, you've got a friend.
Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 !..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.where u go.][
][.i miss u so.][
][.i hate e physical distance btw us.][
][.how much i hope that i will haf all of ur to be by my side always.][

][.swing.][

][.swing.][

i m sitting on a swing now..
hafing mood swing..
haha thats so lame..
ha
ha
ha..

been hafing headache for the whole of last wk..i mean realli headache..those head pain that kind..dunno wad kind of pain is that too..damm sianz jiu shi le..

aw today had trng..hmm haha wad can i say..i will rmb wad cindy coach n daisy snr say ba =)
thanks lots to both..den went to eat mee sua..

hmm head still pain..damm it..haha hao la..go le ba..take gd care every1 ! byee..

When I smile
I smile for you

When I cry
I hope you are nearby

You see
You are everything to me

You are my special friend
You are my beginning
and my end..

i jus hope you are nearby..
jus be here for me..
whenever i m lost n unmotivated..
all i do is recall all those that you had told me..

][.FEarless.][
][.headache.][
][.jus be here for me.][
][.n i will be strong.][

][.friendship poems.][

][.friendship poems.][

haha hmm after printing out all e wilfred owen's war poems..i haf a sudden urge to write a poem regarding friendship..haha but realli v tired le..so decided to go search for sum friendship poems online..hee yeah..so e below are wad i haf found..they r realli nice..n i tink they does reflect how i feel abt friendship or maybe my friendships..haha read on if u haf e time to spare..hope u enjoy e poems as much as i do..n of coz..enjoy n cherish ya friendship as much as i do..=)

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.


Forgiving Friends
by Hunniebe

You are my best friend
You always will be
Yet sometimes I get mad at you
And you get mad at me
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I don't know what to do
But remember always
That I will forgive you


Promise
by Jessica Sills

As you sit in silence,
Wondering whyI'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.


Friends 4-Life
by Doryan Hallicy

Friends 4- life is what we are
Through thick and thin you were my friend
Leaning on you, you gave me support
The strength to get up and go again

If my heart was shattered, you'd heal it
If my heart was happy, we both rejoiced in it

You are my best friend
always and forever
It's been good
the best friendship ever
Never end, now and forever


True Friend
by Rochelle Bue

Excitement and fear fill our hearts.
Soon a new way of life will start.
Thirteen years have almost past.
But in our mind the memories last.

We've been through it all.
And realized who are true friends are.
The one that was there.
When no one else seemed to care.

So as our senior year comes to an end.
I want to say, thanks for being a true friend.


What You Mean To Me ...
by Nikkie

You turned my darkness into light;
You made everything all right.
You picked me up when I was down;
You turned my life around.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;
Even if it seemed like you didn't care.
When I didn't think I could make it another day,
You chased all my doubts away.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;
But there is only one of you.
You fill my heart with love;
You're a God-sent gift from above.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;
Because you are here with me.
There is no reason to be sad;
You've taken away all the bad.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A best friend is what you are to me!!

haha yuppy..thats sum of e poems that i tink are realli nice..so jus wanna blog em down n share..haha hao la..kind of late le..gd nite every1!..byee..take gd care..

where u go..
i miss you so..
memories treasured..
now and forever..
all i hope for is a reply to e msg..
a random phone call..
wherever you go..
whatever you do..
i will be right here..
waiting for you..
my most treasured friends..

][.FEarless.][

][.against the odds.][

][.against the odds.][

hey bloggy..haha hasn't blog for a v long time le..hee thou its onli a wk..but it seems quite long to mi ba..but nbm..shall blog now while waiting for humphery kor kor to cum n be4 i can go slp..haha

alright..kind of decided to blog abt my last wk ?..hee it was kind of beautiful day ?..haha i cannot rmb exactly wad happened..but i will jus note down wad i rmb ba..hee

5/7/2006
jing's bday..haha be4 that went for a jog and bike at ecp..met auntie joy lame si ren aka letter box..haha den kind of beautiful day ba..a day filled wif laughters..haha wif jing dian moments of ppl blading into a tree..falling down etc..haha den met up wif wen n went to celebrate jing's bday..haha jus a sweet simple day..which i say is beautiful..

6/7/2006
haha if i nv rmb wrongly..went to wen's hse again..cz moi left her wallet dere e day be4..den decided to pei moi go swim..she do her rehab..i practice my swimming..den jacuzzi..haha another slacked n nice day..

haha ok..den fri..hmm kind of forgot wad i did..but mus haf been a nice day too la..den sat..went cycling at ecp again..cycled to one end of ecp wif 2 pros..haha or rather i m jus slow..but i swear i did tried to pick up speed n i did ok..jus that still lagged..aw thats nt e main pt..e main pt is..we get to c aeroplanes flyin past us at e end of ecp..den went to sbc to watch e nationals team against sum aust team..den went for swimming lessons n pia cab down to meet fat french fries,yq and hui2 n of cz janice..haha had bbq..n did i mention..e cabby brought mi to sengkang instead of pp in e 1st place..so i almost vomit on e cab..cz of car sick n heart pain coz of e cab fare..yup..

haha ok..sun was kind of a norm n sianz day..cz trng was cancelled n was kind of lost..but haha wc finals kind of made my day..hee slept at ard10pm..n woke up wif daddy to watch e game till ard 5plus..haha go against e odds *beams*..hee..ok..so is today morning ! woohoo i was praying for a day off ! but dere wasn't la..but at least there was off at 12:25..haha gao xing dao siao ! haha..yup..n quite a nice n normal day la..hee

hao la..shall end here..kor kor reached le..but went out to eat again..*faints*..haha..bye every1 ! nitey..tc !

..a friend who misses his/her bus to acc u to wait for ur bus..
..thanks for giving mi so many wonderful friends..
..n of coz..at least 2 who had acc mi to wait for my bus by missing em on purpose..
..thanks..
..its more than words =P..

][.FEarless.][
][.jus be here for me.][

][.dun close your eyes.if not u will miss e happiness in front of you.][

][.dun close your eyes.if not u will miss e happiness in front of you.][

jus watched Ps. i love you (tian shi wo ai ni) haha..guardian angel = > jus a turn around n i will be dere..to protect u..haha lalala..where's my guardian angel ?..hee

alright..stop my crapping..but sumtimes i realli wonder where's my guardian angel..hee..ok..yup..aw ps. i love you got quite a few nice nice words n pharses..but i like this one la.. "dun close your eyes.if not u will miss e happiness in front of you"..

n yah..that day watched jus my luck..den got this cliche line -> "when one door closes..another two opens" & "if u use one min to be sore abt life..u lost another min of happiness in life"..

n when i watched rebound..dere's this nice pharse which i had heard else "it takes more muscles to frown than to smile"

yup..these are a few nice lines that i gotta from this few shows that i watched nowadays..haha been slacking quite a bit..n then today back to trng..haha since how long haf i last touched a ball man..hmm e last time i did was during e hols when we went back to ahs to play ba..haha

hmm aw..alj trng is at kkcc today..haha kampong kembagan community club..haha went pretty early..cz din noe we wuld reach so early..den yah..trng..almost died during e warm up rounds onli..cz realli din run for a long time le..den dere's trng..den hmm 5 on5 3 sets..ok la..quite fun..maybe thats becoz i hasn't gotta play bball for a long time le ba..but gotta 3 wounds now..toes due to e shoes..elbow..dunno who scratched n collar bone dere got one more scratch..but that one shuld be lqjl ba..cz she say so..haha but nbm nbm..sorry to all that i was rough on today..esp buddy n sian ma..yup..

ok..so after trng went to had dinner wif moi,jas,shao ji..den hear jas toking abt their combine..u18..u20..haha lalala..yup..den came hm n watched ps.i love you..

haha den ytr..quite a nice day too..went to swim at downtown east..n i can tell u..e water is realli dirty..after being to nice pools such as the one at yio chu kang..haha i jus hope downtown east de can quick quick change water..haha n e sunset..clouds..was realli nice..hee swam 45 small laps..hee which acc to sum "unreliable info"..its 15 real laps..haha den yah..in e morning was supposed to go swim de..but ha ha ha..e pool at that place is not for e public =p..so ended up eating n slacking till noon..watching rebound..haha quite a nice day la..ROW ! haha..

its time to move on
i m out of the world of playing the game in that way
i must accept it
n i will

its been quite a period of time
been trying to get over n move on
its not easy
but i noe its jus the stubborn mi
the stubborn side which refuse to let go

but now
all i wanna do is
let go..
fang shou..
rang zhi ji fei xiang..

wo bu gen ren he ren shou jin tian de tong
na shi yin wei
wo ren wei
wo bu ying gai zai wei na jian shi er liu lei le
wo yao xue hui jian qiang
wo yao kuai le de da wo yao da de qiu
guo qu jiu rang ta guo qu

wo zhi xiang zhen xi wo yong you de xian zai
..i only wanna treasure wad i haf now..
..wads in e past will jus remain as memories..
..e good ones will remain as memories..
..e bad ones will become a part of my life..
..i jus gotta look forward..
..life is all about moving on =)..
..be strong..
..move on..
..i promise to smile..
..the next time i hear abt all these..
..i promise i will jus smile..
..n it will be from the bottom of my heart..
..i dun wanna allow myself to be hurt again..
..wun =P..

haha hao la..take gd care every1 !..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.where are you?.][
][.be strong n move on.][

][.7 yrs le.][

][.7 yrs le.][

hey bloggy..sorry ah..threw temper on u this morning..cz realli felt veri pek che..but yeah man..no worries..i ok le..realli sorry..jus that agrh..my bro is still nt well..still running a high fever..i wonder wads the stupid disease man..pls pls let him recover soon !..

yup..aw..today isn't that screwed up anymore..went to wen's hse at ard 7 plus..reached there ard 8 plus..watched daisy till ard 10plus..den duo qiang shi jie till ard 11..den pillow fight..n deciding on wad to watch on mon..haha den here i m bac hm..woohoo..s'pore is jus so small..jus a 15 mins cabby ride n here i m hm..

haha realli makes mi tink of sumthing..as long as u make an effort..u will still be able to keep in touch wif ya friends..so do make an effort yeah..haha act thats kind of reminding myself..do i make an effort ?..haha lalala crapping..

hmm yeah man..aw fungi was telling us wad wen said while on our cabby ride hm..those words that wen said while jing n fungi was playing street fighter..haha too bad i wasn't dere to hear wen say those..but yeah man..thats how i felt too..so dun nd shy la wen..haha

dere's always star ard..
u jus gotta find ya fav ones..
once u found yours..
be dere for em..
cz i noe..
they will be dere for u too..
i jus love the simplicity of this friendship..
i love the stupid times..
i love the crazy times..
i love the silent times..
i love the truthful time..
memories treasured..
lets cont to make more =)..

haha hao la..shall go le..n yeah man..today is not such a screwed up day afterall..dere's always a reason to smile ! *pls remember that man*..haha i was toking to myself..psps..hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..yeah..going swim swim ! ha

][.FEarless.][
][.i love.i treasure.i hold on.][
][.pls let didi get well soon !.][

][.DAMM SCREWED DAY.][

][.DAMM SCREWED DAY.][

haf u ever tried planning for a perfect day ?
looked forward to that perfect day ?
slept at nite wif a smile ?
woke up wif a smile ?
looked forward to that whole nice day ?
n then everything that is planned cannot be carried out ?
u need to forsake your whole perfect day ?

if u haf not..
i hope u wun ever haf to..
cz that feeling suxz !!!!!!!
suxz to the core !!!!
thats how i m feeling now..
damm sucky..damm screwed..damm irritated..damm pissed..damm agrh..
YES !!!!!
thats how i m feeling now..DAMM !!!!!!

today's supposed to be forever5's day..we r supposed to go swim n watch movie de..DAISY ! the one that i had been looking forward to..there's nothing on my mind apart from waking up and go wen hse n slack n rest for a day after all these days of sickening mye !..but guess wad..i woke up wif a tear..n i m still tearing now !! damm screwed !!..why ?!

let mi tell u why ?! (if u r not interested..i m sorry..but i m v pek che now..so dun provoke mi any further !)
i woke up knowing that my bro is down wif a high fever !..yes i dun blame him..its not his fault that he wanna get sick wad..i m jus freakingly pissed of wif the stupid disease that cause him to be sick today !!! why today !!!! wad the hell !!!!!!! its my perfect day man..n now its ruin !!!!!! R- U- I- N !!! GONE !!! G-O-N-E GONE !!!!! gotta bring him to e doc n stay at hm the whole freaking day !!!! cz mummy nd to go for tuition later !!!!!!!

n on top of that !!!!!! i m blasting my mp3 to the loudest now !!!!! cz she is scolding n scolding none-stop !!!! cz of my fone bill n coz she say i onli care abt myself !!!!! WAD THE HELL !!!!..if i onli care abt myself i wun be stuck at hm the whole freaking day now !!!!! i m damm damm damm damm pissed now !!!!!!! i m so pissed n screwed that i jus feel like punching sumthing !!!! n i m quite sure that thing will suffer !!!!!!

AGRH AGRH AGRH AGRH AGRH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I M GOING CRAZY !!!!!!!
I M SO ANGRY !!!!!!!
I M SO SAD !!!!!!!
I M SO SCREWED !!!!
WAD A SCREWED DAY !!!!
WAD A WAY TO "ENJOY" YOUR DAY RIGHT AFTER EXAMS !!!!!!!
DAMM SHITY !!!!!!
AGRH AGRH AGRH !!!!!!!

][.FEarless.][
][.status : damm pissed.damm screwed.][

][.just my luck.][

][.just my luck.][

haha helloo bloggy ! hasn't blog e past few days due to sumthing known as e mYe..haha it seems like i had brought a screwdriver into every single exam hall..coz i practically screwed everything up..haha esp maths ba..e most cham paper that i had ever done =P..realli..but there's nth i can say la..i din put in that effort ba..hee

hao la..lets nt tok abt exams le..it had caused mi much slp for e past few days n wks..n now that i m toking..my knee hurts ! damm..jus discovered tat i hasn't been touching bball for quite a long time le..since we went bac to play at ahs during e fri during e hols..haha..realli v long le..lost touch wif e ball le ba..kinda of miss it..but be4 i get bac to it..i gotta train bac my stamina n shed off all e wts that i put up during this exam period ba..haha so much that i wanna do..yeah..glad that exams is over..at least for now..

haha n yeah man ! tml is forever5 day..it seems like a gd day =P haha n went to watch jus my luck today..haha had a great laugh..e underlying story quite nice de..but haha sumhow i hoped that e show wuld go on..cz got lots of cliche stuffs that i like..n McFly de songs quite nice de..thou they r rock songs n not my type..but i tink its not bad..haha so is realli nt bad de =P at least to mi la..

n yah..toking abt songs..dere's a few nice songs that i jus came across recently..
~yi ge xiang xia tian..yi ge xiang qiu tian~
~la ji che~
haha n McFly de songs..haha n tension de gan qing xian etc..haha ok..i realli tired le..cmi le ! take gd care every1!..shall blog again soon..tctc..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.it's all about u.][
][.status : super tired.][

][.everything happens for a reason.but maybe for sumthings there's jus no reason.][

][.everything happens for a reason.but maybe for sumthings there's jus no reason.][

haha hey bloggy..i m damm tired le..so dead for mye..haha..dunno how m i going to face it man..but wadever it is la..hmm ok..jus wanna blog a little..hee

yeah i noe today my bloggy's title v contradicting ba..everything happens for a reason n yet sumthings jus haf no reason for it..haha i also dunno wad i toking now..i guess i m crapping ba..but thats what i feel..

there's a reason that heaven let u meet ppl ba..
i rmb i came across this..
good friends are siblings that heaven giv u..

for every1 u meet in life..
there's a reason..
they are either here to acc u..protect u..
or they are here to hurt u..so that u can grow stronger in e process..

haha everything that happens in life..
it happens for a reason..
and u will grow n learn from it..

but sumhow..dere's jus no reason n explaination to certain things ba..
haha thats wad i feel la..

haha hmm a bit tired le..so dunno wad i m toking abt..but shall blog again abt this..hee take gd care every1 ! byee..wan an n zao an..

][.FEarless.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.jus be here for mi.]
][.n i will be jus fine.][
][.never be replaced.][

][.haha funny.][

][.haha funny.][

haha ok..actually wanted to blog abt e 3 movies that i watch ytr n today de..i mean sun n mon..haha 1 vcd , 1 tv , 1 movie..haha they are : Summer I love you , Wo de ah pa zhen bao zha and almost love...haha yup..note down 1st..so that nxt time when i m in a mood to blog abt it again i will la =P..hee

alrite..1 last wk to exams..i m so dead ! haha realli cham le..haven touch hist n lit..maths n econs is like nowhere..yah..n i had a GP nitemare jus last nite..sianz..why mus we haf mye rite after hols..so no mood to prepare n yet haf to..haha haiz..

but nbm yup..esplanade at nite shi man mei de..hee alrite..shall not digress le..actually today i blog is to ask bloggy = U..and those reading this entry now..

Qn :
haha haf u ever had a friend which u dunno how to address ??..haha like u dunno wad name to call that friend..like wadever name u use to call that person jus sounds weird n not right..haha but when others use that name to address that friend of yours..its jus sounds so natural la..haha i noe this sounds quite idiot..but hmm still wondering..how do u communicate wif sum1 without calling e name 1st de =P..haha bloggy ah..u got this kind of stupid situation be4 ma? =P lalala..

haha yah..thats my qn..hee so if any of you gotta this kind of stupid situation..do tag yeah =P..haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! n hmm yah..watched Almost love..n there's this meaningful line la.."Smile n good things will cum your way..not the other way round"..haha i kind of like this..so jus wanna share n hope u will like it too =P..tctc byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.wo shi 1031.][

][.300th post !.i found my cd le !.][

][.300th post !.i found my cd le !.][

haha tai bang le tai bang le ! wan sui wan sui wan wan sui !!! i found my music diary cd 1 le ! tai bang le ! ahh..shi er fu de ! gan jue hen hao!!! xing qing bian hao le !!! thankie mummy for finding my bao bei cd !..music diary cd 1 , 2 , 3 ! yeah zhao dao le !..300th post is my happy post..

lalala..take gd care every1 ! shall blog again later =P bye..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.happy me.][
][.why ?.][
][.found IT le !.][

][.my music diary cd 1.][

][.my music diary cd 1.][

today is father's day..
my hse hafing father's day party now..
lots of food..
lots of noise..

i m in my rm..
listening to music diary cd3..
mood : super sad..
status : going mad soon
reason : i lost my music diary cd1..

there's nth else i wan now apart from finding my music diary cd 1..ah..where is it?..i noe i nv ever lend music diary cd to any1 de..mummy say daddy hao xiang borrowed it from mi..but daddy say nv..
i searched my whole drawer..searched everywhere in my rm..but still can't find it..agrh ! i realli wanna fa feng le..its my music diary cd 1 leh! e 1st one !..e one which has signature on it..e one which i took a pic..e 1st one..its not e 3rd one..cz if 3rd one..now it will still be in e market..

i called wen..cz she is e onli hope le..cz i sort of rmb that she got buy music diary cd 1..cz i told her its super nice..wen say she will give mi her copy if i can't find mine..thanks lots wen..but i wanna find mine..wo zhen de yao fa feng le !..

music diary cd 1 !!!! pls pls pls be safe !!! pls cum back to mi !!! o bring back..o bring back..o bring back my yin yue ri ji cd 1 to mi !..

..fe..
..wo yao wo de music diary cd 1 now..
..apart from this..bie chao wo..
..dui bu qi..
..xing qing zao tou le..

][.smiley.kai xin shi FEI chang zhong yao de.][

][.smiley.kai xin shi FEI chang zhong yao de.][

haha bloggy ! i m in e mood to lame si ni..so i m gonna post lots of pics..haha..ok la..wanted to take all e smiley that i haf de..but cam spoil la..so went to e webby to find..n theres lots la..so jus wanna post on ya..so that more can smile (cz i smiled when i saw em) ! hee happiness is e most valuable possession..laughter is the best medicine..my wish : every1 i care to be happy..n is those truly happy de..not faking a smile kind..=)




haha smile ! smile ! look at e smileys n smile ba ! hee today's bloggy purpose is jus to make sure U..yes u..e one reading this entry now *5milez*..haha smile ba..i forget e exact no. le..but it takes lesser no. to smile than to frown ! so..smile ba..hee *5mile cz ya 5mile is e reason for many others to smile*..haha i still gotta many more smiley de pics..but too many le la..so jus post a few..haha amazing huh..so many smiley products..ranging from keychains..to cookies..to rings..to yard design..haha all these created jus to make sure we smile ! hee

haha hao la..end here le ! take gd care every1 ! bye..n rmb to smile ok..cz u r special n ur smile is e reason for many other's smile..haha i love e 2 kids pic in particular..so innocent n happy feeling =p

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.5mile.cz u r my reason to smile.][
][.but dun nd to force a smile when u r down.][
][.cz i will be here for u.][

][.feelings.][

][.feelings.][

ok now is 7:33pm..
gan chu hen duo..
hasn't been hm so early for this hols..

haha but today got pw..n e lazy mi decided nt to go bac to study out..
so came bac hm n pig..den hmm went to a few blogs..
haha read 2 in particular n kinda of earned my tears..

I would gladly want a hug from you.You would make things ok...You always do.But I realised that I haven't done anything for us for the past few years.
I haven't been there when Wen's going through her awful period.
I haven't been there when Moi lost her favourite passion due to her injury.
I haven't been there when Fe felt that nothing's going right for her.
I haven't been there when you were hurt by your commando.
I selfishly went on alone without you all, thinking that scars would eventually heal and you would carry on by yourselves.I'm not strong, neither are all of you.

i read this n i teared..thats jing's reply to fungi..i noe i m a crybaby..can lol if u wan..but it jus makes mi feel so much..i immediately went to our bloggy to blog..trying to re-assure zhu tous that i will still be dere..jus a call away..which is wad i promise n always will be..but after bloggin..i felt e same too..where m i when they needed mi e most?..where was i?..was i dere by their side?..i dun seem to rmb so..maybe apart from that stupid woman (moi)..i was nt dere for em..i m realli sorry zhu tous..i hate to say sorry to u all..cz sorry is jus myself trying to reduce my "guilt"..n it serves no purpose to u all..but jus once again..for e dunno how many times..*always in my heart*always dere*my onli forever*

den hmm yup..realli glad that we got to meet up during this hols..thou its at moi's ward..but who cares..i love e simple moments with u all..playing cards..laming our way thur things..like little kids..wo jiu shi xi huan zhe yang jian jian dan dan de wo men..n i suddenly feel that..friendship is e effort made..but it dun matter who sacrifice more or less..thats wad i feel la..cz if its sumthing i realli cherish..i dun mind doing more..n its not counted as sacrifice..but thats onli how i feel..dun haf to agree wif mi la =p

haha alrite..hmm jus kit tung em all of a sudden..haha act is always la =P..hee aw mye is real near..n i hasn't been productive yet..still got tons to study..n jus receieved e msg that we r officially out of milo cup..haha stoned for a moment..its all over..=)..guess i jus gotta smile.."dun cry cz its over..but smile cz it happened"..tctc every1 ! byee..

*excellence is not found in being e best.but is in doing your best*

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.forever5.][

][.deres always a reason to =).n u r my reason to =).][

][.deres always a reason to =).n u r my reason to =).][

now is 12:30am..gd morning bloggy..
haha had been wanting to blog these few days..
but blogger dou dun allow mi to..so haha yah..
yes..thats why i m onli blogging now..

haha jus lost to stackers..47-64..
haha end of milo cup..
hmm disappointment ?..
yup..but ok le la..i guess..
jus din get a chance to thank all my team mates n coaches..
so jus wanna say a big thank you to em now..
ha..such a fast gd bye..
its been a nice "stay"..
hope i get to thank each of em personally sum day..

den to mei..
haha for e 106 time i m telling u..
i m serious de ok =p..hee
c..a..n..
*thats so random* but nbm..U will und de =p

alrite..this wk has been quite a relaxing one ba..hasn't realli gotten down to my bks..but now that milo cup has ended for mi..i guess i shuld be guai n heed auntie joy lame si ren's advice ba..get down n study =P..

*sink into low mode again*
dun tok abt it..
it still hurts..
dun remind mi of e game..
dun ask..
dun touch e unhealed wound..
und ?..

alrite..thats random again..but thats how i felt at that moment..sorry moi..its not becoz of u..paiseh that we haf to hang up..nt realli in e rite mood to tok abt that too..yup..

ok..my wk..s day =P..sea.sunset.sandcastle.slacking.study day =P..hee its been a nice day..
haha hao la bloggy..i noe that i can blog..but not realli in that high mood to blog anymore now..realli sorry for this mood swing wow bloggy..

take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.teach mi to be strong.][

][.stars are brightest at your darkest moments.][

][.stars are brightest at your darkest moments.][

haha act i wanted to blog ytr de..but can't..so nbm..i shall blog nw..n blog abt both ytr n today..
hee..dou shi man happy de la..

ytr..hmm went to study wif pres n employer n van..den went trng..den went bac study..act i din realli study much la..hee den went to supermarket to shop..haha i love to play e trolley ! hao hao wan o..den home be4 i went to find moi..haha e stars ytr nite was realli nice..n i was e "passenger" of moi's bike ma..so its like..i feel so tall n so near to e skies..haha act nt v near la..jus that i imagine =p

haha..den i saw my singapore tei ta..haha singapore tower..u noe..tokyo tower..paris tower..i saw singapore tower n i took a pic of it..haha n yah..lie down see stars realli nice ! haha den we went to downtown east n ate lots of food..

haha den went to arcade n play..haha its been so long since i play like soooo much le la..or rather its been so long since i spent money on arcade..hee we played racing car..den moi's drum..den jurasic park..den tou tou lan ji..haha basketball thingy..haha we jus shoot like mad la..haha so lame..can get to shoot during trng de time you find it so tiring..but we shoot dao v shuang ytr..den sweat like siao too..thou we din get to break e high score..but still v shuang la..den after that i took e manual bike hm..den haha yah..end e day quite nice de ba..e shooting of baskets shot all e unhappy things away ba ;p den received a v nice e-card..shall nt say its from who..but it was realli nice ba..hee..thanks lots =P

den today..hmm woke in e morning n went for breakfast wif zhus..haha i mean my family..den went to town wif jing n wen..haha den jus eat n eat.shop a bit..cz jing n mi realli v tired le =p..den went for e game..haha i realli wanna tired dao peng le la..dunno why today so tired..haha den warm up de time i v nua..den later came e rim spoilt thingy..den coach was asking if we shuld postpone e game etc ma..den i also dunno..they discuss den i jus no yi jian (opinion) la..haha so in e end we jus played..n it was like so anyhow jiu ok play..i realli nt warm up yet..but haha yeah..i m glad we played..n won..61-47..haha yeah thank you home =P..haha n yah la..mus thank lots of ppl today..my family , n gan die.gan ma n c mei..n ah yi.ah duin n yi song..den moi..van..employe for her brownie..pres..mei..buddy n ah sam..haha realli thanks lots thou i also dunno why =P ! n yeah..e win made my nite =P..hee jia u home ! den went for dinner n now haha i m hm..jus wanna blog down this 2 beautiful day !

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..

i read e msg be4 e game today..
it was sent so long ago..
i changed e team n read on..
i told myself to fight hard..
jus for e v last sentence that u once msg-ed mi..
i teared..
shou hou xing..


][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.where r u?.][
][.disappeared into e thin air ?.][

][.sayang.][

][.sayang.][

i like this pic..
sayang..
bei teng de gan jue..
wo xiang mei ge ren dou xi huan ba..
ni xi huan ma ?..
wo xi huan..=)
*random*



Have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago
Another place, another time, a friendship of the souls?
Two people who share a bond for reasons neither know,
A feeling that they were friends, a long, long time ago?
Did they stumble onto each other by pure circumstance,
Or was it fate and destiny that played a certain hand?
Two souls intertwined, they are worlds apart
But the soul, it knows no difference, in matters of the heart.
Somehow they are drawn together, fate has brought them back,
Each living worlds apart, they journey separate paths.
When this life is over, and a new life begins,
Their souls will find each other, two souls that we call friends.

=>provided by auntie joy lame si ren..haha i tink its very nice..so jus wanna share n hope u like it too..

haha here's another one..also v nice ! haha i tink v nice la..

some things we will never understand why.
why do tears fall when sadness reigned
why do smiles shine out when happiness soars
why somehow.
i met you.

like a blazing lonestar on a moonsoaked night.
you came along and brought all that light.
when all seemed dark and the road seemed long
you spread your wings round me and i could go on.

sometimes it seems it was all meant to be.
the word 'coincidence' was not for you and me.
my time here ceases day by day
but dreams of many tomorrows together keeps the faith.

i never knew why it was meant to be.
i dont question why it was meant to be.
i just know it was meant to be.
being friends, you and me, was meant to be.

haha hao la..end of random-ness..take gd care every1 ! byee..



][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.hao xiang zhe yang kao zhe ni.][

][.hao xiang zhe yang kao zhe ni.][

bloggy..
i haf no idea wad i m blogging..
or wad i wanna blog..

i jus woke up from my nap..
cz today walked from mj to pasir ris park..
realli tiring n i wonder how i did it..

haha mus be becoz got companion ba (fungi)..
today is a nice slacked day..
so nice n slack that i do feel a little guilty now..
but wadever..
at least i enjoyed my day..

still feeling a little sleepy now..
but..
can't get back to slp..

i m jus typing on n on..
hao la..
stop here..

take gd care every1 !
bye..

*i went to e beach today*
..i wrote ya name in e sand..
..but e wind blew it away..
..e waves washed it away..

but no worries..
ya name is engraved in my heart..
n kept dere..
always..

~hugz~

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.15.][
][.guardian angel.where r u?.][

][.thank you my friend.][

][.thank you my friend.][

was doing this quiz online jus..like a few moments ago..hmm din believe that it will be so true..but e ans at e end of e quiz is realli v true..

its a quiz regarding e kind of friend that u wuld wan to be with u..n mine happens to be sum1 like this..

mY Supportive Sidekick
You know who we're talking about — the champion consoler, the person you can always count on, the person who knows how to clean up even after the biggest emotional superspill of your life. This friend gives you a one-on-one rush like no other. This confidante for all seasons can probably even read your mind just a little. Or don't you remember the last time they finished a sentence for you?

n yah..i tink its v true..i realli nd such friends..i dun deny..i m v dependent..but onli towards those that i trust..these few days i realli tot of lots..yup..lots..tot of all e friends that i haf met in my life journey..

sum came n stayed n i haf gave them a key known as forever..cold wars..quarrels..but in e end..everything will be back to be4..n in fact even better than be4..cz thur these..we understand e importance of one another even more..n dun wanna lose this friendship thou we nv say..as we cont wif our life..we find new friends who we can depend on..but nv will i forget these friends whom i can FaLl back on..anytime..those whom u do stupid things together..n laugh at ur stupidity together..those that shows u time will be e witness for our nv ending friendship..those that u suffer together n share e happiness together*thanks to em..zhu tous..*sae rang hoe yo..thanks for understanding mi n accepting mi e way i m..in front of u all..i nv had to put on my brave front..thanks for trusting mi..

sum came n stayed for a short while..making an impact in ya life..taught u things n were close for a period of time..but after that as we grow..differences surface n jus as ice n fire cannot be together..this friendship will somehow gradually fade away..but during this period of time..this friend realli taught u alot..n was realli dere for u when u nd a listening ear..a shoulder to cry on..but due to e ideology diff..i left..cz its realli hard to be close friends wif sum1 who has diff ideologies..but i m realli grateful that in my life..i met sum1 like her who taught mi things that i nv knew..n gave mi e special friendship that i will always rmb..thou it did not last..but i mus say n tell her if she ever read this..i m thankful..n sorry..*thanks n sorry hope we still can be friends*

sum friends are those that u will say "hi" n "bye" to..n crap together on e way to school..i m thankful for em too..*thanks lots*

sum are those we enter ya life n stayed..promised to keep in contact but nv..however when e occasion cums..u will still meet up n reminisince the great old n short sweet period of time that u all had spent together n update each other regarding each other's life..*thanks to u gals too..*thanks for bringing joy to my life*..hee

sum are those who enter ya life..n bring joy to ya life..they nv fail to encourage u n trust u..n care for u..*thanks lots x1000 to infinity*

ok..now my supportive sidekick..
ha..i always believed in fate..but i nv believed that time isn't a factor till this yr..or shuld i say last yr end ?..yup..cz i can say that i m lucky to haf found my supportive sidekick..n dere's 2..they are quite common n yet not that common..but to mi..they are both my ss..haha..i will turn to em..although i dunno both of em for as long as zhu tous..but i dunno..haha fate ? or maybe becoz they are more snr than mi ?..(thou they act like a child =P) but yup..they seems to be dere at my lowest pt..(my min pt of graph)..guiding mi along n jus being dere to make sure i bounce bac..n giv mi advices..i m thankful that i found em..realli thankful to haf met em..thou e time we noe each other is realli not long..but it seems like ages..*thanks 13/2 n 13/5* hee

hao la..v tired le..realli..shall end here..thanks to all my friends..take gd care..byee!

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.friends forever.][
][.guide mi.][

][.fixing a broken heart.][

][.fixing a broken heart.][

There was nothing to say the day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain,
oohThen like an answered prayerI turned you around and found you there
* You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart
Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappearsIn every moment that you are neat, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You must the londliness easy to bear
* repeat
Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past'cause here we are at leat
* repeat

fixing a broken heart..fix a broken heart will u ?..will u my guardian angel ?..
do you heard my cries for u to fix a broken heart ?
i realli nd ya my guardian angel..
i realli nd ya..

i haf been trying to be strong..
i promised to fight my best..
but guardian angel..
where r u ?
tell mi where r u ?
i nd a break n i nd u to be here..
i nd ya advice..
i nd ya guidence..
guide mi..

today is e 1st milo cup game..against bradell hts at bradell hts..47 - 50..we lost 3 pts..thanks team mates ! lets cont fighting hard n win e remaining game yeah..thanks to all alj fellow team mates n friends who was there to cheer..zhen de xie xie ni men..

actually now..i m feeling lots..realli lots..but..i jus dunno how to say..or maybe wo bu xiang suo ba..i dunno..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..=)

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.where are u ?.][
][.lei shui ren bu zhu de hua luo le.][
][.dan ni ren ran mei chu xian.][

][.told myself to be strong.but.i m still hoping.][

][.told myself to be strong.but i m still hoping.][

hey bloggy ! alright..i m realli going crazy over my pw..at 1st i tot it will be fine *humph*..but wadever it is..we still nd to do it rite..so lets hope orange5 will jia u tgt ba ! 1 mre hr to e DEADline of our GpP..its getting us crazy..agrh !

alright..shall not tok abt gpp anymore..allow mi to blog a little while i cont my research..ok..had hm u trng today..be4 that met pres for lunch n supposed study session..but as i was rushing my pw this morning n e tian cai de pres overslept..we ended up onli being able to eat lunch =p after that i went for trng..while pres guai guai de stay n study n shop ?..haha dunno la =p..

hmm ok trng..today was a little tiring..haha i feel that my knee is failing mi..lots of lime n lemons..damm it !..n yah..mon is e 1st milo cup game le..i truly pray that everything will be gd n we will go far..that was wad caca was asking mi..i dunno n i dun dare to speculate how far we will go..but lets jus fight hard yeah..that was wad i told her..hee cz this yr hasn't been a great one..lots of disappointment..lots of heartbreaks in e world of my bball "life"..so realli dun dare to tink..all i expect of myself is to grab e rebounds down n bao wo every ball..as for e team..i hope for e same..fight till e end..if we r going to haf a battle..den fight till e end..dun giv in!..yah..n felicia was telling mi that i looked v moody n scary today..haha sorry..i wasn't realli aware of it..but dun worry la..nthing de..i jus can't get use to e rough plays well yet..lots of things not fulfilled yet..jus ignore mi..act i tink i was playing quite happy today thou =P

hee ok..so after trng..went to meet pres n got myself lots of food ! haha food jus makes my day at times ! ( haha it dun makes my day when i m realli super duper duper down! ) hee..den took 53 n reached hm quite early de..super tired..n started on pw once again..ah..slp n now pw again..oOo..n yah my ear piece is spoilt ! agrh !

n ya..today is supposed to be S day de..haiz..sorry auntie joy..haiz..agrh ! sorry sorry ! i will cfm a time nxt wk..n hope we can make it yeah..hee =)

..i jus wanna say..
..i will say wad i feel is appropriate..
..when i feel that it's appropriate..
..n that u r who i wanna share with..

..told myself to be strong..
..but i m still hoping..
..hoping that my guardian angel will give mi e encouragements..
..which matters lots to mi..

hao la..end here le..byee bloggy! take care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.be strong.fight on.][
][.hoping.][

][.in every stages of life.there will be diff ppl to acc u thur it.][

][.in every stages of life.there will be diff ppl to acc u thur it.][

haha bloggy ! u r in for trouble..cz i m in e mood to blog lots today..haha feel so much abt so many things today..haha u wan le..ting wo crap ba..muhaha

ok..anyway today is another normal yet special day..haha i always say every moment n day i special..cz u will nv get bac to that special moment n day ! haha treat it as its mi crapping if u dun agree wif mi..its ok..=P

yup..so it started out wif a norm day..n mi being late..took cab..bei "scold" by e pe teacher..felt whinny..n wanna whine..super tired cz of e gao..ya..jiu shi in those super whinney mode that i wuld jus whine n agrh none stop if i can..but i din la..i tink realli will fan si ren..haha yah..so had gp..den maths lect..

den met qingzi jie at concourse..haha e photos etc..den touched on e topic of friendship..haha i love e to tok abt it..n when i do..i discovered i realli miss em..yesh..miss forever5..hao xiang nian ta men..but i noe things are no longer e same..e promises of being by each other side whenever we nd one another is sumthing that i noe is v hard le ba..cz in diff jcs le..got diff close friends le..n when sumthing happens..it always is happen in sch de bu shi ma..n who will msg u to tell u.."hey i m v sad now fe..can u cum pei mi now.." n tok abt wad happened etc?..cz its always those that are literally ard u will pei u de..u get mi ? nowadays..to find out wad happened to em..i gotta do that thru blogs..to understand abt their life..to noe that they are sad n yet those by e sides acc em ain't mi..feel so sad u noe ma bloggy..its like..hey ya best friend is feeling so sad n down..n yet at that moment when she nds sum1 by her side e most..u ain't e one..cz u din even noe what happened..haha jiu shi that kind of gan jue la..i jus miss em so..so..so..much..sa rang hae yo zhu tous !..

n yup..after zhu tous..of cz there are other gd friends in life de ah..those who are dere to give mi a tap on e shoulder..n a push to support mi when i wanna fall..haha thanks to em all too..hee yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong..n ya..dui yu zhe xie peng you..is another kind of gan jue le..jus wanna say..i do appreciate u..n u noe who u r..=) hee

n hao la..cont blogging abt today 1st..haha so i ended lessons le jiu took 55 to bishan to meet pres to study tgt cz employer lazy to cum out frm hm..haha so we studied for like 1 hr n gotta ourselves balloons..den left for trng while pres go find mph for an hr onli to noe that it dao bi le n yah..i m say..i was made to bring e balloons along wif mi to trng..malu dao max le !..haha den today's trng is real fun..i tink i m quite high de..v lame..hee den after that rushed off to meet pres..cz she waited for like 3 hrs ? thou its 1 hr searching for mph..n shopping etc..but realli xie la..haha *hao xin you hao bao o pres* den pres hen hao de bought mi this super cute tortise..haha love tortise !! hee den study a little while n went ntuc..haha today is realli a fun day..did lots of stupid things..haha mei ban fa..who ask mi to be bbc de v.pres n tgt wif bbc de pres dang rang shi hen ben ben de la..but its fun ! haha den took 53 wif pres..phew lucky my memo did not fail mi..haha like this ne jiu end my day le..

n i came bac feeling so much..i realli feel that diff friends will acc u thur diff journey of life..n all i wanna say is..once a friend..forever my friend..be it that we lose our contacts or wadsoever..e impact that u haf made to my life cannot be denied n it nv will be..this is out to all my friends..thanks for acc mi thur part of my life journey if we had already lost contacts wif each other..n if we r still in contact..thanks for being wif mi in my life journey..n i realli appreciate u..n realli hope that we will cont to pei each other in this journey of life ! thanks to all my friends out dere !

haha hao la..blog dao lai i a bit tired le..gd nite or rather gd morning every1 ! byee!..take care..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.i love e game.][
][.15.][
][.i miss em.][
][.memories.][

][.bad dream.it seems like a nightmare.][

][.bad dream.it seems like a nightmare.][

hi bloggy..paiseh ah..haven been blogging for e past few days..haf so much to say..yet din realli wanna blog..super tired..now that its 21/5/2006..i guess i haf to blog n sort out my thoughts le ba..

19/5/2006
everything is like a nightmare..
it happened so fast..
n be4 i noe..everything is gone..
damm it..
it seems like a bad dream..
shocked.sad.ok.disbelief.
thats how i felt..

when e final whistle was blowed
xin hao tong..
up till now..
i m still in a state of disbelief.
damm it.

i will always remember this day 19/5/2006..e feeling of being there was realli great..but e feeling of failing was sucky..e endless hugs was a kind of comfort but not completely..anyway jus wanna thank all for supporting vj team ! n thanks vj team for this nice season ! its realli been nice memories being wif this team..thanks to all..wei chu oosh ! wei chu oosh ! wei chu oosh oosh oosh !!!

after that e prize presentation..took pics den went to buffet at suntec convention hall..was jiao lian's treat..jiao lian was realli nice n generous..that day there was no scoldings from coach..everything was in a daze ba..for mi n e team i guess..after e full buffet..went to v-ball de bbq wif van n vk =P while e rest of e team went for a team movie ba..e stars was so nice at e nite..realli nice ! crapped wif qingzi jie , qingcai , employee n xiying..felt better while crapping..tried to crap none stop..cz when there's no crapping..thoughts begin to go while again..

after that van , vk , n e qingzi jie, employee n xiying came over n stayed at my hse..was a better nite with their companion..i bet its gonna be a tough nite alone ba..thanks to all 5 of em ! =)..

sat..i lived in daze for e whole day..was not in e mood for work..slacked till afternoon wif em..den after that went for rach bday wif sim n soef..den went to find moi n kovan..n mei..sorry mei..din stayed to tok wif u..u take care yeah ! den after that went to pasir ris park wif moi..went to find rong n sh..but din go for dinner wif em..bid gdbyes den moi zai mi ard e park n chatted non-stop..ha i guess whenever we r sad..thats e best way out ba moi =p..cycling n chatting by e beach..den went hm n met em on e bus 403..

n today is sun le..still not in e right mood..but i guess i gotta be ba..got to face up to e reality..gotta buck up..gotta..so much things to do..so jus wanna say..jia u vj team..jia u ! pls take care n jia u ! =)

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 n thanks for everything !

* that understanding hug => thanks my guardian angel.thats wad i nd at that moment.thanks thou i nv told u how much it meant.

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.slumber party.][
][.bad dream][

][.its been so long.][

][.its been so long.][

heyo bloggy ! its been so long since i blog..due to my "busy schedule"..haha n i m so freaking tired now..realli tired dao jus wanna go slp le ! but decided to blog 1st..i dun wanna lose this feeling..hee =)

alright..today's theme is its been so long..yup..
indeed it had been so long..
so long since i get to fight hard on e court..
so long since i get e trust..
so long since i enjoy a game n smile in my heart after e game..
so long..
it took mi so long to find back wad i had lost..

anyway yuppy..thankie vj team ! hee yup..thanks for standing by my side n all e encouragements...lets fight hard together in finals yeah ! hee..n yah..mus thank sheryl for all e nice pass today..jus reminds mi of e ahs days ;p hee..yup anyway..thanks lots team ! lets cont to fight hard yeah !

n yuppy..apart from vj bball team..i wanna thank a few special ppl..
1) lingqin jl..haha for all e pointers n reminder as well as well-wishes be4 e game..hee thanks lots..thou u will nv see this ba..haha but yup..haha

2)qingzi jie..for e "banner"..wish..n encouragements..=)

3)auntie joy lame si ren..haha bleah..thanks thanks..hee as i had said..without ya encouragements during this tough yr..i doubt i will be able to do n hang on till now =P haha realli =) xie le..

4)chuchu , ling n nana for cuming down to support =P

haha n e thank you list will go on if i dun control myself..so mus stop here le..cz nd to do work later..n i wanna blog..haah so yup..jus a very BIG thank you to all who haf helped mi in a way or another ! xiexie ni men !

haha alright..thats e happy thing for my day..hmm after that..today wasn't exactly a great day..cz saw a few nice n gd friends down..yet there's nothing much that i can do for em..but yuppy..now ok le...cz noe they feel better le ba..cheer up yeah ! hee u noe who u r ! =>its e joy of e game that u derived which will keep u in a game..not e win ! n =>e race is all abt believing in yourself ! =) hee jia u !

n yup..had hm u trng jus now..n i m realli lei si diao le la..n jus now during trng i tink i a bit ap ba..realli tired le..n i jus suddenly miss alj alot alot alot..i miss e da dui trngs..miss e xiao dui trngs..miss e times dere..n most of all..miss e team mates dere..be it snrs or same age de or younger de..i jus miss em..haha so much..that i chose to take 53 home jus now..so that i can get to pass by e alj court..felt like calling coach cindy to tell her how i felt jus now but din..n be4 i did..she called..haha chatted a little..told her how i felt at hm u trng..haha den chatted abt today's semis n fri's finals..haha v random..n nice ba..made my nite..haha was feeling quite tired jus now de ;p

haha hm u trng..hee e coach is nice..n yah..felicia ask mi mus mention her..haha so dere u go..she is felicia..same age as mi..my another friend in hm u apart from elica ;p haha we play e same post. n like 15 =P haha yah..

hmm hao la..i m realli tired le..still got pw n lit essay to do..i realli wanna slp le la..hmm cheng xia qu ! haha hao la..gd nite every1 ! today is a nice day..=) byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.npo.][
][.15.][
][.fight hard.][

][.ye ni de ji mo rong yi jiao ren bei shang.][

][.ye ni de ji mo rong yi jiao ren bei shang.][

translation of bloggy's title today..e loneliness felt at nite makes one feels hurt so easily..haha alright..i m jus being lame..but thats wad i m feeling now bloggy..its so quiet in e nite..i can onli listen to myself typing n e song playing from my com..nothing else..no more scoldings from coach..no more shoutings..no more chatterings..no more..nothing..its so peaceful..a nice time to reflect i guess..n i realli ought to..there's jus so much to reflect on..but yah anyway e pics abv makes mi feel like e whole sea belongs to mi..ah wad a nice gan jue..aw thats moi n mi..e 2 zi lian kuang as others may say..but wadever la..

today after e 6 consec periods..sh,jan n matong jian zhi can say is fa feng le..mus be too tired le..haha they are like so crappy n funny la..but nbm nbm..i was realli tired too..i m aware of e work that is pilling up..i also xiang die le..but maybe due to e whole day de stomache ache..i couldn't react as strongly as em..haha matong say i m zen..hmm new word learnt..thou i forget wads e meaning of e word le..

anyway after crapping wif em..went for trng..yup..another day of scoldings from coach..i jus can't get e things rite..can't get wad he wans mi to do rite..my legs are hurting..i m tired from all these..today i toked to mr ng..n he told mi that he heard that i hasn't been in my form..n i jus told him yah..i m playing like shit now..sumthing that i can't deny..i lost my temper once again..i dun realli mean lost completely..but i noe..n i told myself hey..this is e max..dun lose any further..i feel like shit during e trng..realli..i can't interpret everything well..i can't do wad i m supposed to do..jus felt so shitified n was so fed-up wif myself..realli..lousy defence..no center moves..not e rite moves at e rite time..no..NO..no..i haf gotta nothing..realli..i feel like a piece of shit after e trng..

den i saw qingzi jie n heard abt her injuries *hope she gets well soon by mon!*..yup anyway saw her jiu remind mi of moi..injuries are so irritatin n cruel..they hai dao my friends cannot play e sports they like..n i felt quite sianz de..den i reached hm le jiu watched slam dunk..realli v nice..i love sakuragi hanamichi !..10 roxz ! 15 too !

yup den i came online..blogs to blogs..n i read some entries n it jus touches my heart..

jing's blog..got one entry is regarding if u haf a band..wad wuld u name it ?..she said forever5..n i jus felt a surge of warmth going thur mi..yes..i wuld name it forever5 too..its e name n friendship that is etched to my heart since young..i miss em..realli..miss e times together..miss playing bball wif em..miss e relaxed n enjoyments when we play..e way e ball swoosh nicely into e net along wif our laughters..i miss everything..now every1 is busy wif their own life n all i can is..da jia de that little effort..to take sum time out of e busy schedule for one another..yeah ! tml we r meeting out..n watching daisy if i not wrong..i hope its a tear jerking movie..haha..looking forward to meeting em tml..

den auntie joy's blog..she said sumthing or rather blogged sumthing that is realli realli realli v meaningful n sets mi to think a lot.."we've been blinded..ive been blinded thoroughly, in the bid for success, glory and recognition. all temporary gains.
the medals will be given out, enjoying one night of recognition, before being placed in the display cabinet and basically left to collect dust. and perhaps making a good grandmother story to tell next time.but what will really go with us, for one lifetime is really...good/best friends made.
the bonds and camaderie, the friends made and that positively unbreakable bond that binds us tgt: because we've fought and played tgt for that one passion of our lives
who remembers why we chose basketball over other sports 6-8years ago."
this realli made mi think n reflect..yes..every1's aim is e nationals champs ! who wuld wanna lose..but in e process of wanting to win..are we enjoying e process..are we enjoying the game ?..do we still haf e passion n love for this game..or are we jus playing for e sake of winning..the pride ?..does winning realli means everything ?..after getting e title..e medal will be kept in e display set..e results will be announced to e sch..it will be used as an intro..i was from ** sch..n we were e ones that won e bball champs..wad else do we gain from e champs ?! i guess e most impt thing gain shuld be e friendship fostered ba..

hmm i still remembered why i chose bball over other sports 6 yrs ago..its becoz of THEM..i lied to mummy n went to sch earlier..uses my C.O's break time to see em play..n i told myself..i wanna play wif em..n we had trngs..always full of laughters..running to buy drinks in diff % n hafing e auntie to warn us that if we haf stomache ache..it isn't her fault le ah..n staying bac after schs to play games..shooting e balls in wadever way we like..n when e ball swoosh into e net miraculously..we will jus lol n cont playing..till i reached hm late n all tanned n get scoldings..but we cont to do so day after day..cz we knew that e 4 others r suffering e same scoldings too..we were not strong..in fact we were those kind of teams that ppl r always ready to trash..but who cares..we enjoy our game..realli..i meant it..although we onli made it to e east zone 3rd when there r onli 4 teams..we were already v happy le..e joy that we had then is sumthing that i will nv ever forget..e simple n sweet moments..

den sec sch..east zone champs became a must..n nationals at least top8 wif 2 yrs of nationals champs..expectations were set by coaches n teachers..trngs were tough n tiring..coach nv fails to scold mi for my mistakes..but i accept em..cz they onli scold when they noe that i m focusing n get to learn frm my mistakes..e achievements during sec sch wif e team was great..we were strong ! i loved those times..those times when we go back-packing..e times when we play stupid games..e time when we do stupid things..e time when we each secretly stayed bac after sat trngs to shoot balls n jus to find out that e others r doing e same..e times when we wuld jus play bball after sch in our sch u..e times which we spent at 85 n bbt shop..these were e times..e glorious moments i wuld say..

now as i tink bac..wad does champs mean to a team ?..if i ever were to coach a team in e future..i wuld emphasize on e happiness n joy that each player derive from e game instead of e win..i wun deny that champs is definitely sumthing that is worth fighting hard for..but i wuld nv make my player feels stressed out n negative jus becoz i wanna win..if i was to be a coach..i will wannna my player to feel confident of herself..n enjoy e game..cz i feel that its onli then that she will plays her best out..n a national champs wuld be an extra bonous..e friendship fostered n e joy derived during trngs n e games are e most impt things to mi..if i m ever a coach..

haha reflections..thats my reflections..i jus wanna play e game i love with happiness with joy..i dun wanna play e game i love wif tears n anger..i dun wanna e love n passion to transform into disappointment..i realli dun wan..wo zhi xiang kuai le de da qiu..if i can..i will return to my pri sch time..when winning or losing dun matter to us..there's no such things as us trashing others..but onli others trashing us..but at e end of e game..we will still be so glad n happy..cz we enjoyed e game..

hmm hao la..end here le bloggy..i dun mean anything la..maybe cz A div semis is approaching le..so feel a little..haha gan chu hen duo..hee dun mind mi..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel => i onli wanna play e game i love wif joy n not tears.][
][.i wanna enjoy e game n not disappointment from e game.][
][.15.][

][.light at e end of e tunnel.][

][.light at e end of e tunnel.][

hey bloggy..i shuld be slping..ought to be..but i feel like blogging be4 i slp..n i haf decided to blog be4 every match le..

yup anyway today is a fun-filled day at sentosa..haha wif team alj ! hee..den wad else..i shall blog abt that sum other days..cz its kind of late..n i need to slp =P hee n yah..i hurted my toe thou..pain =/..hee

ok yah..e stars are so beautiful tonite..saw em under my blk..n my blog title for today was inspired by one of e pics i took at sentosa today..took lots of beautiful scenery de pics today..wonderful..its jus so nice to be at e beach..e sand under ya leg..playing in e water like young kids..sitting dere n watch e sun set..jus how nice is it to be dere after a tiring wk..all e volleyball games which i can't realli play but enjoyed myself thou..

haha ok..i shall not rattle on..but be4 i cont..allow mi to say this..i love alj.k ! haha ok..cont..hmm yeah..tml is vj vs nyjc..last match of e 2nd round..jus wanna say jia u ba vJ bball ! cum on team..get bac e pace..no stresss..jus play as a TeAm..n fight hard till e end..=) n as for myself..fight hard ! focus ! rebounds !..thats all i ask for myself to contribute to e team tml..n yeah..tml nite got hm u's trng too..i will rmb wad coach cindy tell mi jus now de..i promise..i will fight hard n make sure that trust is not a wrong trust..to liling coach n e team..=)

haha hao la..wanna go slp le..its gonna be 12 soon..take gd care every1 ! smilez ! n hope every1 will haf a gd wk ahead yeah ! hee i hope i haf my gd wk n hope tml will be a gd day for all too =D hee..wan an..

ur tag says : made in heaven - cos ur an angel.
only handwash-cos ur fragile.
cold iron-dun wanna burn ur wings.
handle wif care-cos ur limited edition.
...my guardian angel..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.ur my motivation.][
][.fight hard.][
][.15.][

][.in ya eyes.][

][.in ya eyes.][

hey bloggy..today i wanna blog abt..hmm jus random stuffs n wadever that cums to my mind yeah..anyway today we played ajc..won..but wasn't a great one ba..hmm..


][.guardian angel.][
be4 e game..
i receieved a v encouraging message..
realli encouraging one..
thanks a million to e sender..my guardian angel..

whenever i feel like i m lost..
i will jus wanna tell u..
cz to mi u r my guardian angel..
i hope u will guide mi back to where i was..
i noe i m dependent..
but i realli trust n believe in U.. my guardian angel..

whenever i tell u i m lost..
u will not reply mi..
u will nv reply mi immediately..
but instead u will reply mi at e right time..
always..
without fail..

taking for example today..
when i m all perplexed..
calming myself down in many ways..
but not v successful..
however ya "guidance" (reply)..
jus calm my nerves down n show mi e ways..

thank you my guardian angel..

haha yup..jus wanna thank my guardian angel..thou once again i din play a gd game to reduce team's burden..but i realli feel better today..its jus a diff feeling..thanks guardian angel n team..hee n yah..jia u vj team ! lets jia u together for these last few games yeah ! fight hard !

n hmm yah..random stuffs..met hui wen on mrt today..haha den tok to her..haha chatted from alj to tamp..den called coach jus now to ask abt her hand..den haha i keep on erm erm..not realli sure wad to say..haha jus keep on say tc n hope she will get well soon ! =)

hmm n yah..wad else..lots of things going thur my mind now..haha but yet nothing seems to be processing..i guess i m tired le..haha nd a short nap..den maybe wakey to watch e show later..or hmm maybe a long one den wakey for tml's trng..

haha oook ! yah listened to my bao bei music diary jus now..den dere's this story abt friendship which i realli find it meaningful..as always ;p so jus wanna share..=> "True friends are those that u been thur a lot with..thur gd times n bad times..they are those that u love at times n yet hate sum of their actions at times "..haha i forget e real quote le..but its ok..i m glad i found mine..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! hee..byee..

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