][.This Moment.][

][.beer.][

2012-01-26T09:46:00.000-08:00

][.beer.][

hello bloggy.
all's good.

it's a humid night.
too much is going through my mind.
i need a beer.
and the only reason that's stopping me from opening the fridge to reach for one is..
i am on antibiotics.

communication exist daily between between and even within yourself.
tonight is just a night of self-communication that is beyond words.
it's overwhelming.

i need my beer.
rest well every1!
take gd care!
all's good. no worries.
night~

][.10.fe.15.][
][..][

][.hi, i miss you.][

2012-01-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

][.hi, i miss you.][

hi bloggy, i miss something.
i miss..

finally touched the ball after 4 months.
it had been 4months.
i know there are many things in life and i had moved on.
i know i had recovered and i'm thankful for every step i take. really.
but damm it.
when you first step on the court, you will really feel as thou the court is so big and the rim is so high and i really did feel so small within the court.

but, once the ball reaches your hands,
you really will feel as thou all is good.
when the ball reach your hand and when you release it..
damm. the feeling is so good and once again, you will feel that the game is in your hands again. the court is no longer big.
it's just you and the game.
the focus is scary.

it's something so familiar.
it's something that had been part of you for so long.
it feels so good to sweat it out.
with the ball in your hand and all you wanna do is get it into the rim.
and having the shot enter, the flick on your wrist, it's too good to be true.
i miss you.
i have to admit this.
i really do.

on one hand, i really really miss you.
but on the other, i am not certain just how much will i be going back to competitive.
am i ready to risk it all over again?
there's a voice deep within which gives me an answer.
i know i will when the time comes..
i guess the decision i make will be the best one.
for now, i miss you and every step i am taking now is towards the road of recovery so that i can enjoy and stop missing you.

but no worries to all who fears that i may do something silly =]
i won't..cause what's lost is most cherished.
i will not jeopardize my second chance and make unnecessary risks.
thanks for being here with me.
take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.<3.][

][.Journey Alone.][

2012-01-12T20:32:00.000-08:00

][.Journey Alone.][

Hello bloggy!
if a picture depicts a thousand words..this is my picture for these few days.

it had been a lonely journey.
many things had changed.
beyond words can describe.
i can't put it down into words.
it's really hard to say out how i feel but i am thankful for the shoulders and ears around me.
the world goes on no matter what happens.
there is only so much one person can do.
there is only such amount of strength within one.
but there is just no way that i can be responsible without being in it.
or rather, there is no need for me to be responsible cause no1 is indispensable.
every1 grows and it is awesome to see them grow.
at the same time, it marks the time for you to leave.
to leave something which you spent the past years building and investing everything in.
this is life.
i am just undergoing early graduation of leaving.
i can take it.
i really can.

for now, i will just be a spectator, cheer and departs.
on to a new journey of hope and happiness.
i had my fair share of happiness here.
it's time to move on and find my happiness in other things.

my new best friend - hydro belt and the pool.
loves the serenity of just the water and me and the sky.
the peaceful-ness of working quietly back into life.

thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by with the words and experience. for its the person who been through the same route understands it most.<3
要记得，每一人要走的路都不一样。现在你走的路凹凸不平，似乎感觉没人有那种了解或耐力，陪在你身边。 No one said life is a bed of roses. 但是，要有信心能过这一关; ‘山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村’.

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.goodbye.][

][.Same same but different.][

2012-01-07T08:53:00.000-08:00

][.Same same but different.][

hello bloggy!
went back to 4 kids today.
all is good. 2 more tml =]
haha all seems to be going back to normalcy.

life is good but all has its little troubles.
some thoughts that only you yourself understand and it's just hard to tell any1 cz some things are hard to explain..those mixed emotions and all. it's just =]

overall life is still good.
and a random thought..same pics taken at the same time same place through diff cams do look diff =]

the best relationship is when you two can act like lovers & best friends. =]

ok take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.simple happiness.][

][.Spoilt.][

2012-01-06T07:11:00.000-08:00

][.Spoilt.][

hello bloggy!
today is quite a long & good day! =]
went for hydro in e morning.
gosh, was really dragging myself out of bed.

den did 1.5hours of hydro n saw chen han wei =]

following which..went to tiong baruh plaza to have lunch - aijisen ramen (daddy's treat) and haha enjoyed being spoilt by daddy. spent 30bucks - 8toys and loads of sweets! haha just nice for cny! =P

went to sgh for 1month check up for knee.
all's good.
finally not feeling loose and saw my repaired ligament for the 1st time =]

followed by mi4 with moi.
nice show. haha

and thus, ultra tired now.
need to prep for tuitions and sleep.
back to tuition le!
jiayou fe! =]

take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.LG.][

][.cherish.][

2012-01-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

][.cherish.][

hello bloggy!
official 1st post of 2012! =]
life has been good! not promoting for LG but Life's Good! =]

being able to take the train, cycling and all.
it feels so good =]
so many simple joys of life which you used to take for granted till you lose it.

counting down with forever5 and family and terry with arsenal and pizza is awesome.
can't imagine my life without those pigs.
so much happiness whenever we get together. <3

and on another note, i had been having many random dreams.
haha meet-the-parents session, jc classmates, and yesterday was the best..
dreamt that i can play ivp. the dream felt so real but woke up, lol at my leg and went back to sleep. haha and yes, i really miss playing. i miss the game. so so much but i know it's something i can't do in the near future. i know mummy don't want me back to it cause this whole injury wasn't easy process.

and..it really makes my day when friends make the effort to maintain the bond that you share <3<3
catching up with jiaying mama really made my day.
and all the msgs exchanged daily.
little efforts from friends to maintain the friendship makes my day. =]
it's not all that difficult. all it takes is two person who cherish the friendship. =]

in all, life is good. =]
take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.High & Low of 2011.][

2011-12-31T04:11:00.000-08:00

][.High & Low of 2011.][

hello bloggy!
it's 819pm on 31/12/2011.
usual routine of wrapping up at the end of each year.
haha gosh time really really flies.
it was countdown to 2011 with forever5 at moi's place and now here i am at the end of 2011 with 3hrs+ to go be4 forever5 countdown to yet another year of friendship =]

remembered myself listing 11 things that i want to do in 2011.
let's see what had been accomplished and what hasn't =]

1) Blading & Wakeboarding! - wake boarding done with wen,jing,fungi & shem! it was a really good experience and i am thankful that i was able to do it be4 acl injury =]

2) Swimming! = i tried going for swimming more often and swam laps and once again i am thankful that i tried it with my frog style be4 acl injury =]

3) Golf! - went with moi to driving range and had fun. thanks & i'm thankful for the chances. =]

4) Tennis! - not done! =P

5) Photography! -yups, still went around with moi for photo shots! =]

6) Save up for get away! - done! 12 days of awesome-ness with moi & jing! one of the most memorable travelling up till now! my 1st go at backpacking <3

7) Cooking! - haha tried to learn from mummy here and there but no where near her level =P

8) First Aid! - not done! but will be done in 2012 feb! =]

9)Learn more about beer, liquor, wine and coffee & tea! =] - haha not really apart from my growing collection of vodka. =]

10) Have time for myself to do things i wanna do n love to do! =] - i guess this is done in a way. trying new things and getting away for 12 days. all these are awesome-ness which i cannot imagine in 2010.

11) Work harder for GPA! =] - done! *pats on my own shoulder* these two sems yr3 sem2 and yr4 sem1 had been my best sems. let's continue and give my best for my last sem in 2012! =]

2 things that mummy want me to do in 2011:
1) Learn how to get a bf. - haha erm. did i manage to do it? i guess yes & no. it's not on a to do list but things found its way back. it had not been easy & will not be easy but it's ok. every1 have their ups & downs moments. what's most important is cherishing the moments! no1 is perfect. thanks for accepting my flaws! i'll learn to accept yours too. =] and thanks for allowing me to be just me. apart from forever5, close friends and my family, i seldom expose my "dark" side, so thanks for taking in all my rubbish! <3

2) Learn to start eating onions.
haha sorry mummy! i only eat onion rings! =P

haha so here's a sum up to my 2011. =]
it had been a good one.
it really had been.
with all the ups & downs.

ups that brought me happiness - finding the joy in playing basketball once again, scoring well in academics, doing fyp, 12 awesome days in thai, experiencing water sports which i nv tot i will, the chance to work at childcare center and caring for the kids. <3

downs which showed me the love - haha truthfully when it comes to down, all i can recall is 14/9/11. byebye acl! knowing that i can't play my last season was my biggest blow of 2011. all the down-ness,going bonkers moments, cry like mad, pain like mad moments,thanks for the moment which showed me true love. showed me those that care for me and what many things really mean in life. it had not been an easy journey but it definitely had been very much enriching and life-changing. going through it had made me realized that one can really be stronger than what you think and people who truly cares stay by you through the darkest moments, picking up your pain and showing you the way out. =] my journey continues. long way but not no way! =]

haha that sums up my 2011.
for 2012, all i hope is back to normalcy.
1) knee to recover and allow me to run and jump once again. (when even walking becomes a joy)
2) conquer mount k with llz & forever5.
3) have a nice closure to my last sem - last 6months of academic life.
4) learn cpr for i see the importance in it especially after watching discovery channel & animal planet (my new loves after acl injury)
5) for all i love to stay happy & healthy.
6) get a good job which i am happy with and clear my study loan. =]

haha that's all i ask of 2012.
being alive is one of the greatest thing & next is to find meaning and joy in it!
thanks for 2011!
Welcome 2012! i will work hard to be a better person! =]
let's go!

<3 family, forever5, friends & bear.
take gd care every1!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.我是幸福的.][

][.every relationship is a gamble.][

2011-12-27T00:15:00.000-08:00

][.every relationship is a gamble.][

hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.

me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.

that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.

on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Tears of Joy.][

2011-12-21T20:05:00.000-08:00

][.Tears of Joy.][

it's been quite a while since i cried due to overwhelming happiness.
thanks year 4 sem 1. thanks fyp. thanks for letting me feel so happy once again.
sat by the com with mummy and saw my cgpa and got a shock.
it's still second lower but it was pulled up. =]
went to check the results for this sem and fyp totally made my day.
all the hard work for 5 months from having no place to do my research to having ntuc eldercare till writing and non-stop editing, not sure what to do and till it's finally done, it had been a mad mad process.

thank you francesco for more than words.
my awesome awesome supervisor.
thanks loads for giving me a nice closure to my linguistics major life.
last sem with officially nothing to do with linguistics anymore.
and fyp closed it real well.
thanks fyp, thanks elderspeak.
you had really been a milestone in my life.
and i never regretted doing fyp. <3
now going into the last sem of uni life, jiayou fe!
let's do it! =]

on the other hand, stitches are removed.
movements are getting better and life is still good. =]

take gd care every1!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Long way but not no way.][

2011-12-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

][.Long way but not no way.][

hello bloggy i am back!
it's 18/12/11.
one more day to 2 weeks since new acl is in. =]
removing stitches tml. slightly scared.really don't like all these needles, blood, stitching =P

aw it had been a wow 2 weeks.
sometimes, taking a step back allows you to see things clearer.
i really am thankful for my parents.
especially mummy <3
daddy is as patient with me as always.
but mummy really dotes on me ttm these two weeks.
through the hardest time, she had not once lost her patience and love.
and i am thankful for every1 that stood by me during these period of time. <3

this journey back is not a short one.
but long way doesn't mean no way.
it's possible.
step by step.
everyday, every single improvement makes me happy.
being able to walk.
being able to bend more.
of course there are moments of anguish, moments of frustrations when the leg can't bend any further, when pain sinks in, when you can't even cycle.
but during moments like this, i will think back - hey, it's a step forward from not being able to stand and walk isnt' it?
no hurries.
really no hurries.
step by step, i will be back. =]

playing ball or not seems to be a far far away goal for me at the moment.
cause every single step i take, i am thankful.
i wanna learn taiji when i get better. =]
thanks to 5-yr-old =]
wanna build back my atrophy muscles be4 getting back. (if i am)
haha during the 1st few days after the op, during a brief moment, i recalled that every moment of school life had been filled with basketball.
the joy, the pride, the hard work, the happiness, the disappointments.
these are what allows me to be who i am today.
but i am in no hurries to rush back to the game.
there's more in life to pursue. =]

take gd care every1!
life is a route that i wanna keep going.
you can do it!
you really are stronger than what you think.
but it is also really ok to break down and rest when you need.
you don't have to be strong always. =]

back to exercisese.
take care! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][

][.1st day at physio.][

2011-12-13T00:26:00.000-08:00

][.1st day at physio.][

hello bloggy..
1 wk and 1 day after new acl is in me.
1st physio session and learning how to walk all over again.
haha walk. yes walk.
the wobbly feel till you weight shift and the faith you need to walk without ur clutches and brace.
haha walking was nv seen as a challenge even when ankle was bad for 3months.
but every step now takes so much.
that leg that once allowed you to run, jump and all.

learning how to walk all over again is..
it makes you cherish more.
everyday, i am reminded of how simple things were and how it no longer is but definitely will once again.

一切重新开始。一步一步再来。

feeling sleepy now.
take gd care every1!
cherish each moment.
cherish each moment that you are given.
it's not as simple as it seems.
your body is working hard for you. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.1 more day to 3rd month.][

][.Post-op day 7.][

2011-12-11T00:39:00.000-08:00

][.Post-op day 7.][

hello bloggy!
i am finally back.
11/12/11. post op day 7?
things are finally gradually settling down. =]

too much thoughts.
overwhelming ones.
this journey had really been a long one till now.
and it will continue to be a long one.

when simple things don't seem simple anymore,
you really learn to cherish every single moments.
shall do a backlog to note down this significant event in my life.
thou i am certain that i will not forget anything about this.

5/12/11: Op day.
moi sent me to e hospital and all the waiting and all.
daddy and mummy accompanied me. <3
an arrow to make sure that doc ops on the right (right) leg.

no food since e night before and 100ml of drink at 9am.
all ready to go.
heart pounding as the moments pass.
finally after 3hours, time to go for the op.
lying in the op theater waiting for the anesthesia doc to come, at that instance, it was 2pm.
i really wanted to give up on the op.
just continue my life without basketball.
just cycle and all.
but..haha is it possible?
then comes the anesthesia..
the veins on the hand are too small.
so she tried the side and i felt like !)#&#()@#
it was worst than blood taking.
so they changed an anesthetist for me..handsome new zealand dr daniel.
changed a smaller needle and changed to the joint veins.
next moment..all i know is being wheel in, time out and next moment, your op is done.
feel my brace and fell asleep once again.

woke up to daddy and mummy and the start of my challenge.
super nausea from the anesthesia effect.
kept wanting to vomit but i can't and leg was so heavy.
fell back to sleep-sek-sleep-llz-sleep.
thanks loads sek and llz! my 2 advisers when i have no idea what's going on with my knee. =]
den much awake, hungry but no appetite.
nan da came - thanks loads wei wei, bao bao, lydia, jayne, cynthia, jieying, jieqi. =]
ahs came - thanks loads sh, ling, choo choo and moi.
terry too.
thanks loads to all that came down!
greatly appreciated! =]
ate 2 mouth of fish soup and felt nausea.
when food is not appealing - that's when something is vvv wrong with fe.
so daddy mummy stayed with me till 940pm and went back. <3

the night was uncomfortable.
1st night sleeping with the brace, can't eat, feeling warm all over and wanna vomit all the time. it sucks.
waking up every 30mins, using pee pan and 7am, doc came.
the night felt so long.
breakfast was not nice.

6/12/11 day 2
doc came, breakfast served, no appetite at all.
and the headache beings.
nurse shifting my leg to get me to xray and physio and can't help but cry.
pain max.
den wen and jing coming to get me home.
feel very weak and angst by den.
no food and pain.
pek che, frustration, gao wei.
all the "-" adjectives that you can think of.
just throw it out.
day 2 was a very bad day.
it was a day which i am really horrendous and should apologize to my parents maximum.
temper was on a all-time bad.
still can't eat. (that must be half of the reason)
moi and terry came over and helped me.
get ice, cyro-cuff from shem etc.
it was a bad day.

7/12/11 day 3
things getting better. slowly getting used to it.
sek, choo, moi came over to visit at night.
appetite is back and slowly getting used to it.

so the days after day 3 gets better.
usual routine of thrice a day stretching and all exercising.
eating, comic, drama - in time with you, sleep.
not a day of stretching without this song..

have to sing this to start my heel slide.
a really meaningful song.
every single line is so meaningful and so apt.

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

the true love -- my parents. thank you daddy mummy! for tolerating with all my nonsense during the 1st few days. taking care of me ttm. daddy for giving in to me. they showed me the true love. the tolerance, the care and all that no1 else can. <3 for this, i will go all the way for them always. thank you daddy & mummy!

thanks loads to my bffs for caring for me in each of ur ways. for you guys, i will go the mile. forever5 <3

thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by all these while. you feel me and i know you really do thanks for being here! the never failing daily check ins =]

thanks loads to sek too for the help with physio stuffs!

thanks loads to terry for tolerating my nonsense too, my crankiness and all. =P
thanks loads to all that drop messages and encouragements. <3
really appreciate it!

things are slowly getting on track.
starting to get used to my new acl and my life.
cannot eat loads of stuffs,
sleeping and moving around with much difficulties.
when a distance that takes a while become thrice the timing.
moving up and down and even sleeping.
all these simple things ain't simple anymore.
i will learn.
i will. =]

thankful for those who are here =]
alright shall end here! icing is almost done and time for heel slide and all again.
take gd care every1!
and cherish it while you can! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][

][.Pre-Op.][

2011-12-04T08:18:00.000-08:00

][.Pre-Op.][

it's currently 1220am on 5th Dec 2011.
no more food from now on. =]
wow wow wee wow.
the day finally came.
let's face it & move on from now on.
let's go fe!

hp is off for repair.
so no whatsapp, no facebook, no twitter.
just some time alone.
days after exams n be4 pre-op were well spent.
my fav past time of mj, loads of good food, meet-ups & pre-op xmas shopping by myself as well as with terry & cycle-thon with llz! <3

cycle-thon with 5-yr-old! <3

=]

haha the day had finally come.
truthfully after blood taking, i was really freaking scared.
but no worries, i have e best supports from them all.
just a small op.
i will make it through and it's time to move on.
it has been 2 months plus plus.
14/9/11 - is the day i fell.
5/12/11 - is the day i get my new acl and get on stronger.
play ball or not? i have no idea.
but i definitely miss having the wind in my hair, i miss jumping.
i miss so many things.

let's pray hard that the op will go on smoothly & things will return to its norm soon.
6 to 9 months.
slow and easy.
things to look fwd to..
dec trip to mount k with llz and all. =]
n perhaps another marathon? haha
n back to the game.
all these slow and easy.

pray for me if you see this alright.
off to bed le.
shall be g a bit..
but jiayou fe! jiayou! you can do this! =]

alright!
end here le!
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.moving on.][

][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][

2011-11-24T07:32:00.000-08:00

][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][

two inspirational videos that drove me to tears.
yups it's exams but haha just some inspirational videos ba.
hooked on to these as the op date edge nearer and nearer.
moving on to another stage. =]

Thailand Women's Team in 2011 SEA games.

ping shot the buzzer beater that drove me to tears.
always can't help but cry at buzzer beaters.
it's the split moment of faith and hope and miracle.
i won't call it miracle cause that shot came from numerous practice.
and feel so happy for ping.
1st saw her when i was in sec3.
back then, who would have thought that she could take e crucial winning shot?
or rather, who would have trusted her with that shot when there are senior players around?
but she did it. she did it this year.
claps and salutes.
buzzer beaters driving me to tears and i really miss the game.

Derek Redmond

another video and another guy that made me cry like mad.
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/espn25/story?page=moments/94
went on to read about him and cried even more.
how much heartbreak can a man take?
this guy had the nightmare of all the athletes.
he withdrew from 1988 Olympics 10mins before because of an Achilles tendon injury. He then underwent five surgeries over the next year. This was the same runner who had shattered the British 400-meter record at age 19. So when the 1992 Games arrived, this was his time, his moment, his stage, to show the world how good he was and who he was.
only to have his dreams shattered once again.
and this was the Olympics.
really feel for him.
and in comparison, what i lost is only a season.
or maybe two.
before the 3rd month comes, i will get my new acl. =]
all smiles.

i will make it through the rain.
i will stand up once again.
on my own.
and i know.
i will make it through the rain.

take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will make it through the rain.][

][.Thoughts & Updates.][

2011-11-14T22:50:00.001-08:00

][.Thoughts & Updates.][

hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.

on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。

aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]

and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!

heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。

haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.blurring eyes. fyp.][

2011-11-11T11:30:00.000-08:00

][.blurring eyes.fyp.][

i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.

on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.

for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][

][.f.y.p.][

2011-10-31T10:05:00.000-07:00

][.f.y.p.][

typing typing.
staring staring.
editing editing.
oh shit oh shit.
this is the current state of my mind.
and world.
not overly stressed.
not un-stressed.
elderspeak oh elderspeak.
yes i love you so n no i don't when words don't flow.
how to put everything down in words.
so much can be going through your mind but translating things down into words can be hard at times isn't it?
if only my fyp word count goes up as fast as my blogging word count.

all and all..
i am just thankful for my ever supportive family <3
nothing feels better than being at home.
i miss meeting and chilling with my comfort company. <3
nov is madness.
hang in there every1! =]

on a side note, 4/11/11 is finally coming.
time to get a date for op.
i need to move on to the next phase.
it had been more than a month. =]

ok! back to stones and stares and type.
take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.Happy 14th! =].][

][.Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort.][

2011-10-27T04:00:00.000-07:00

][.Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort.][

been a while since i blogged.
wanted to blog about 22nd but din had e time.
thanks to all that made my day special. <3
really appreciate it!
will have a separate post on that.

aw..today's post is kinda random but just my current mood and all.
i know i am rigid with my principles, i know i get stubborn when it comes to some but..
Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort to make our world a better place.
heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race!

it really really takes just that tiny bit from every1 to make things better for each and everyone.
but why do some people just refuse to play that part.
it really irks me whenever i see such situations and things.

1) BASIC! MOVE IN WHEN THERE IS SPACE ON THE BUS!
there was this guy who stood guard by his gf and refused to move in when there was so much space on the bus. hello dude! your gf is not a 3 year old kid, she don't need your protection so much such that you have to stand guard over her and not move your ass in when so many people are waiting to board the bus and it's raining dude! really really cannot stand such inconsiderate people.

2) TAKE THE INNER SEAT SO THAT OTHERS CAN HAVE A SEAT!
super selfish and super cannot stand it when people just refuse to move in to the inner seat. fine if you are going to alight soon and find it a trouble then at least make it a pt to offer people the inner seat! you have no idea if that person is feeling unwell or maybe his/ her leg is giving her problems at that instant! Be more considerate, seriously.

3) DRIVE WITH CARE! WHEN YOU ARE ON THE ROAD, DRIVE WITH CARE! FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY AS WELL AS OTHERS!
really can't take it when drivers refuses to stop at pedestrian crossing! hello! i know that our driving instructors told us that once you get your license you won't be as careful as when you are learning but still?! lives are at stake! stop that bloody car when people are crossing & it's not even jay walking! it's at the pedestrian crossing! HELLO DRIVERS! and the speed is like super fast! are you in a race? are you in a rush? you may just kill someone with your recklessness dude! get some sense! wake up your idea dudes!

things really can be so so simple.
but people loves to complicate it.
to all the selfish people out there, spare a thought, make some1's day. spare a thought, save a life.

and all these being said,
i believe there are many kind souls out there still.
thanks to all <3

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15][
][.就这么简单.][

][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][

2011-10-12T08:04:00.000-07:00

][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][

haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]

some stuffs that happened over the week..

awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]

sat was forever5's bbq.

life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=

after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.

went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]

den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha

my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!

haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!

p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][

][.New Hair, New Start.][

2011-10-04T08:56:00.000-07:00

][.New Hair, New Start.][

Hello bloggy!
Here's my new best friend - my knee guard.
and my new hair style - short hair (that looks like a mushroom, coconut n any sort of food =P)

haha wells, let's have a new start with my new hair! =]
things are really not as hard as it seems.
and nothing is permanent.
so is pain.

things may not be the same as before but it's ok. (haha maybe not but yups, it will be ok! =])
you always need some changes in life.
whatever that don't kill you, really makes you stronger isn't it?

i can't do things that i can normally do.
i can't jog when i feel sad.
i can't put resistance on the bike and go faster on cross trainer.
but it's ok.
i can still train 20mins on cross trainer.
i can experience cycling fast on the bike.
and i am still who i am. =]

went to shoot after gym-ing today and i really respect those who came back after the injury.
cz i know deep down that as much as how much i want things to be like before,
i may not be able to play without that psychological barrier.
sometimes, it gets confusing.
you have no idea if you wanna tell yourself that you are ok so that you will function normally or you wanna tell yourself that things are diff.
it gets scary when it suddenly gives way.
it is scary.
but it's ok..=]

the hardest part was accepting.
that part is over, so now things are good =]
how can it not be when you have the best family and friends around?
little cards and notes never fail to make my day. <3
thanks loads to all! <3

injury is a sportswoman greatest fear.
but it's also one that she have to overcome to grow.
however if given a choice, i hope that all the sports woman in my life do not need to go through this phase. =]

take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Brace up for the dawn!.][

2011-09-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

][.Brace up for the dawn!.][

hello bloggy!
i am back here once again.
encountered a down night last night when all i could do is cycle for 15mins and walk on the treadmill.
when all i could do is watch my team train and trying my best to keep my mind of the game for that 2hours plus.
it felt so bad and helpless.

it had been officially 2 weeks.
each day is a lesson.
everyday, i find myself working hard to be stronger than yesterday.
and hate all the down moments but you just can't avoid them.

right leg is currently going through muscles atrophy and it's worrying.
and part of the reason for depression and down-ness cause despite all the attempts to keep it in shape, it failed.
after cooling down, i guess perhaps it was the lack of techniques and exercises.
googled and found some pre-surgery exercises that i can do apart from cycling and hydro.
going to try them all.
come on fe!
don't be so weak!

some quotes to push me on..

(1) When the world says "Give up", Hope says "Try just one more time"
(2) In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity.
(3) The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is the power to harm us - Voltaire
(4) You have to have a darkness..for the dawn to come!

it's tiring.
it really is.
but get up and move on!
life is a journey! =]

take gd care every1!
i am trying my best not to be down.
but if i am, just give me some time on my own..i will be ok.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.You gotta be stronger than this.][

][.Happy 13th Birthday DiDi!.][

2011-09-23T10:15:00.000-07:00

][.Happy 13th Birthday DiDi!.][

Happy 13th birthday my dearest didi!
生日快乐baby bro! =]
thanks for bringing me 13years of happiness!
you taught me that it's amazing to love some1 and see some1 grow.
you brought me countless joy and it's such a nice feel to see you grow.

jiayou didi!
no matter how old you get, you will always be the didi that i wanna watch over.
no matter what challenges come in life, jiayou!
jiejie will always be watching your back! <3

Happy Birthday!
Keep smiling!

fe had regained her sanity.
road to recovery.
a year ahead.
let's go! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.keep the smile.][

][.Sane in times of Insanity.][

2011-09-22T10:59:00.000-07:00

][.Sane in times of Insanity.][

if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.

i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.

thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.

Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3

2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]

3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]

you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3

4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3

5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]

6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]

thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]

take gd care every1!

5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.

I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die

It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight

That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings

You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive

take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][

][.fe, stop it.][

2011-09-21T08:06:00.000-07:00

][.fe, stop it.][

this is killing me from within.
every moment of convincing myself.
every moment of crying it all out.
i need to stop crying.
but i just can't.

it hurts so much that nothing apart from tears can express.
nothing.
there's really nothing that can make this pain lessen.
i don't wanna be down.
but i am quite certain i am in e deepest pit one can ever find.

every day, every moment of silence, every single thing that triggers it,
i would wonder why? why now?
why?
why?
why?
歇斯底里的痛哭。
这是第一次，没人能治愈这痛处。

how am i supposed to get through this?
how am i going to?

i feel so sorry towards all that had been here with me.
but this is beyond words.
every one has their own story.
and this story is too pain for me to bear.
i can withstand all the heartbreaks but this is more than that.
this is devastating.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.brace up.][

][.哭着睡着，哭着醒来.][

2011-09-20T20:16:00.000-07:00

][.哭着睡着，哭着醒来.][

哭着睡着，哭着醒来。
哭，似乎成了唯一能减轻我的痛的方法。
但是越哭越痛。
我快哭疯了。
泪流不止。
心碎到极点。
在这样下去，我一定会疯。
我需要找会自己。
找回真正快乐的自己。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.快疯了.][

][.14/9/11 - 20/9/11.][

2011-09-20T12:17:00.000-07:00

][.14/9/11 - 20/9/11.][

it had been a tough week.
it really had been.
emotional upheavals.
optimism being built up and lost each day.
this is draining.

it's confirmed.
acl complete tear.
i am just thankful that it's only acl and not mcl and meniscus is going to recover on its own.
i am just thankful that through it all, i have my ever supportive family, moi, 5-yr-old, roomie, my ntu team mates, coaches and bear.
i am just thankful that they are here for me.

it's not easy.
it really isn't.
allow myself some down time.
but i don't want to wallow in self-pity.
sadness can and must be overcome.
there must come a day where i must be able to put down the thought that it's ok.
this two seasons don't matter to me thou it means almost everything that i had been working for for the past-i-don't-know-how-long.

knowing that i can't be back for ivp is really a blow.
a big big blow.
dear knee, why?
why now?
i don't wanna ask why me?
i am ready to take all these.
but why? why now?
我很累。
真的很累。
乐观得累了。
坚强得累了。
假装无所谓得累了。
但，我更讨厌自我可怜的自己。
所以我要用最多的力量重新爬起来。
这真是我整个篮球生涯中最痛的一刻。
但，我庆幸在我的生命中，一切仍是美好的。
若我再次脆弱，请原谅我。
给我多点时间。
因为，这次真的跌得很重，很痛。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.哭累了就睡.][

][.Guardian angels?.][

2011-09-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

][.Guardian angels?.][

世界是美好的。
就算现在的心情不是最美好的。
但，世界仍是美好的。

我的乐观只是短暂的。
医生的一句"Suspected acl and mcl tear" 就足以让整个心跌进无底深渊。
做了MRI。
明天将知道成绩。

每当气愤，难过，伤心时，
老天总会提醒我，
身旁仍有很多人关心自己，陪伴自己。

这几天也感受到陌生人的温情。
让位给我的女生。
在摇晃的地铁中扶我一把，问候我的女士。
在巴士上看见我流泪而给我一包纸巾的女生。
每当想不通时，难过时，老天总会让这些陌生人提醒自己-- 生命仍是美好的。

感谢一群陪伴我左右的朋友。
你们的帮助和存在让我安心。
感谢家人从不责怪，耐心的相伴。
感谢尽在不言中。

每天的心情都像坐过山车。
我最不喜欢。
但一定不会有事。。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.学会坚强是我现在唯一能做的.][

][.Optimistic.][

2011-09-18T18:52:00.000-07:00

][.Optimistic.][

first time that i truly feel optimistic after so many days.
(the rest were just faked optimism =P)
woke up feeling that knee is good and bendable.
thank you lao tian ye!

nonetheless, still going for the doc consultation later.
hoping that everything will be good.
*crosses finger*

take gd care every1!
hopefully my next post will be with loads of =D
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][

][.夜晚是最脆弱的时刻.][

2011-09-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

][.夜晚是最脆弱的时刻.][

又到了夜晚。
到了最软弱的时刻。
今天忙了一整天。
让自己不去想。
明天将看医生。

negative thoughts please deplete yourself.
down moments please get out of my life.
i hate living in such self-pity moments.
i hate tearing at the thought of it.
i hate such a weak me.

i need to be zen.
i need to really smile.
i need to really be ok.
i need to be able to be more than ok.
i need to stop all these.

ps. thanks to all that had been here through these days. <3

][.10.fe.15.][
][.mood swings.][

][.Leg Spoil,Brain Spoil, Heart Spoil.][

2011-09-17T08:33:00.000-07:00

][.Leg Spoil,Brain Spoil, Heart Spoil.][

快疯了。
心碎最痛，这就好像胫骨断裂，没有人看得到，但每次呼吸都会痛。
每刻一静下就会想哭。
每刻一想起就想哭。
哭到心碎了，累了就去睡。
讨厌如此软弱的自己。
但，真的很怕，很心碎。
不能不去想。
只希望。。。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pain maximum.][

][.Give me some time.][

2011-09-15T10:51:00.001-07:00

][.Give me some time.][

hey bloggy! i should not be here at this hour.
i should be studying for my quiz.
but there's nowhere else that i can think of expressing how i feel.
it's been so long so long since i feel so pain.

it's been so long so long since i feel so helpless and speechless.
it feels so bad that i just wish to go on a trip alone for the next few days.
all by myself.

injured my knee and ankle.
good news amidst everything = knee is ok apart from acl n lcl strain.
but the flexibility is not there.
friends who truly care is helping me max.
and i call these my true friends who knock senses into me at this pt of time.
they are trying their best to convince me not to play.
i am absolutely thankful for my team mates.
really really thankful.

i understand tt i should not be stubborn.
i understand tt if i wasn't in my shoes, i will definitely do all i can to stop tt team mate from playing too.
but now here i am.
the person in these shoes.
these f-ing shoes.

if i disappear for these 2days or so, don't worry.
i just need some time alone.
sorry to cost you all so much worry and headache.

just give me sometime alright?
some time without thinking about all these.
all i ask for is some time to let me heal.
let me heal emotionally and physically.
meanwhile, let's go team! go get it down! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.away.][

][.Cherish.][

2011-09-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

][.Cherish.][

hello bloggy!
everything is going on well.
kinda lazy to blog cz every moment the nua-er just want to nua and rest.

season is starting in a week.
looking forward to it.
and will do everything within my abilities to help the team get it!
been a while since i feel this flame in me.
last 2 seasons in ntu.
6 seasons had passed.
to me, this team is like a precious baby.
we started off with nothing and became something.
we been through all the shit and fought through all the seasons to get where we are today.
it had not been easy. it really hasn't.
only people who had been through all the shits understands it.
so i won't allow anyone to destroy it.
in short, ntu basketball is my greatest achievement and joy in NTU.
and i truly cherish the team. <3

if you truly cherish something,
you would do everything you can for it.
and not otherwise.

let's go nan da!
we can and we will do it!

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.fight hard!.][

][.Wednesday.][

2011-08-23T19:05:00.000-07:00

][.Wednesday.][

Hello bloggy!
It's currently 10am. I am up and awake!
Free day today! =]
time really flies! last Wednesday was away from the city with llz!
shall back track a little today!! hee

17/8/11
3-yr-old and 5-yr-old decided that they should make a trip to kusu island on a wed! =D
haha feels so good to be away from the city!
away from all the buzz and just nua by the beach, walk around, eat and catch up with a good friend!
enjoy such moments! once in a while, every1 should do this!
and..那里真的很美！
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for bringing me there!
it had been 5yrs but i am certain that this is a f/s to be cherished!
and as always..i'm thankful.

here's a nice sad song!
enjoy! =]

and woohoo..time flies.
we made it past e 4days. =]
we are still as diff as we can but e understanding over e yrs had made us und each other more.
i always believe that things happen for a reason.
n there are still many things that we have to overcome bit by bit.
but i hope this will be diff from the rest.
let time prove it yups =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.情人知己.][

2011-08-14T10:04:00.000-07:00

][.情人知己.][

hello bloggy!
been a while since i blogged.
school had started. =]
work goes on as usual. life goes on as usual.
looking forward to kusu with 5-yr-old on wed! =]

here's a nice song!
Enjoy! =]

像一個孩子賴在你懷裡　願二十四小時形影不離
兩個人的悄悄話　一輩子說不煩聽不膩

仰頭看你微笑瞇起眼睛　溫柔的好像愛情的詩句
你無條件包容我　被疼愛的感覺很快樂

我~非常愛你　非常確定　你像情人　又像知己
多麼幸運能遇見你　是上天賜給我的福氣
那種開心　那種窩心　那種安心
幸福很難　我相信　只要我們夠努力
沿途搖呀晃呀也都是美景

你有改不掉的粗心大意　我有偶爾發作的小任性
因為相愛就可以　對每個小毛病　有耐心

每次想你我就更愛自己　原來思念也可以很溫馨
世上最近的距離　是兩個人的心　在一起

我~非常愛你　非常確定　你像情人　又像知己
多麼幸運能遇見你　是上天賜給我的福氣
那種開心　那種窩心　那種安心
幸福很難　我相信　只要我們夠努力
沿途搖呀晃呀也都是美景

我~非常愛你　非常確定　愛的甜蜜　愛的貼心
每次爭吵都要練習　壞情緒轉過身就失憶
非常愛你　深深愛你　沒有懷疑
幸福很難　我相信　只要我們夠努力
沿途搖呀晃呀也都是美景

每次看你就有一份安定　知道今後我哪兒也不去
在我們的小天地　專心的愛著你

haha ok! off to bed!
long week ahead!
take gd care every1!
nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.<3 fcr.][

][。突然很想念在场上的感觉。][

2011-08-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

][。突然很想念在场上的感觉。][

突然被一阵思念吞没。
突然超想念在场上的那感觉。
篮球为我带来了悲伤。
但，它带给我的快乐更是无法形容的。
没有篮球，就没有今天的我。
没有想要比任何人好。只是想超越自己。

我突然很想把球打好。
很久没有这种感觉了。

take gd care every1!
nitez. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.misses much.][

][.12 days in Thailand!.][

2011-07-31T10:43:00.001-07:00

][.12 days in Thailand!.][

Sawadee ka!! cheu felicia!
i am back in Singapore bloggy!
i just had one of the best trips! =]
12 days away from everything - tuitions, work, trainings.
just every moment of surprise and amazement with the world and we amaze ourselves! =]

Day 1: 20th July 2011! Set off to BKK!
we set off with 2 bag packs and met moi at Bangkok interplace hotel!
it was raining when we reached! got on a cab and say sawadee ka thailand! here we come! =]
after a simple dinner, we tot e day would end with nua-ing and mj so we bought loads of food! sotong, prata, etc BUT it wasn't!
moi's cousin jie aee came and brought us out to dessert! awesome dessert! <3

haha but due to our over eating, we all had stomach prob tt night and moi had to wrap towel and come out cz i was in v much of a pain. lol. *testimonial of f/s! moi's sexiest moment! haha jing n me jus couldn't stop laughing*

Day 2 - 4 : KhaoYai!
奶爸 came to fetch us! haha 2hrs ++ journey!
we stopped by and had lunch by e river! super chill-lax.
and we went to the amusement park to play be4 gg to palio in love and back to our mud house (with no tv, no aircon, no fridge!) but we enjoyed e simplicity of it!
baan sujipuri! that's where we have our sleep be4 10pm, nua and play mj, exercise day! jogging for 20mins with sumo (my 1st experience)!
listening to the river and go to slp but nv fail to ask jing, is it raining? haha n 2 super cute dogs - sumo and nina!
2nd days upon reaching khao yai, we went to see e waterfall and nai pa dun allow us to walk as much as he can!

Day 4: On the way to Ayutthaya, we went to chokchai farm!
a very nice experience and we even sat on e ma che and had LOTR feelings!

Day 4-5: Ayutthaya
that's where we see nice historical places. floating market and ride the elephants!
at the same time, we got into a hotel which only care about fa-rangs (ang moh) and not us! but it's ok! we had our own fun! hahaha
there was a toilet with no door, but we invented our own! =P

Day 5-6: Ayutthaya-BKK-Nakhon Pathom
24/7/11. i knock my head, moi lost her phone and jing bled with no reason.
that was our suay day but we smiled n moved on!
we went to moi's ah ma's hometown and stayed in a hotel tt recognized moi since she was a baby! and our adventure nv stops!
4 of us (moi,jing,phun and me) rode on a motorbike with no helmet! i swear i was holding on for my life! =X
den we went to hospital for thai massage! (cz moi visit her ah ma and say on the way!) and we ate 35 bath owning chicken rice at the market!
after tt, we went to moi's ahyi place for dinner! home cook food but v heart warming! so for 2 days we repeat our routine and 2nd night, we met phun's friend and a group of 6 people, 3 singapore, 3 thais started laughing the night away.
they are really super funny! we had thai udon (glass noodles) and thai + korean fusion bbq while they drink and stun us! haha

Day 7-8: Kanchanaburi
we almost had to forfeit this province due to transportation, but thankfully for our crazy night, we managed to rent the car from nuun (phun's friend) and we set of to Kanchanaburi! the owning breathtaking dam, death railway over river kwai and all. we went to sing ktv on the night of day 1 too! haha

day 2 in kanchanaburi was driving up the mountain, climbing 7 tier erawan waterfall! pretending that we are tarzans and going on all fours cz all we had were slippers and not a sip of water for 3 hours plus plus. the test of friendship and trust as we lol our way and watch each other's back! there were monkeys and it was really slippery as we got higher up! it was like rock climbing with no strings! *we went out of our comfort zone straight into danger zone!*

Day 9-12: BKK
back to bkk, on our own we shopped like mad, eat like mad and nua like mad!
i really shopped like mad with jing! haha 8 tops, 2 shorts, 2 bags, 3 pairs of shoes (and these are only for myself) not counting 2 watches for mummy, 1 shirt for daddy, 1 wallet for didi, 1 clock for c mei and purses for godma and ahyis and prezzie for roomie, jy, llz and friends! haha feng le man!
and jie aee came to bring us to nice places on one night too!
we went to drink and looked at the river! super nice! no such places in Singapore i think..=X
this is the 1st time i watched movie in thailand! we watched horrible bosses and had a great laugh. and now i know that there will be thai national anthem be4 e show. =]

jing and me went to do mani and padi too =]

with this, i conclude my 12 days in thai!
1300++ photos, countless moments of surprise and new experience!
this trip is really a hard-earned, long awaited, relaxing trip!
thanks goes out to loads especially moi's relatives who made our trip so much more fun and simple and enjoyable!
thanks loads to moi n jing for tolerating me saying heeooo (hungry) every now and den and thanks to jing for enduring the 1/4 of bed space and my elbows and snatching blanket each night!
i truly enjoyed myself! and recharged from this trip! =]
thanks loads guan yin niang niang for blessing us with a safe and fun-filled trip!
thanks to all that made this trip sucessful!
this will be a trip to remember! (thou every trip is also vv memorable!) =]

nitez every1!
i shall sleep and face august with strength!
whatever it is, i had 12days of awesomeness and it's time to face my work be4 i earn my next trip! =]
take care!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.every moment is an adventure.][

][.Things happen for a reason.][

2011-07-17T11:49:00.000-07:00

][.Things happen for a reason.][

hey bloggy! been really a while since i blogged.
been busy with life in general.

haha life used to be basketball basketball and basketball.
but it had been not part of my life for more than a week for now.
life really has its plan for you don't it?

was dreading hss foc 2011 be4 i went for it.
but it turned out tt i wun regret gg for it!
officially completed 4yrs of hss f.o.c. =]
gosh i m gg to be yr4 in a blink of eyes!
seeing the freshies coming in. haha

and finally thai trip is coming! 20th july 我等了你好久！
did serious packing with jing from 6plus till 9plus! =]
stuffing and sitting on the clothes!
planning our finances and trip!
the long awaited long trip is finally coming! =]]
my hard-earned trip! =]
12 days away!! (from tuitions and trainings (not that i have loads thou))
hahaha byebye singapore!
sawadee thailand! <3

and a random side note..
it's funny how fate plays a game on people.
now i know eating a 7 course meal is like running a race.
cz it's nv ending! haha.

ok! end here le! take gd care every1!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.what if?.][

][.我们终于团聚了！.][

2011-07-03T10:51:00.000-07:00

][.我们终于团聚了！.][

It's 1.51am at the moment!
I have to be up in 5 hrs time! and the long week will begin again!
BUT it's ok!
tonight is a happy night!
Welcome back fungi! and Happy 22nd in advance Jing!
We are only complete with all 5 thou we still hate(love) each another so much over e years. <3

as we get older, our time clashes more and we see how each characters differ.
we have our rough patches, moments of really wanting to kill each another, the spectrum of balancing a 5 person f/s. and girls f/s are like r/s.
but one thing for sure, this is a f/s that i'll want to have for a lifetime.
we'll have our wong chee tan, tan chee wong, chee tan wong (and whichever permutation and combination!)
sorry to fungi for not being able to send you a postcard in time! =X

forever5 <3

heh so many had happened over e past few weeks..
managed to meet up with friends (thou it's all late after work) but it's worth it!
and i always feel that time is the most precious thing you can give some1..cz that's what constitutes your life and every r/s requires efforts to maintain.

1) Met up with llz! had a gd night with duck pizza and a good movie! thanks loads llz! thanks for being the anchor in my life, always playing the role of a big sis, checking on me and making sure that everything is gg on well! Welcome back kid!Gd to have you back! =]] looking forward to a cycling day!

2) Kilkenny and stoning contest by the beach!our f/s is a lost and found. jiayou and make ur present so beautiful and not let it turn into a memory. (you know what i mean) and jiayou as you move on to ur new stage of life!

3) Hello Ghost with Fnq! Really really love the show and highly recommend it! it's amazing how our f/s manage to survive over the decade. haha i guess it's all thanks to our "best friend" =] enjoy our once in a while meet up and chatting as thou we were still in 6B. showing each other the diff side and views of opposing genders and giving each other advice. I am thankful for our f/s. =]

4) Shout-out to roomie! we need to meet up soooon! =] jiayou with trainings!

ok la! time for bed! =]
officially 4++ hrs left.
take gd care every1!
nitez~ =]

p/s: dirk's shirt is coming soon! hopefully it'll come before i go thai!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thankful.][

][.Updates.][

2011-06-19T08:12:00.001-07:00

][.Updates.][

Hello bloggy!
I am back to blog be4 i lose all the precious memory of things tt had been going on since exams was over!

Firstly--> NTU Guangzhou Trip! =]
thankful for the team!
been there once and twice.
met our friends from JiNan Uni again.
every trip is a memorable and eventful one.
pass the baton onto jq and bx! our dearest dumb twins!
n they are doing a wonderful job!
thankful for cynthia for teaching me so much and working together over e past 3yrs.
thanks to roomie for hearing me for the past yrs too!
being a part of NTU basketball n hoping that everything goes right is one of my greatest joy!
for the last two seasons, i will just take a back seat and play the game i love. =]

heh..apart from guangzhou trip, life had been a rather big mesh of things.
taking it as much as i can.
thou sometimes it really gets too much to manage.
but as long as i squeeze sometime out for myself each day, i will be ok =]

thankful for my hp and all the twitter updates to allow myself to know how dallas mavs is doing cz there's work daily.
n dirk nowitzki had made this season the 1st nba tt i m so much into.
basically watching mavs from exams till game 6 had been one of my greatest entertainment.
really happy tt dirk is the mvp and the layup tt he made with his left hand nv fails to touch me! (cz he was injured)
but somehow, the game feels different to me now.
really different. but the feeling is indescribable. =]
just let it be!
congrats dirk! =]

so basically..my hols had been guangzhou, work work work, dirk, and squeezed sometime out on fri to try sailing! =]

there's 11 things tt i wanna try in 2011 and currently 4 is down. 7 to go.
haha somehow experiencing diff things feel gd.
wanna conquer my fear for water and try diving w forever5 at the end of the year.=]
right now, 30days countdown to thai trip w jing n moi =]
one of my motivation to work hard!

n thanks to moi n jing for acc-ing me this weekend.
love my bffs for more than words can say! =]

alright! back to essay markings and rest.
it's a long week ahead! n long day too!
give me e energy to chiong and remain as calm as i can! =]

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou!.][

][.Busy Bumble Bee.][

2011-06-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

][.Busy Bumble Bee.][

hello bloggy!
pls forgive me!
i will blog really sooon!
there's just too much going on at the moment.

mon to sun work work and work.
there's no t.g.y.m.i.f. (thank guan yin ma it's fri)
cz it's same for e weekend.
the routine goes on and on.

childcare-tuition-ahyi's work
or
childcare-ahyi's work-tuition
or
tuitions-ahyi's work

this is mad.
i swear.
every moment of wanting to just put everything down and run.
but every moment of come on fe! let's pull thur this!
life and it's obligations.

moments of cannot take it.
n moments of ok just do it.
it can be so tiring wanting to be responsible for ur own life.
but it can be so satisfying knowing that you are earning ur own trips and life.
so for every moment of agrh.
there's a moment of gritting on and just do it!

and there's fyp!
all set! elderspeak here i come.
n reality hits now!
find papers, find a nursing home where i can do my data collection.
n tyvm.
there's so many things on hand now.
i seriously feel like a octopus.
ok! time to get down to reading papers.

n t.y.v.m.g.y.m. i finally have a better gpa for this sem. =]
Bye guys~
i will blog soon!
take gd care!!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.busy.busy.][

][.Break from the hectic schedule be4 madness comes!.][

2011-05-26T11:54:00.001-07:00

][.Break from the hectic schedule be4 madness comes!.][

practically slept my day away.
woke up to watch mavs, slp, lunch, slp den went to nana's 21st.
YES MAVS IS INTO THE FINALS!!
WOOHOO!! DIRK DIRK DIRK!!

aw i am really deprived of sleep!
haven been sleeping for more than 6hrs each day since exam period.
so woohoo.
catching up on sleep today is shiok.
but at the same time,
i am glad that i got a job so tt life can be more meaningful than just slacking it away with some tuitions.

They say people come and go. But the truth is, no one really disappears from your life. People never really leave; their roles just change.

saw this on twitter by tumblrsays and can't help but agree.
no1 really disappears.
it's just that their roles changed and they no longer are the one who had been there for you..
re-watching 9ends 2outs.
really love the show.
love how close it is to reality.

ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.9ends2outs.][

][.Children and the world.][

2011-05-23T08:54:00.000-07:00

][.Children and the world.][

dear bloggy..
on days such as today, i am really thankful for you give me a channel to pen (type) down my thoughts and rant non-stop.

firstly..let's talk about getting back to work!
waking up at 6plus am to get to start work at 830am and end at 530pm was something that was so familiar yet so distance away.
the last time i did this was 3yrs ago.

aw..yups! back to work.
i am now = teacher felicia.
haha got to work in childcare and will be working there for the next month.
it had always been my dream to have a childcare center!
but after today, i decided that i shall plunge to the society 1st and set that dream to be fulfilled at a older age. =]
job scope and things learnt today:
.check their temperature, any bites and all, change countless diapers, story telling, English lessons, feeding them and showering them.
haha gosh! e last time i changed a diapers was like 12 yrs ago?!
this is a training to be a gd mum man.
with all the kids hovering below you.
ok la! i guess i will love them so.
haha bless me with the strength to fight them all! =]

so that was the tiring 10plus hours.
took train down to ntu to train.
woke up at clementi n looked at my hp.
oh great.
i slept all the way to joo koon and took the same train back.
that shows how tired i was.
what's even better?
get to the court n only see 4 person.
so + me = 5!
wonderful.
awesome.
fabulous.
feel so sorry towards wanmei, xiao hei, baoxian and cynthia.
like seriously.
like damm bad.
priorities in life,
principles in life.
i can only account the attendance to it.
there's supposed to be 14ppl going for the trip.
n 5 turned up for trainings.
like super awesome?!
1st thing 1st..
basic no.1: if you can't make it, have the courtesy to inform.
basic no.2: if some1 sms you, have the courtesy to reply.
seriously i am speechless.
i am not angry.
but just gonna heck from now on.
like heck.
i really love my team.
but on days such as these, i really wanna say thanks.bye.

ok enough of rantings.
thanks bloggy for being here!

ok! take gd care every1!
gonna go slp now to face e kids tml.
nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.Respect.][

][.If you want to grow, you can't be afraid of changes.][

2011-05-22T08:33:00.000-07:00

][.If you want to grow, you can't be afraid of changes.][

Hello Bloggy!
I am back! =]

it's been 2weeks since i blogged.
so much to blog yet everything is all over the place in my mind.
completed yr3 of uni life.
wow.
no more linguistics modules.
wow. gonna miss them!
hopefully this sem's grades will be better with the amount of effort increasing as compared to previous sems.
g.y.m pls bao yu wo! =]

aw..another sem had passed.
another 6months older.
haha life is still the same.
mixtures of good and bad.
but what matters most is rant and move on right? =]

received my last "salary" from bas for nat trngs.
divided the amount and it is 30+ trainings.
got it and had some random thoughts and feelings.
haha..
3 trainings a wk, 12 trainings a month, countless trainings for yrs.
putting on weight of at least 5kg from all the trainings.
suffered a swollen calf, going through acupuncture.
suffered a badly sprained ankle, going through countless physio and rehab to get it back.
not to mention the cui-ed knees and the countless push-yourself-to-the-max sessions.
those were the days.
those were the days which i will never forget.
everything is a learning experience.
everything constitutes who you are today.
i would never be who i am, without that.
for that, i m thankful.
i m thankful for every heartbreak, every pit fall, every encouragement, those who stood by.
n i m thankful that i been there, done that.
with no more regrets,
no more looking back.
just a sense of..i did everything i could.
n this is everything i will take away from it.
thanks for the memories!
for now, i will just concentrate on moving the cloud away and playing the game i love. =]

haha woohoo..so much random-ness.
n life is really very much of an irony isn't it?
you work hard so that you can have the money to enjoy life.
but when you work too hard, you won't have the money to enjoy life.
but you can't choose to not work hard.
so..i am going to work hard now. and play hard.
n lead my life.
this holiday will be packed like sardine.
n one of the most anticipated event is to go away with jing n moi for 11days.
haha ok! the madness will be ok! i can take it! haha

haha alright!
shall go back and watch my 9ends2outs.
really love the show.
i mean re-watch it!
n go mavs!
becoz of dirk, this nba season is the 1st one tt i am so into it!
jiayou mavs! jiayou dirk! =]

take gd care every1!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.Welcome to my life.][

][.6 laps!.][

2011-05-05T08:25:00.000-07:00

][.6 laps!.][

heyo bloggy!
went for my 2nd swim of the week =]
one lap increase at a time!
my challenge for 2011!

haha went to swim swim with jing cz training was cancelled.
den we met moi for dinner.
love the bffs lylo moments!
(laugh your lungs out)

i am thankful for my bffs for making life so interesting for me! =]
chatting about everything under the sun.
i love my bffs.
thanks for a decade of love.

take gd care!
it's time for work!
finally no tuitions and projects.
can't wait for study day tml! =]

and..just a nice song to share.
林凡：这样爱你好可怕。

Bye~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.这个年代的爱情观 = 快餐.][

][.5 laps.][

2011-05-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

][.5 laps.][

heyo bloggy!
things don't always go as planned.
friendly was cancelled only when i reached the ground.
ha ha ha.
oh wells..things really don't go as planned and today is such a day. =X
went to paint for a while.
den went to swim!

been really quite long since i swim =]
told fungi tt i will learn to swim be4 she gets back.
(actually i do know. just not gd! haha)
aw..yups..went to swim!
what random-ness but what fun!
n swimming is really not the thing for me.
5laps is enough to make me tire out.
i tink running 5km is easier. haha

aw..yups! i shall take to swimming after exams. =]
did the 3rd thing out of 11 for 2011!
must try to swim one full lap without stopping the next time i go!

alright.
it's time to start studying.
take care every1!
bye~
n YAY! arsenal won man u! =]]
v glad to see arsenal played this way ytr! =]
it don't matter that we r out of e race.
what's impt is e pride.
n arshavin's nice nice tackles! =]

对桥有种情有独中。=]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.除了自己，没人能帮你.][

][.Can't wait for 20/7 till 31/7! =].][

2011-04-28T00:36:00.000-07:00

][.Can't wait for 20/7 till 31/7! =].][

Yay!
Fe is getting away!

haha NOT NOW! (now is exams =[)

but yups!
this holiday is gg to be egg-citing!
cz i am going a few places.
hee..1stly guangzhou with team mates!

den maybe maybe brisbane (in consideration)
n definitely Thailand! =D
haha this thailand trip is gg to be different!
cz it's not about shopping!
it's about trying things which you had never did.
jing and moi & hopefully fungi!
we r gg to go bangkok! (yes still shopping!)
den..
Khao Yai National Park! haha going there to trek and get back to nature! waterfall and all =]

it's gg to be like back packing and photo taking! woohoo!
den..
we are going back to bkk!
after which..
we will take a train to moi's grandma village!
haha coolios. train rides other than MRT! =P
Nakhon Pathom!

we will be visiting the grand temple and floating market! n get a feel of the more village kind of lifestyle! =]

haha yes..i m vv egg-citied for this trip! =]
mummy say i sound as thou it's been vv long since i go overseas..
but i told her it's different.
haha like gg overseas for competition is diff from gg overseas to explore and see the world.
so i m gg to work hard!
n get my get away! =]
11days!
hee..not something i can imagine in the past.
all the commitments.
no more =]

haha ok!
shall end here and get back to earth to do work 1st!
exams in 14days! =]

n yups..i think i am so happy being single is really becoz my bff have things plan for my every now and then. =P
haha which is gd and bad..cz that means we r all single! =P

take gd care every1!
bye~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.yipeee!.][

][.life is changes n chases.][

2011-04-25T09:32:00.000-07:00

][.life is changes n chases.][

life is full of changes.
unexpected event happened.
let's walk through this together my bffs.
quote of the day by moi:"love is just great."

had a 2hrs talk w wen on the phone last night.
i really miss such times.
f/s nv fails. =]
the best ship of all - f/s. (2nd to kinship)

looking forward to 10days in thai.
trekking and exploring with jing n moi. (hopefully fungi can make it too =])

went for a jog.
haha hmmm..
life is like a run.
i always promise to run by my friend.
it's a promise.
if u insist that i go 1st, i will still turn back.
cz friends won't leave each another behind.

if you choose to leave me time and again behind,
i will try my best to chase for a few times..
but after many chase,
i may get really tired and turn the other way round and go.
or..
i may run ahead and nv look back.
haha just some random thoughts. =]

16days to exams.
jiayou every1!
jiayou fe! =]

take gd care every1!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.friends are like pillars.][

][.Don't go breaking my heart.][

2011-04-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

][.Don't go breaking my heart.][

haha just came back from watching "Don't go breaking my heart."
my kind of show.
love it.
haha..it makes you tear and smile at the same time.
and and..they have my favorite song in that show..david tao's 爱很简单！and 我愿意！

so sad so sad..
*spoiler*

who would you choose?
the one who loved you and you love 1st? but kept missing on all the opportunities and chances?
or
the one who loved you all the while?

so sad so sad..
haha i know it's just a show.
but show reflects life at times don't it?
(not that it reflects mine)
为何明明深爱那人却又要刺激他/她？
当你真的无法挽回时，却是一辈子的遗憾。。
人都一样。
没有人愿意一次一次的受伤害。
所以，最终一定会选择那位不会伤害你的。

but it's really sad.
haha..n yes.
i am waiting for the 火星人, 第十一人 . =]

ok! rest well every1!
nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.thankful.][

2011-04-14T10:05:00.000-07:00

][.thankful.][

super tired from a long day.
bbq with court games friends are fun!
guess this is the best mod i ever took! =]
looking forward to our nxt outing! =]

an overwhelming surge of thankful-ness.
whenever i think of the friends i have in life, i can't help but smile.
thanks g.y.m.
i think i have the best best friends i can't ask for.
i think i have the best friends that i can ever look for.
for everything, thank you!
n of cz, i have an awesome family! <3

n just a lol pic for the night.

loads had happened for this wk.
like 7kids at a go --> 10.5 hrs straight of tuition.
overnight canvassing. 28hrs without slp.
17hours of slp.
golf and fresh-ness burger.
quite a bit had happened.
n i feel quite tired.
so shall blog nxt time.
for now, night night.

take gd care every1! =]
rmb to tell your friends how thankful you are for them.
don't take things that they do for you for granted.
cz no1 owes you anything.
so, thank you my bffs and my gd gd friends. =]
you guys know who you are!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Power of Overseas.][

2011-04-05T22:09:00.000-07:00

][.Power of Overseas.][

had a good sleep.
and a good chat with fungi.
the power of overseas. haha jk.

many times,
there are things that you know.
but there are also things that you know is not possible.
somehow, i hope that every friendship can be as platonic as fnq and me.
and i sincerely hope that it's only me thinking too much.
cause, i really don't like this feeling.
really don't.
当局者迷，旁观者清.
this is not true always.
cz..many times, the person in the situation knows best.

haha alright.
just some random rantings.
take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.我不想.][

][.Happy Birthday Mummy!.][

2011-04-04T11:05:00.000-07:00

][.Happy Birthday Mummy!.][

4/4/2011
Happy Birthday Mummy! =]
Thanks for loving me through e years!
Thanks for buying me a present on your birthday! lol.
<3 ya too! =]

This weekend (fri till sun) had been gd with meet-ups.
met 5-yr-old on sat morning for a gd breakfast or rather 2? haha
we had two rounds. opps!
always good to meet up with kid!
jiayou with tian ya xia yi! =]]

den as usual, golf and freshness burger with moi.
haha i really have a v lame best friend who can irritate me till i wanna throw the golf club at her but always able to stop be4 i do it! thankfully.

n mj with shem n jing n moi n daddy on sat.
was kinda funny how we always lose everything to daddy.
thankfully i dun nd to pay. hahaha.
bbaxn game be4 tt.
really tired ttm.
super duper unfit.
need to get it back.

trng on sun!
gosh, really is unfit ttm.
need to do something abt it!

love my weekends.
so it means more work during weekday.
finished court games module today! =]
4 mods to focus till e end of the sem!

haha ok..actually i m quite tired now.
waiting for hair to dry n slp.
gg to be another long day tml!
haha..rest well every1!
nitez.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.A 3rd Person's View on Forever5.][

2011-03-31T10:01:00.000-07:00

][.A 3rd Person's View on Forever5.][

i read this email n i teared.
it's shem's report on forever5.
no1 may have e patience to finish reading.
but i just wanna blog down..cz it so perfectly sums us up! =]
iloveus.
through all e ups and downs, iloveus.
i am really blessed to have them. <3

This is the final evaluation report from an independant third party point of view of the phenomena of the group known as Forever 5, or for clearer distinction, the 'poorest clique in the whole universe'. As such, I would expect to recieve the total and full payment of absolutely zero dollars for the research compiled and collated in this detailed report and shall hold my silence from here henceforth.

Members of Forever 5 (6 to be honest):
Felica Chee aka Fe
Fung Yi Chee aka Fungi
Giriwan Wong aka Moi
Jing Wei Tan aka Jing
Wendy Tan aka Wen
Offie Tan aka Pikai

Individual evaluations:
Felica Chee. Forever polite and will always be. The most matured of the group.
Felica comes across as extremely polite, even to Forever 5. If she is the way she is with this group, one can only imagine how polite she is outside. With sports and school taking the bulk of her time, coupled with the tutoring of several students, one can only wonder how she manages her time. To the observer, it is almost mind boggling and he can only wish to have a slice of that ability of time management. Calm, cool headed and with the ability to micro-manage time, Felica has clearly mastered those aspects of her life. It would come as no surprise if she would triumph over other aspects of life in time to come.

Fung Yi Chee. Friendly, funny, thrifty
An outgoing personality coupled with friendly persona. Fung Yi thrives on the essense of people. She is friendly and funny, goofy at times although her goofiness will be overshadowed by a later mention. Fungyi comes across as an extremely thrifty person who saves for a rainy day and is always well prepared. There are no two ways when her studies are concerned, and at times been observed to been multi tasking, studying and hanging out all at the same time. Her eye bags are a cause for concern, often showing with her making no efforts to conceal them. Such is the life of a chem student in NUS. Note: She will not hesitate to relieve Offie from Wendy.

Giriwan Wong. The chinese dynasty that she calls home
It is scary to note that the observer knows two other cousins of hers. All in SIM. Such is the small world that we call Singapore. Most street smart of the group, Moi is quite the chatterbox when playing mahjong. Moi has a great personality and comes across as very pleasant to engage a conversation with. It is not difficult to get along with her and she has made life comfortable for the observer, especially in the inital few encounters with Forever 5. Somewhat boyish, in all honesty it is quite hard to see her as a lady but she is who she is and I respect her for that. Have I mentioned the museum she calls her room?

Jing Wei Tan. Baby of the group. Always early always wait.
Often bullied most of the time, not that she minds. Jing is most at home with Forever 5. With flashes of goofyness, the observer wonders where the real Jing went. It did not take long for the observer to realize that THAT was the real Jing Wei. Although she complains a great deal to Forever 5, there are no quibs between them. Jing being the only early one most of the time has had to suffer the consequences of waiting, and waiting and waiting for Forever 5. Something she has rolled her eyes at most of the time, only to be ignored. One would sympathize with her had she confrom with the clique's habits however her wont to be early still leaves her rolling her eyes while complaining to her boyfriend who is late more than half of the time.

Wendy Tan. Arse_al fan.
Sporty with most diciplines of sports under her belt, Wendy is the loudest of the group. Her piercing 'Wa Laus' is her distinct characteristic. She always has the strangest of ideas and has a room that leave even the most ardent of football fans drooling. As an observer, Wen seems to be the force pushing the otherwise stagnant Forever 5. She is the most daring of the lot, most willing to try different things and is considered the luckiest to have Offie Tan by her side 24/7. Her house seems to be place defacto when it comes to hanging out, shabu shabu-ing or MJ-ing. She is the most happy-go-lucky of the 5 and the most soccer crazy. Like seriously.

Offie Tan. Clearance puppy
Offie. Full stop. Here lies Inception. A report within a report. The observer will leave that to Fungi or Jing who could easily write a essay befitting for acceptance to a Fullbright scolarship.

Forever Five
Likes:
Arsenel, Shabu shabu, KOI, Mahjong, Satay Beehoon, Offie. Procastination
Dislikes: The other 19 premier league clubs. It is not wise to say anything bad about Arsen_l. Period

Concluding Report as observed by Shem Moo

After over 1.5 years of observation and interaction with the abovementioned subjects, I have come to a conclusion that without a shadow of a doubt, the group deserves and holds proudly title of 'poorest clique in the world' high above their heads. This however, does not accurately reflect the true financial status of every individual within the group. While the spending threshold of the group varies, the group is percived as stringent and thrifty ONLY when together, fully maximising whatever mininal fundings that each is willing to put in. While this behavior holds true for most groups of friends across the board, the dedication and levels this group is willing to go to is an eyeopener for the reader and truly is astounding! The expense that they go to not spend money makes the scrouge looks like Santa Claus!

Every aspect of projected spending is carefully scrutinized and discussed throughly before put into action and more often than not, leads to procastination that eventually tethers off into oblivion and is duely forgotten. A quick look into the chronological history within the past 18 months can atest to that. Without a full clique, the mentioned title becomes false and unconclusive until the point of report. Since the my induction into the group, this clique has never had a full attendance when dining in places other than a hawker centre locally. (East Coast Food Corner being the only recorded location and Thailand not included).

To help explain in detail the economical poweress of the group, I shall bring to attention the favorite activity of Forever 5, the Shabu Shabu dinner. A typical dinner together when without the help of Wendy's mom usually consist of the Shabu Shabu themed hotpot dinner with a mish mash of cubes of chicken stock, the mandatory chicken franks and slices of pork belly and other various ingredients. All of which the total cost of the dinner should come to no surprise at not more than $7 per person. Surpringsly through the invitation of dining with Forever 5, I have found and learnt that it is an extremely fun and cohesive way to dine, not to mentioned the economical 'lightness' on the wallet. Having been a convert of the DIY Shabu shabu hotpot, I have always looked forward to future hotpot sessions.

Generally movies have always been considered as a healthy group activity yet Forever 5 has never caught a film at the movie theatre together, within the last 18 months at least. Strangely they however will not hesitate to come together to watch another form of 'movie' that consists of another type of film stars whose names come attached with numbers with an astoundingly vile looking logo sew onto bright red and white jersys. Some of their names include Farbagas and Ven Percee.(Author's note: The true and correct spelling of names is considered blasphemy and is considered a serious infringement to the validity of this report). This phenomena is best left as another story for another time. The two examples serves poorly as evidence to show how economically effective Forever 5 are as a group.

While this might be viewed as a negative construct by others, it has however lead me to belive that the group has a depth of cohesion second to none. The name Forever 5 which the group derives from is both befitting and is as genuine as it gets. With basketball as their common denominator and their roots stemming from primary school till date, this report simply fails to show how deep the bonds go. With a decade long friendship growing strong, it is without doubt that it will contiune to grow and grow it will. This group like any other have had it fair share of ups and downs, yet they will continue to ride the banana boat of life together as Forever 5, each member of the group somehow a reflection of the other four. Although as an observer, it is not difficult to see the true and unabashed characters of this group of friends when they are together.

If there would be a story out of this report, it will be told in a form of two liquids of contrasting properties. Oil and water. Chemical bonds and molecular structure aside, if you were to place 5 seperate oil droplets into a bowl of water, given time and without any external force (in a form of blowing or shaking the bowl), these oil droplets will magically pool together and form into a large oil 'puddle'. This puddle is now nearly impossible to seperate completely, sure one can easily swirl the bowl and break up that puddle into small droplets, but no matter how far apart the droplets may be seperated, at the end of the day, the original oil puddle just forms back. And if troubles and difficults of life are figuritively a flame of fire, it could boil the entire bowl causing the water will evaporate but yet the oil still stays. The solidarity of the oil is all but a poor analogy of how tight Forever 5 is, but if I, the casual observer could be an oil droplet too, what an honor that would NOT be.

Regards.
Asso. Prof Moo Wei Siong.

thanks er jie fu for this report.
for this, we shall discount ur ang bao fees a bit!
hahaha =]

take gd care every1!
nitez!~

][.10.fe.15][
][.lifetime friends.][

][.당신이었군요.][

2011-03-30T11:33:00.000-07:00

][.당신이었군요.][

today was a relaxing day.
woke up at 1pm.
went for 1st time facial & threading of eyebrow!

watched Cyrano Agency: The Dating Guru.
vv nice. love e show.
my typical kind of show.
rom-com. haha
but e sad parts r really sad.
just imagine helping some1 woo some1 whom you had yet to get over?
jus heart-wrenching.
n e actors n actress all (Y) in e show.
handsome n pretty. =]

went to eat tau huay n back hall.
thanks to court game friend! haha

was telling 5-yr-old how apprehensive i m towards making fast friends.
but agree w her that each friend tt enter ur life, just go with the flow.
can't possibly let past incidents, experiences hinder new f/s =]

n random thoughts came flying by like rockets.
there really ain't enemies forever.
how can you hate a friend who used to do so much for you?
you just can't.
it takes fate to be friends.
it takes even greater fate and effort to maintain the f/s.
one day, when the f/s come to an end (sink), walk away with graciousness and gratefulness that the person had once used so much effort to be part of your life and make each day special for you.

the show said something like..
"it's not possible to get back with your ex, cause you will break up for the same reasons once again."
i was hoping so much for the couple to get back tgt.
but they din.
however, each managed to have a new special some1.
i guess this works the same way for friends.
unless you're able to sort out the differences that caused you to end the f/s,
if not, it's not possible to be friends once again.
so just take e beautiful memories with you.
n say all e best, gd bye!

ok! shall end my nice day with a =].
hopefully can surprise npo w bday cake tml!
n meet 5-yr-old for supper!
n thanks in advance for my bff who can give me a lift back tml!

life is short.
work hard.
play hard.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.it was you.][

][.Quality Time.][

2011-03-26T08:03:00.001-07:00

][.Quality Time.][

managed to spend some quality time with didi today.
love such moments =]
went for 45 mins jog, 1hr 15 min walk n buying dinner with didi.
so gd to see him grow, being here for him n him here for me.
i am really thankful tt i get to be a sis n not e only child.
we had decided tt sat wuld be our jogging day!
2hrs each wk!
nice jog, nice sunset!
hopefully when he is 18, we can get to complete a marathon tgt =]

so sat shall be tuition and jogging day!

n fri is now my official golf day!
went to marina golf club instead of e usual ytr.
love e peaceful-ness n complete attention when playing golf =]

so far so gd, spent fri n sat doing stuffs tt i enjoy! =]
back to work now n tml!
chiong ah fe! =]

ooo n yups..i have a new interest --> collect hard liquor bottles!
i intend to have a cupboard to display all my hard liquor when i get my house in e future!
haha mummy say it's a nice idea..so if u happen to go overseas n don't intend to use e duty-free for hard liquor, let me know ok! =] thanks in advance!
proudly presenting collection no1 & no2. =]

hee intend to get all e limited editions.
no1: is limited edition
no2: traveler's exclusive =]
n no worries! i am not alcoholic coz i m not gonna drink em.
just for collections! =]

ok! back to work!
take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.<3.][

][.Platonic Friends.][

2011-03-24T12:18:00.000-07:00

][.Platonic Friends.][

went to gym with lms mates today.
had lunch n a discussion over platonic friendship.
disagreed initially.
but met up with pri sch friend reminds me that..
there can be platonic friends =]
n we r definitely gg to treasure this friendship!

n i broke e high score by myself today!
muhahaha call me 1031!

take gd care every1!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.fatefe.][

][.Charlie Brown Cafe!.][

2011-03-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

][.Charlie Brown Cafe!.][

A message in the morning told me to "Do something random today!" =]
and so i did.
Thank You 5-yr-old! =]]

had presentation n YAY to A! =D
e whole 3 days spent on this presentation was worth it.
Sarcasm - like we need your support! =] hee

so today was a random day.
presentation, experiment, went out for tuition n decided to check out charlie brown cafe by myself =]

e initial plan was to catch a movie alone =]
cz i had nv done so..n i guess it's smth tt every1 should try?
haha..i dunno.
aw..showered n suddenly feel like checking out charlie brown cafe instead.

so i went there, grab a coffee, immerse in the environment, bought smth for npo, did my outline for report n traveled back to hall. =]
haha a random decision, a random thing to do on a tues, a random time alone.
e cafe ain't as nice as those overseas, but it was kinda cute w all e tables - snoopy, woodstock, charlie brown, lucy! =], snoopy comics and small little toys!
hopefully it will expand n have life size snoopy figurines!

n it feels gd! =]
thanks loads 5-yr-old!
thanks for e reminder for e need of random-ness once in a while in life!

so, go do smth random for yourself ba!
do smth tt it's out of e ordinary & smth tt u will enjoy! =]]

take gd care every1!
i shall be back to work! =]

][.距离，可以很唯美也可以很危险.][

2011-03-21T09:03:00.000-07:00

][.距离，可以很唯美也可以很危险.][

终于完成了一些作业。
写完一些想法后就要下线，准备明天的事了。

喝着黑咖啡，
疲累的我选择静静的写下心里所想的一切。

收到简单的提醒，
会感受到好朋友真心的关心。
感觉很好。

人与人是需要保持一定的联系的。
人们说距离是美。
我同意。
但，我认为，太多的距离，太少的联系，会让再坚定的一切情谊开始晃动。

所以，
记得和你珍惜的人保持联系。
关心他们。
就算只是偶尔想起。
让她知道。。=]

因为，唯有彼此珍惜和付出，那段情谊才能长久。

晚安！

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][

][.1000 post!.][

2011-03-17T14:22:00.001-07:00

][.1000 post!.][

Woohoo!
hello bloggy! i had written on you for 1000 times!
thanks loads for being here for me 1000 times!
through the good times, through the bad times.

thanks for giving me a platform to air my thoughts.
thanks for giving me a place to rant when no1 else can und.
thanks for giving me a place to have the courage to express my feelings.
thanks for giving me a place to look back on my memories.
for all these, thank you my bloggy. <3
you are indeed very precious, for you are my memory hard-disk.
used to write diary when i was younger..but i was nv able to note everything down till i have you.
so once again, thank you for being here for my smiles and tears.

it's 525am in the morning now.
i am feeling very hungry.
but yes!
finally done with fyp proposal!
pls let it be approved.
too tired to proof read now..so gg to slp and edit tml morning. (in a few hrs)
doing on vernacular languages in s'pore and elderspeak.
interested in both but shall wait for approval to see which is better to work on! =]
i swear..this fyp topics were really mind-boggling.
so cross your fingers and pray for me pls! thank you! =]

recess wk is coming to an end. =[
it's time to 收拾心情回学校。
but for now, allow me to rest for one mre day!
*breathing heaps of relief at the completion of fyp proposal* =]

went to timbre @ arthouse to celebrate pris's birthday n ran for the last train with jieqi meimei.
went for training be4 gg over.
so, it had been a wk since i exercised.
ahh..it feels so good.
it's time to start running again! =]
running nv fails to take my mind of everything. (cz there's no time to think! hahah jk..it's actually the best time to think!)
but it always feel so gd to sweat it out! =]

my song of the night.
陶喆表示，暗戀的經驗人人都有，
這首歌曲的靈感也來自他的親身經歷，
他希望唱出可以默默喜歡一個人、
卻不一定要擁有他的堅定態度，
並且說：「我想讓大家明白：即使是一段沒有結局的愛情，但這段情感仍是充滿著力量的！」

每个人都有暗恋过另一个人吧。
他或许到最后知道了，或许永远都不会知道。
但，只要他过得好，那就好了，不是吗？
一切就只是一段回忆。一段美好的回忆。=]

今天，我拼命的跑，追最后一班列车。
然后，追最后一辆巴士。
因为，今晚我不想一个人走回家。
不知怎么的，波涛汹涌的回忆。
但，现在好多了。

haha ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
enjoy e song n have a gd weekend! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thanks bloggy!.][

][.Recess Week.][

2011-03-15T23:13:00.001-07:00

][.Recess Week.][

Recess week 是幸福的。
会因为做不完的事而感到很累，很累。
但是，每天早上起床就有妈妈准备好的早餐，水果和聊一聊世界发生的各种事，我人生的点滴，我未来的梦想。
这个感觉很好。
下午和傍晚，努力的做事，到了夜晚很爸爸聊聊天，和弟弟踢球。
到了夜晚，看看电视，做自己想做的事，真的很开心。
家，真的很舒服，很温馨。

大家一定在想，难道周末就没有这样的机会吗？
答案其实是，真的没有。
因为，有责任。
因为需要补习。
所以，每个周末总是早上就出门，然后不吃午餐的补到近乎傍晚。
周末总是忙忙碌碌。
根本没有时间停下来陪他们。
所以，我真的很享受这个星期。

而且，刚刚和妈妈聊天，她说，并不介意我出国做工。
哈哈。。或许我真的会这么做。

好啦。
该回去做事了！
保重了大家！

][.10.fe.15.][
][.my happy family!.][

][.Zoned-Out.][

2011-03-13T09:41:00.000-07:00

][.Zoned-Out.][

rested for 4days.
4 gd days of rest.
zoned out and continue zoning out.

just wanna relax and rest and rest and rest.
feel lazy to reply messages, n coordinate things.
feel lazy to meet up apart from with comfortable companies of friends where i can just zone out.

get what i mean? =]

tired in a way.
feel tt there's a lot more in life sometimes.
there's more to life.

4days of good rest is giving me too much time to rest and think.
some photos to sum up my 4days of break!

ok take gd care every1!
nitez!

][.10.fe.15][
][.continue zoning out.][

][.life.][

2011-03-11T10:50:00.000-08:00

][.life.][

japan's earthquake 8.9.
thankfully korkor is safe apart frm being stucked in e office.
pray for him and all to cont to stay safe.

life is really full of uncertain things.
just have to treasure every moment.
every single moment and live it to the fullest.
the way tt you deem is the fullest.

is your worth determined by what's your grades?
is it determined by how much you earn?
i have no idea how you determine yours.
but for me,
i just wanna live my life to the fullest in my way.

re-watched GTO and can't help but agree with this..
"You just be yourself."
there's no need to compare yourself with others.
lead a happy life.

for the past two nights,
some things sparked my thoughts.
can't help but think and recall some incidents in life.
but all these wun matter anymore.
cz, it's all in e past.
it's all a lesson learnt.
it's all part of life.
there's no if.
there won't be a "if there's a 2nd chance"
cz each day is a special day in life.
there's no day that is supposed to be a rehearsal.

take gd care every1!
live ur life to ur fullest! =]

n love e show.
realli handsome n pretty combi.
nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.don't look back for it's gone.][

][.Little things in life.][

2011-03-08T02:17:00.001-08:00

][.Little things in life.][

just as i thought tt i was recovering,
i lost my voice n cough like mad.
so conclusion: have yet to recover!

through all these,
i encounter a few concerns shed by 泛泛之交 which really touched me.
people whom u don't really know know extending their help.
really thankful for all!
1st: ah fang auntie
plucking some bitter grass and putting it with salt for me.
2nd: liang teh and honey lemon water from court games friend.
a drop-by e hall to drop the drinks.
thankful for all these!

i believe what goes ard comes ard.
so nv hesitate to extend a helping hand to all. =]

thanks to all my friends too.
donating water, tissues to me during seminars.
thanks to teammates n roomie for asking me to drink water n finding ways to make sure tt i can stop coughing n fall asleep.
thanks to bffs who allow me to "curse" when i take 2hrs to fall asleep due to coughing non-stop.

for all these,
i m thankful.
n i will try my best to get my voice back asap!

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thankful.][

][.Thankfully, recovering.][

2011-03-03T21:24:00.000-08:00

][.Thankfully, recovering.][

being sick really don't feel good.
the past few days had been not so good.
taking a cab from sch back to hall (sch) really ain't something tt i would imagine myself doing.
but when you really feel like you are gg to faint any moment, you would.

thankfully, feeling much better now. =]
hate how weak one feel when you are sick.
crying in ur sleep cz e feeling is so agrh.
wanting mummy to be there when i m already 21 turning 22.
all these vulnerable moments.
who says that adolescence will want to distance yourself from your family?
thankfully there was roomie's care. xie le!

with 2 quizzes and one game organization nxt wk,
jiayou fe!
jiayou everybody!
a machine tt work hard!
now i jus hope to save enough to go for a get away in june! =]
things are gg on well.
jus wanna work harder n earn more!
cz,$ is really important.
ok! take gd care every1!

n no meat-diet continues. =]

他們猜我們後來有沒有再見
離席了才會曉得懷念
突然我記起你的臉　那觸動依然像昨天
對自己　我終於也　誠實了一點

是不是回憶就是淡淡檸檬草
心酸裡又有芳香的味道
曾以為你是全世界　但那天已經好遙遠
繞一圈　我才發現我有更遠地平線

＊我們都沒錯　只是不適合
　我要的　我現在才懂得
　快樂是我的　不是你給的
　寂寞要自己負責＊

畢竟用盡了力氣也未必如願
總是要過去以後才了解
突然我記起你的臉　愛不愛不過一念之間
繞一圈　今天的我能和昨天面對面

我們都沒錯　只是不適合
親愛的　我當時不懂得
選擇是我的　不是你給的　明天自己負責

給昨天的我一個擁抱
曾經她不知如何是好
若我們再見我會微笑
謝謝你　謝謝你　我嚐過　愛的好

REPEAT＊

我要的我現在在才懂得
選擇是我的　不是你給的
幸福要自己負責　錯過的　請你把握

蛮喜欢这首歌的。
每个人都应该为自己的生命负责。
没有人应该为另一个人而活。=]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.我们都没错，只是不适合 =].][

][.这世界太拥挤，我太渺小.][

2011-02-25T10:54:00.000-08:00

][.这世界太拥挤，我太渺小.][

周杰伦说：“这世界太拥挤，太多人有秘密"
我说：这世界太拥挤，而我太渺小。
用自己所限的光来照亮这城市的某个角落。
但，这角落好像也只有自己在乎。

喜欢小孩。
因为，他们活得最自在，最快乐。
无需在乎世界的一切，安心的依偎在怀里就行了。

haha ok..enough of random-ness.
here's a pic taken w yayun's baby girl.
been a while since i carry such a small baby so really scared. haha
n on a side note, i finally cut my hair by 2.5 chun. but it's still long.
guess i will take a while be4 i would be willing to part with my long hair. =]
dye it too! hee

n this song is on loop for tonite =]

后来的我们
越过那条长街再转弯
那是以前我常来的地方
碎花窗帘和干净的窗
你一直希望对面是一片海洋
后来听说你一直想搬
太多寂寞在屋里一直烧不完
在别人面前我们总显得大方
说还是朋友或许只是一个假象
后来的我们一直都遇不上
仿佛都在避开某一些地方
在人群中都走得特别匆忙
怕一不小心就认出对方
后来的我们又被谁而遇上
忍痛许久的伤终于能原谅
才明白眼泪只是一种行囊
而我们都是彼此幸福的转站
也许在某一天某个街上
无意中擦肩认出对方
我们只需自然
不会有人看穿
怕一不小心就会认出对方

1st time i listen to e lyrics carefully.
realli meaningful.

ok! back to work!
take gd care every1!
bye! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wanna go backpacking.][

][.No Strings Attached.][

2011-02-23T09:54:00.001-08:00

][.No Strings Attached.][

Once in a while, you need a good laugh. =]

the whole show was lol.
love the scene where he said "you can't fight me, you're like a miniature, you fight like a hamster". haha

n..this is really sweet..

love the movie.
love the scene where she drove on n e sea was just right beside.

n i think our thoughts are really amazing stuffs!
cause only you will know what you are thinking.
n memories always act up during movies such as these.
overwhelming memories.

haha ok! back to work!
take gd care every1!
bye! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.bleeding love.][

][.Machine, pls keep going!.][

2011-02-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

][.Machine, pls keep going!.][

dear bloggy..haha i m nt as free as i tink.
with ass-ays, projs n now a fyp, it is certainly gg to be mad wks ahead!
n here come trngs n tuitions.
time is running fast.
ketchup with it fe!

quite tired after a long day!
but..haha it's life. n so we live it to e fullest =]

smth tt put a smile on my face today.
mummy: so u r in hall alone tonight?
me: yes mummy.
mummy: ok, quickly go shower n call me after tt. (to report tt everything is safe)

haha kinda of lol at it..cz i m already 21+ but mummy is still worried abt my safety.
haha yes yes..she nags at me all e time. but at e instance, i feel like a young little girl once again. =]
for them, i shall work hard this sem.

n jus a side note, bball performance still affects me.

ok! take gd care every1!
byee...=]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.batt low.][

][.Champion + Wakeboarding + Random Thoughts.][

2011-02-09T09:11:00.000-08:00

][.Champion + Wakeboarding + Random Thoughts.][

Hello bloggy!
*wipes away the dust*
been a while since i blog =]
everything is gg on well!

Yes!
We made it!
Champions! =]
n here we draw an end to the season.
been a rocky and interesting one.
n it ended.
things somehow just have to come to an end at some point of time.
but..there are still things tt i wanna do. =]
Thanks NTU 2011 team!
Thanks for bringing me through such a interesting and unforgettable season.
Every season has its own story.
One that can't be replaced by others!
Have prob uploading photos..so haha nxt time ba!
Think its time i develop photos to keep for memory sake! =]

Wakeboarding!
8/2/2011
fe tried what she thought she could not.
Wakeboarding.
e fear for water n e sea.
jus heck and go.
n seriously life jacket is one of the greatest invention.
without it, i doubt i will be able to ever try this water sport.
Thanks loads to wen, jing, fungi and shem too!
Thanks for encouraging me throughout all the tries!
Will never forget how i struggled when i did my 1st "superman" face down fall into e water. it's really scary. like i m gg to die anytime.
i was jus praying hard tt they would quickly come back and save me.
the amount of seawater tt i drank is..haha enough to fill a bottle ba.
but when u finally manage to do it, it's happiness.
n the fear jus disappear with each try.
it makes me feel like 跌倒了，不要怕。再站起来就行了！=]
n the sceneries were beautiful.
静静的海，知心的好友，凉风轻轻的吹，从中午至日落。
好美好美。
躺在海面上等她们回来救我时，看着黄昏，真的蛮舒服的。
失败不可怕。
只要你愿意再次尝试就一定会成功。=]
really enjoyed myself.
the feeling of trying and failing and trying once again.
the encouragements tt ur best friends give you time and again is priceless.
n i conclude..we treat each other e best when we are in danger =]
love ytr!
went to ikea (moi joined us) and 6 of us ate loads after tt as sunset grill is closed.
we ate like mad.
seriously.
so super fat now. n i decided tt its time i lose weight.
haha went home n immediately k.o-ed at 10plus pm.
super tired.
a nice nice day!
n becoz of all these frequent meet ups with forever5..
i tink i will really miss fungi in the 6months.
although she want to push me into e sea! hahaha

n jus some random thoughts..
things always happen for a reason.
i enjoyed myself ytr n it felt like regaining freedom after so long.
doing things out of my comfort zone.
jumping into danger zone.
trying new things.
n i wanna start planning for my life. =]
11 things to do in 2011.
wakeboarding down.
10 more to go! =]
will learn how to swim be4 fungi comes back!
will go for golf on fri! =]
n i will be a better student who reads in advance to e lect.
e freedom n time tt i have to do things i wanna do is quite awesome =]

jogging with lydia jus now was nice too! =]
30++mins of jogging!
from tired till runners high.
i really love jogging, i guess.
shall try to shed back to my personal best =]

haha ok!
take gd care every1!
nitez!! =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.u nv know till u try!.][

][.Hello Finals, here we come!.][

2011-01-27T07:46:00.000-08:00

][.Hello Finals, here we come!.][

YAY!
we made it!
haha NTU!
let's go!
FINALS!
n let's get it back!
nothing but gold! =D

ok. i m super duper tired now.
aching like mad.
so..i guess its time for bed.
haha take gd care every1! =D

nitez nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.stay focus!.][

][.Come On Fe!.][

2011-01-24T09:14:00.000-08:00

][.Come On Fe!.][

physically tired.
mentally tired.

physically tired BUT feeling vvv energized for e season.
nothing but the gold!
nothing but the gold!
nothing but the gold!
let's go NTU! =D
this season is really vvv tiring.
like every pt of time, something mus happen.
BUT these make things more interesting and more important to fight doubly hard isn't it? =]
nv felt so motivated be4.
let's win it guys!
roomie, i will wait for u to get bac. no stress. =]

sch had started!
1st 2 lessons had been fun! =]
let's go fe!
this shall be a diff wonderful sem!
fe, would no longer be known as bballer.
she would be known as mugger. (after IVP of cz.)

as for mentally.
actually is not mentally.
is more of emotionally.
i hate quarrels.
seriously.
i m realli nt angry.
i m jus sian.
i jus hate it when things jus change n nt like be4.
but what can i do right?
change is e only constant.
it's jus tt amidst all these changes..
sometimes, you jus hope to hold onto some precious bonds.
some promises.
some uniqueness.
something tt belongs to nothing BUT us!
but seems like we grow n we fly n we forgot abt e simplest thing tt we share.
no1's fault.
it's jus tt sometimes, the higher e expectations, e greater e disappointments.
n i still loveus.

ok! rest well every1!
nitez nitez!
n i realli not lian tong zheng.
but i love e innocence in kids.
it's smth tt we had lost as we grow.

here's a pic of my happy pill n me!
n seriously i nt lian tong.
i jus love kids.
love e innocence.
n my happy pill made my day once again by giving me a hug during half time n chasing ard after e game. =]
ok nitez ppl!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.因为太在乎，所以.][

][.Let's Do It!.][

2011-01-22T10:10:00.000-08:00

][.Let's Do It!.][

这个赛季充满了高潮起伏。
不停的事一再的发生。
只能全力以赴！
拼了！

][.10.fe.15.][
][.nothing but gold!.][

][.You are the Best!.][

2011-01-19T09:27:00.000-08:00

][.You are the Best!.][

You are the Best!!
This is my current favourite song!! =]]

Try to be best
Cause you're only a man
And a man's gotta learn to take it

Try to believe
Though the going gets rough
That you gotta hang tough to make it

History repeats itself
Try and you'll succeed

Never doubt that you're the one
And you can have your dreams!

You're the best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you dow-ow-ow-ow-own

Fight til the end
Cause your life will depend
On the strength that you have inside you

Ah you gotta be proud
starin out in the cloud
When the odds in the game defy you

Try your best to win them all
and one day time will tell
when you're the one that�s standing there
you'll reach the final bell!

You're the best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you dow-ow-ow-ho-how-ho-own

You're the best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you dow-ow-ow-ow-own

Fight til you drop
never stop
can't give up
Til you reach the top (FIGHT!)
you're the best in town (FIGHT!)
Listen to that sound
A little bit of all you got
Can never bring you down

You're the best!
Around!
Nothing's gonna ever keep you down
You're the Best!
Around!

haha ok! tired le.
take gd care every1!
nitez =]]

believe in yourself!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][

][.oh wells!.][

2011-01-17T09:55:00.000-08:00

][.oh wells!.][

it's another semester.
another oh wells, agrh sem!
it's like you can't cry cz what u expect worst din get worst.
but u can't smile cz what u expect well din made it.
it's jus tt kind of feeling.
but oh wells.
jus focus on the season.
get the champs!
n i will give my best to studies.
no longer a average student.
promise.

ok la! shan't tink too much abt it le.
take gd care every1!
n IVP!
HERE WE COME!!
ONE GAME AT A TIME!
WE WILL GET THERE!
HEAR IT?! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.COME ON!.][

][.10 things tt made me smile in 2010 & 11 things tt i wanna do in 2011!.][

2011-01-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

][.10 things tt made me smile in 2010 & 11 things tt i wanna do in 2011!.][

haha..was on the way back from tuition and decided that there shall be 11 things tt i wanna learn in 2011! =]

but be4 moving on..
let's look at 2010. =]
shan't blog about =[ stuffs!
so..here's 10 things tt made me smile in 2010!

1) Bike Rally with wen! 128km ard Singapore! =]
2) Zip Line with Joy! Conquering the heights and awesome company! =]
3) All the shabu and mahjong sessions with forever5! =]
4) Family Outings to Downtown East (seeing the adults turn into kids all over again) and all our gatherings! =]
5) Photography lessons with moi! exploring the beautiful sceneries of our little red dot! =]
6) Genting trip with moi, sh, ling n sheryl! the much needed get away from all the madness! =]
7) YOG duties with fungi! it was an experience and nice ketchup-ing with fungi! =]
8) Universal Studio with Sh! haha it was the day i became a kid all over again! =]
9) Marathon with Joy! We did it! A lifetime memory! =]
10) AUG trip to chiangmai! =]
10) My 21st! The day i felt love ttm! =]

haha actually there are many more events that made me smile.
but these are the few tt i could remember clearly! =]
thanks to all those tt did all these with me! =]

n here's 11 things tt i wanna do in 2011!
haha actually..haven think of 11 things yet. but shall blog down some 1st! =]

1) Blading & Wakeboarding! - Wen will teach me after e season! =] looking forward to the blading sessions at ECP and maybe a beer at the Irish Pub there! Went for Kilkenny ytr n it was really nice! my new love! haha n wen says she wanna bring us to try wakeboarding! =]
2) Swimming! - This is something that is learnt but nv really learnt. Shall try to learn it properly this year! =]
3) Golf! - Did i mentioned, this is my new emo sport! =] went for golf with moi on the last day of 2010 n it was really nice. the place n all. the peace and focus. haha got myself a pair of golf gloves! =]
4) Tennis! - Most prob would learn from wen n jing! =] bonding time too! haha
5) Photography! - Shall go explore our little red dot and hopefully save up enough to go for a get away to take photos! =]
6) Save up for get away! - Work hard from tuition! Save up more so that i can travel! =] haha so saving n get away shall be together! =]
7) Cooking! - Shall ask mummy to teach me how to cook! =] so that the things i can whip up is not jus eggs, crabsticks, franks n maggi! =P
8) First Aid! - haha i m not kidding. the 1st thing tt actually came to my mind when i wanna learn something new was CPR! haha checked out the price already..80bucks for basic lesson. no idea why..but feel tt it would be important to learn some life-saving skills! =]
9)Learn more about beer, liquor, wine and coffee & tea! =]
10) Have time for myself to do things i wanna do n love to do! =]
11) Work harder for GPA! =]

haha told mummy tt i wanna learn 11new things!
n she told me 2 lame ones tt she want me to do..
i realli lol n rolled my eyes!
1) Learn how to get a bf.
2) Learn to start eating onions.
haha so now i know what my mummy asks of me ;p

haha ok! rest well everybody! =]
nitez!
take care! n smilez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.checklist for 2011!.=].][

][.Hello Bloggy!.][

2011-01-11T09:01:00.000-08:00

][.Hello Bloggy!.][

hello bloggy!
sorry that i had not visit you for a while.
u r not forgotten.
it's just tt there are so many things tt happened tt it's jus so hard to blog down everything.

closed a chapter to 2010.
it had been an eventful year.
with everything.
it would be a memorable yr too.
cz it's e yr tt i learnt n fell.
it's e yr tt i decide tt somethings, there really isn't a need to 坚持到底。
要懂得何时放手，才不会把自己累坏。
closed a chapter of life.
n learnt how much courage 1 must take to make each decision.
but things would really be alright. =]

decision to enjoy basketball.
n moved on with life to experience more things. =]
took e yr to move on in other aspects of life n did marathon! hee
n 2010, i learnt tt things need to be said.
you may end up quarrelling, but if it need to be said n resolve, you have to.
我只能说，就算是很多年的好友，还是会有不同的想法和意见。
所以，一定要坦白相对。
真心，珍惜。
有时，要记得说出口让你珍惜的人知道，她或他对你真的很重要。=]

n so 2010 was closed with forever5 n me burning a hole in e pants with my firecracker. they are whom i treasure.
10years is really taking a toil on us as we find each other trashing things out quite often these days.
but i sure hope, we will have more 10yrs from here.
n i believe we will. =]

n now tt it's 2011, i can only say, let's all have a gd yr ahead ok! =]
it had been v hectic.
end of exams, aug, jumping into trng for ivp.
so much had happened which made me feel like gasping for air at times.
haha think till dun feel like thinking.
sometimes, you just feel like taking a backseat n let things go.
but you know you can't.
that's how i feel now.

there's so much tt i wanna do.
i wanna get away.
i wanna breathe in and out n rest.
i wanna get my studies back on track.
i wanna do things tt i had gave up trying due to the focus on bball.
but right now, let's jus focus on this season.
get the champs back!
that's everything on my mind right now.
this season had been hard right from the start.
but it is only with the challenges that we will find e champion even more memorable.
isn't it? =]
let's do it!

game by game.
bit by bit.
i promise.
we will get there.
it wun be easy.
but we will.
jus believe in yourself ok? =]

ok! take gd care of yourself!
night night!
i know i may had given up wanting to place all my time in the game.
but the thrill of e game had nv left me.
i will nv forget aug's last game.
for it saved me.
it re-lighted the fire that was put out.
n e decision to let go to enjoy e game is present.
i will do it.
相信我。相信自己。
晚安。

真心和珍惜.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.age is catching up, for i m aching like mad.][

][.Happy 2011!.][

2011-01-03T10:18:00.000-08:00

][.Happy 2011!.][

wishes you..

more than words can say.
HELLO 2011!! welcome here!! =]
thank you 2010!!

so much to blog but so tired n hungry now.
so..haha nite everybody! i will blog again.
for now, i jus wanna say..let's jus believe in ourselves n do it!
come on guys! roars!

take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.nitez.][

][.Sick.][

2010-12-28T08:56:00.000-08:00

][.Sick.][

so much to blog down.
but so sick now.
kept blogging halfway n too tired to cont.

things to note:
1)Post exams
2)AUG fun filled 10days
3)ARSENAL road trip - out of our comfort zone

loads n loads of things to blog about.
so much thoughts.
but..i guess i need to rest.
shall blog to wrap up 2010 in a few days. =]

rars.
there r many things to settle but for now i jus wanna heck.
ok. bye. rest =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.rest time.][

][.无法形容的感受.][

2010-12-11T00:07:00.000-08:00

][.无法形容的感受.][

yes 3 down!! 2 to go!!
the next 2 days = madness!
2 modules in less than 48hrs i will be done!
but the next 48 hours would be mad.
jus do it fe!

this sem is uncertain with the 1st 2 papers feeling like agrh.
n finally the paper today is a smile.
hopefully all will turn out well.

ok! take gd care every1!
“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. Christopher Robin to Pooh”
haha jus keep believing ok! =]
u can do it!!

p/s: pls be ok! i pray!
for you let me see what courage is. get well soon!
anything, i wll be here. promise.

][.10.fe.15.][

][.2nd Marathon!.][

2010-12-08T05:41:00.000-08:00

][.2nd Marathon!.][

hello bloggy!
i must blog this down. =]
2nd marathon!
every race is memorable in its own way.
but this is really memorable and smiles! =D

5/12/2010.
fe did her 2nd marathon!
n this would nt be possible without joy! *double happiness*
haha thanks loads kid! i will never forget this race!

always felt that life was a marathon!
there would be points of time when u feel like shit and feel like giving up and wonder what the hell are you doing here? but these time would pass and things will be ok =]
i used to have a dream to do a marathon!
n i did it.
n i decided to go every even yr 2008->2010->2012->2014..till i completed 10! =]
was worried when 2010 came n was thinking if i would really do the marathon.
it's really scary to do it all alone! =X
n it was when we decided to complete the marathon together in 2010!
haha whenever i say "yes" to marathon, i feel that i m mad.
n this time round, i pulled 5-yr-old kid into this whirl of madness too =X

n we started running on our own to train for the big race! =]
5/12/2010.
woke up at 2am and left hse to meet llz at 3am at bedok stadium.
it was raining when i left house! was chilling cold *brrr* ran in the rain and pray really hard that the rain will stop asap.
met llz and we boarded the 315am bus to head to our starting point.
nice songs on mp3 on the way.
somehow brought back the countless bus rides during the u18 trip.

n tada! reached orchad with all the purple-themed deco.
cool! orchad in the morning =]
went ard to look for toilet but din manage to find one.
put on the number tag and stretch a bit and we are set to go! =]
mp3 plugged in n we took our 1st steps to the countless steps!
was supposed to stop every 30mins but both of us felt strong n we kept going!
the view on the way was good! jus breathe in with good music and see the different places of singapore.
heard some cheers and encouragments! =]
always thankful for all the supporters! without them, the race would not be possible.
stopped for some water and a toilet break and made our way to ecp on time -- 7am.

haha we stopped n had breakfast + banana at ecp ard the 12km marker.
was really hungry! haha
n we continued our run!
the next 8km was a start on the mental strength when you see ppl running pass you on the other side. =X
kid was doing still well! thou there was pain in her knee.
while ankle was starting to give me tightness and the back of the knee.
but it was still bearable. =]

reached 21km and we jus aimed to get out of ecp cz it was really torturing.
haha the ecp stretch nv fail to kill.
both of our legs started to give prob but with the motivation of getting out of ecp, we hanged in there strong with the help of counterpain! =P

n finally out of ecp!
when we thought things will be better and as i assured kid tt things will be better,
it din turned out to be the case!
so sorry kid! haha din expect that we would be facing the construction site!
the heat was really madness and there wasn't any water points along the whole stretch!
kid's hand started to swell and it was really worrying.
learnt that it was signs of dehydration n just hoped that a water point would come soon. =X
felt guilty that i dragged her to this madness.
n jus hope that kid would be ok!

and pass 32km.
the sun was getting stronger and both of us were getting tired by the min.
the fatigue of the legs and the tiredness of body and the mentally torturing mind.
haha i can only say, the strength and support of a trusty friend pulled me to the end of the race.
for the last 10km, we pulled each other and we know that, no matter how tired we get, we will definitely make it to the end point TOGETHER! =]
that's why we came to this race together!
don't walk behind me, i can't see.
don't walk infront of me, i can't catch up.
walk beside me and we will complete this race together!
朋友一生一起走。
that's our promise for this race and we will keep to it!

the last few km was really torturing as ankle started to tighten.
n there was a upslope!
gosh. they must be kidding us.
thankful there was kid! =]
she pulled me up the slope and for the rest of the journey.
really thankful for i found a true friend who cared for me despite her own pain n fatigue!
i would never forget the moments when you pulled me into the shades to be away from the sun while you stayed in it!
for this, thank you llz! really thankful that we decided to do this race together!
without you, this race would not be possible!
hand in hand, we came to the end of the journey and with a smile..last 100m here we go! =]
we made it!!

这个马拉松真的很有意义。
因为，我们一起完成了！
谢谢你！
谢谢你陪我完成了这段路程！
这段艰难的路程，我们看见了彼此最脆弱的时刻。
我们给于彼此鼓励和支持！
我们坚持着那信念。
朋友一生一起走！（跑）
我们一起做到了！=]

n it's a really nice thing to finish a race together! =]
this will be something that we can put into our scrapbook and show our kids in the future! =]

haha jus wanna say, thank you llz!
thanks for being the constant support through my ups n downs of life!
thanks for trusting me and going thru this race with me!
thanks for hanging in there just so we could finish the race tgt despite all the pain that you are suffering!
thanks for being here so that i have a hand to hold on when the faith starts to go low!
n the amazing thing is, we felt tired at different points of time and push each other on to the end. =]
for everything, 谢谢你!

haha so 2nd marathon done!
8 more to go!
wanna bring mummy to run 10km! =]]
will train her up for it! hee

n 2012 would be my 3rd marathon!
moi says she wanna try it..so we shall see!
haha as long as u wanna try, we will cross the line tgt! =]

haha ok! end here le bloggy!
take gd care every! =]]
bye~

p/s: something wrong with uploading of pics. will do it nxt time!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cause the race was all about believeing in ourselves!.][

][.eve of 2nd marathon!.][

2010-12-04T04:00:00.000-08:00

][.eve of 2nd marathon!.][

haha hello bloggy.
going for my 2nd marathon in 9hrs! =]
was looking at my previous entries 2 yrs be4.
"it will be my 1st but not last marathon!"
indeed! 2010 - 2nd marathon! =]
let's go kid! we shall stun them by running our own race!

1st marathon was to chase after a dream.
2nd marathon would be to regain the long-lost con-fe-dence. =]
things had not been smooth.
but i believe it will eventually be.

looking forward to the run tml.
jus sweat everything out.
n let yourself know that everything will be ok!
nothing is impossible! =]

drank loads of water n had 3 bowls of rice today!
let's go double happiness! (fe + joy!)
haha we can do it! =]

shall post more after tml!
take gd care every1!
bye~

it's not going to be easy, but we will do it. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.dreams - let' go 80798 and 80787!.][

][.它，听得到.][

2010-12-01T04:23:00.000-08:00

][.它，听得到.][

最近的心情，没有大好，也没有大坏。
平平的。
在这错中复杂的情绪当儿，我知道某个角落的自己被伤得不轻。
没对任何人说，因为就自己承担吧。
没事的。
真的不是大事。
只是付出太多，所以伤得很深。
某个角落的自己，感觉心累了。
不想再付出。

最近，我爱上了跑步。
不停的跑，让全身的汗都痛快的流出来。

今天，去投篮了。
我觉得，它听见了。
它，是有感情的吧。

好啦！该去读书了！
我会慢慢找回为“你”再次努力的力气和勇气。
不能因为这件事而放弃“你”。
不会的。
给我一些时间。

take gd care every1!
bye =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will find e joy back.][

][.1 more month.][

2010-11-22T09:54:00.000-08:00

][.1 more month.][

1 more month and we will say hi to 2011 and bye to 2010.
time realli flies.

weekend was gd with 5-yr-old kid and our collection of marathon package.
haha i must be mad whenever i say: "Yes, let's go for the full marathon."
but no regrets, life would be too tiring if we consider all the pros and cons be4 making a decision.
at times, you just need a little madness to do things that will make you look back and smile.

12 days left to the race.
haha..i m nowhere near prepared.
need to run more within this wk n allow the body to gradually rest be4 e race.
compressors, mp3 are my best friends when it comes to jogging.
jogging nv fails to make my day.
with the sweat, you feel as thou some troubles and worries are gone with it too. =]
love how running takes my mind of things.

n definitely looking forward to rdm with kid nxt wed and a race like no others nxt sun. =]
3 yr old to 5 yr old: "let's stun em!"

apart frm meeting kid, sat was also nice celebrating fungi's 21st!
finally our youngest had turned 21 too.
Happy 21st Fungi! weloveyou.
n with this, we had officially stepped into a decade of friendship and celebrated 52 birthdays together! =]
haha..it's amazing when we sit back and think about all the special occasions that we had seen each other thur.
if meeting for birthdays = 52 times..
in this 10yrs, how many times had we meet to make each other day's special?
treasure them and all the dear friends that make my simple day a nice one. =]

sun was a mad rush with tuitions and taking care of xiaobai.
xb is YanYi meimei's dog who is under probation at moi's house now.
praying for it that it will be gd n be able to stay on. =]
had a new experience of bringing dogs out to ecp.
haha an impromtu roadtrip with wen, moi, offie, tiger and xiaobai.
it's chaotic with so many dogs.
n at times such as these, babies are really much easier to handle!
haha..but yups.
a tiring but fun day with the dogs. =]

n now it's back to school and work.
reports after reports.
jus finished one.
more or less got the draft done.
would edit it tml.
my dear brain, pls give me more writer juices so that i dun have to tink so hard and get mental blocks. =]
thank you!

n saw this on tumblr..

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.”

haha feels tt the pic brings out everything.
jus felt like sharing this nice pic and "quote".
hopefully you will meet your right one at the right time and not fall for him/ her only when it is too late. =]

ok! shall end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.it's almost over.][

2010-11-17T18:43:00.000-08:00

][.it's almost over.][

hello bloggy!
it's finalized.
all is said and done. =]
jus one last thing to do to close the chapter of my life nicely.
that's to go to the malaysia trip.

after which, it would be byebye to national team.
took loads of courage to say bye.
but at the same time, it was much easier than i had expected.
cried too much over it.
felt so weak and loser for crying over it.

so from today onwards,
i shan't drop a tear over the game anymore.
nothing else shall put me down from playing e game anymore. =]

on e way back after everything was finalized,
忍不住的痛痛快快的流泪了。
两年。。
这两年的一切。。
想必会是我人生的一个很好的历练。
我将永远记着这一切。
学会了很多。
不止篮球。。
也学会了人生。

我学会了。。
不需要样样东西都认真，负责。
因为，付出并不一定会得到任何成果。
有时，它换来的是痛。

我学会了。。
现实是残忍的。
强者就会生存。
所以，我会努力的读书。。
把学业搞好。
若能认真的打球，我能更认真的读书。 =]

我学会了。。
学会了。。
哈哈。。很多很多。。
但，最重要的是。。
当快乐变成痛苦时，
就放手吧。
因为，放手后，你真的会比较快乐。

从这次的事，
我也体会到真正关心你的人对你的真诚相对。
她们不会骗你。
她们只会希望你做对你最好的选择。

so..thanks loads coach cindy, sh, moi, llz, forever5 and my daddy n mummy.
thanks loads for giving me e courage to say bye.
thanks loads for accompanying me to say bye.
thanks loads for being there with me when i m uncertain.
thanks loads for giving me the time to be by myself when i need.
thanks loads for supporting me no matter what.
for all these,
thank you! =]

these 2 years..
i really learnt loads.
i can say..i tried and that's all.
from now on, it'll be a new chapter of life. =]
i will use my new regained freedom to do things i always wanna try.
n work harder for studies!
have more time for my family and friends! =]

haha ok! take gd care every1!
bye~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.goodbye sbc.][

2010-11-13T09:48:00.000-08:00

][.crushed.][

当让你快乐的事变成了让你难过的事，你还会有勇气继续下去吗？

it's really hard to make a decision, when you are too tired to hold on, but too in love to let go.

i m ultra tired now.
all ready to let go.
cz this aint the game i love anymore.

had the greatest fall.
the most amount of tears.
n this is not worth it.

it's nt worth it.
so goodbye to all my heartbreaks.
goodbye to all the internal pain.
i will never forget e pain.

i tried.
n this is enough.
don't cry becoz it's over.
smile becoz it happened.

i will smile n let you know when all is finalized.
for now, pray for me.
n keep me safe n strong. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.这一次，说真的算了.][

][.累.][

2010-11-10T09:16:00.000-08:00

][.累.][

hello bloggy!
super ultra tired.
had nt had gd night slp since sun.

past 2 days had been madness w presentation.
felt like all my strength had been sucked out of me into e e slides.
facing e ppt, facing e class.
enjoy it when e presentation went well n felt tt things were gd. =]

yet at e same time,
feel so drained when everything is over.
like phewwww..finally allow me to breathe.
breathe, breathe hard fe.

some v random thoughts.
but i hope tt i have enough $ to travel e world.
i wanna travel n see e world.
i wanna take a break.

this sem had been a v tiring one.
esp this mth n e nxt when all e work is like a river that nv end.
rarrs.rarrs.

有时候，真的累到。。
不想去想，不想去做任何事。
只想一个人，好好的静一静。
想大声的喊出内心的纳闷。

haha rarrs.
ok it will be fine.it will be fine.it will be fine.
at times such as these, no idea why..but jus wanna play w a baby.
seems like their innocence n laughter is e solution to the tiredness.

ok! take gd care every1!
i m ok.
jus whiny.
haha jk.
nitez =]

n thanks loads 933 for accompanying me thru e nites! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.寂寞寂寞就好.][

][.a true friend is...][

2010-11-06T07:55:00.000-07:00

][.a true friend is..][

was eating dinner n flipping thur a nice nice album.
saw these words n can't help but agree. =]

a friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow -- shakespeare

thankful for mine =]

haha ok! random post.
but realli cant help but agree w shakespeare.
take gd care every1!
nitez! time for work.
jiayou!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.第一时间.][

][.Change in Bodyclock.][

2010-11-05T13:15:00.000-07:00

][.Change in Bodyclock.][

it's 415am n i m wide awake.
this is madness.
slept at 530am ytr..woke up at 9am today!
n nt sleep a wink n still awake?!
siao liao.
bodyclock, are you ok? =]

these few days had been hmmm.
不是三言两语就能解释的。
很多复杂的情绪。
i love this line..
it's always easier to smile than to explain why are you sad.

haha dont worry.
i m nt sad.
jus haha
aw..family away in batam so forever5 is now soundly asleep.
really glad that they came over to keep my company.
haha..10yrs ltr, would we look back n laugh at wad we are now?
jus as how we looked bac n laughed at all our stupid quarrels. haha

人与人之间的缘分真的很奇妙。
遇见了，就要好好珍惜。
失去了，就微笑祝福。

watched my fair lady.
3 more ep to go.
love korean dramas =]

haha ok! take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Spaced Out.][

2010-11-01T10:39:00.000-07:00

][.Spaced Out.][

越不想去想，却因如此而越在想。
spaced out.
能不能就不要想了。

felt realli unwell on e train today.
kept sweating - cold sweat tt i had to alight at bugis to rest.
den after a while went to city hall for project. =]

met sh for dinner n study session at starbucks at jp was gd!
grocery shopping n all sets e pace of being bac to sch.
e nxt mth would be a hectic mth.
but be4 which, let's jus survive this 2 wks 1st.
mad mad wks.
quiz,presentation,proj due!
DEAD-lines.

amidst all these..
there are still smiles..
from looking fwd to forever5 gatherings n listening to songs on youtube.
really wanna watch this show.
caught it in manila and love it.

时间是你能给人最宝贵的礼物。
因为，时间一旦付出就不会再有。
所以，总想把时间留给在乎的人。
也越来越想把时间留给会让自己快乐的事。
tink i blogged abt this long ago.
time is the most precious gift =]

the minute you feel like giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long?

take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.needs to run!.][

][.think,think,think.][

2010-10-30T11:46:00.001-07:00

][.think,think,think.][

hello everybody!
i m back from manila! =]]
got a chance w e 7th seaba.
something i will always remember.
there's always something worth remembering each trip. =]

everything tt won't kill me will only make me stronger.
there's something weighing in my heart.
a decision to be make.
a very serious one.
deep deep thoughts needed.

whichever it is..
love my family n love forever5!

ok! take gd care every1!
rest well! nitez =]
it's gg to be back to reality tml!
face it! =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.decision.][

][.everything happens for a reason.][

2010-10-27T02:26:00.000-07:00

][.everything happens for a reason.][

hello bloggy!
i m currently bloggin in manila. in e lobby.
haha current status: 平静。

当付出不等于回报的时候，
不准眼泪再次滑落。
做到了。=]
想通了。
把一切当成学习的一个过程吧。
微笑面对。
承认能力不足，但至少尝试过。

我没有说要退出。
但是，目前的我只要为十二月的比赛努力。
就此而以。
其余的，我会好好想想。
选择总是不容易。
但，别担心，我承受得起。
过了21岁仿佛有了多一些力量来面对事情。

毕竟，现在也已经是个大人了。
生命里还有很多事情要追求，要努力。=]

谢谢cindy coach！及时的鼓励真的很感动。
我会尽情的继续享受这个路程。
用+ 的心来面对！ =]

take care everybody! =]
meeting my ex-philipines player once again realli made my day! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles.][

][.21 already! =].][

2010-10-21T11:33:00.000-07:00

][.21 already! =].][

hello bloggy!
hah been a long time since i blogged.
from e last post till now..loads had happened.
sunig champs,bday celebration & i m flying off tml. =]

haha 1st of all, gd job nan da!
thanks for e early bday gift! =]

and haha..finally 21!
officially an adult..haha
you won't grow any taller, feel any differences but..
the whole party made me feel really loved.
really really loved =]
thanks loads to every1 tt came and made it possible!

special thanks to..
thank you daddy & mummy!
thank you didi!
thank you gan die & gan ma!
thank you ah yiSSS!
seeing the whole family helping you with everything is really wow! 感动！
thank you everybody!

thank you forever5!
thank you wen,jing,moi,fungi!
you guys were awesome!
from the preparation night to the actual day to the aftermath!
without you guys & my family, i really can't imagine how would things be. =]

thanks wen for driving me, & all the logistics & missing arsenal's game (which meant a lot) & everything that you had done to ensure that the party goes well. thanks for assuring me that things will all be well cz you guys have my back. those msgs were really assuring when i get gan chiong and all.u r really my 1st best friend. thanks wen!

thanks jing for helping me with the makeup and giving me a new look for the party =] thank you for helping with e quiz and the streamers, with getting the deco & being e photographer! thanks loads for the msgs jus as wen, assuring me tt things would be alright and when i say thanks, u scolded me cz u guys jus wanna do all u can to make it memorable for me. thanks jing & shem!

thanks moi for all the logistics, getting the deco, setting up the food stands, blowing the balloons & photographers. thanks loads for helping me with so much despite scolding me for being a g to be gan chiong over e party. thanks for assuring me and tell me that things would all be gd and you would let action speaks more than words for our 10yrs of friendship! thanks moi!

thanks fungi for helping me the my journey through life! thanks for helping me think and cut the letters out for 3hrs plus outside the chalet while the rest were helping me in the aircon! thanks for being my photographer! thanks for helping me with all the logistics & ensuring that everything flows! thanks for everything! thanks fungi!

thanks for the 10years of friendship! <3
thanks loads forever5!
you guys had really gave me a vv memorable bday & kept me safe!
thanks for assuring me & putting up with my gan chiong-ness to keep everything perfect for the day.
thanks for nt resting much due to my "engagement" party and yet being so efficient!
thanks for surprising me with the cards which touched my heart =]

thanks for exceeding our usual budget and getting me a 2nd helium balloon becoz u guys know tt i really want one. <3
thanks for the specially designed cards and the msg (each of it touched me so!) =]

behind the scenes..=]]

最珍贵的礼物是你们给我的友情。
大家忙忙碌碌，偶尔因意见不和而吵架，但到最后还是会回到彼此为彼此建立的避风港。
愿意为彼此付出，保护彼此。
谢谢你们让我有一份如此可贵的友情。
认识你们，真的是我的福气。

谢谢! iloveus!

thanks loads to 5-yr-old-kid too!
人生得一知己，真的足够。
thanks for the 5yrs of friendship!
thanks for helping me out with the cake!e design and all! cz i really can't decide and u helped me! (which turned out really awesome!)
thanks for liasing with mei2 and reminding us that we need to get chairs! (haha i know, i know)
谢谢你总是在我的生命里扮演着大姐姐的角色！
and thanks for e nice scrap album which beautifully 记载着这段友情的点点滴滴。
很美，很用心，很喜欢。<3
thanks loads llz!

i m certain we will fill the album with more to come and show e kids someday! =]

thanks loads to roomie too!
thanks for helping me get the guestbooks stuffs and helping me cut and design it!
thanks for sending out my wishlist to all and liasing with everybody to make sure tt i get my wishlist =]
thanks for helping me get stuffs and gg back to get e helium balloon! =]
thanks for helping me carry e cake!
haha thanks for e friendship! we been through ups and downs but rest assured.
a friendship that encountered ups n downs is a friendship to last =]
thanks loads for everything! =]

thanks loads to these special people!
and thanks loads to every1 that came!
really appreciate it! =]
the greatest gift that one could give is to come! =]
thanks loads every1! from my childhood best friend to my uni friends!
thanks for seeing me through 21yrs of life!
each and every1!
thanks for being part of my life and thanks for coming to celebrate this memorable day with me! =]]

thanks to diana and family for coming down!
as i flipped thru my childhood pics, all the memories were jus diana and felicia!
so glad that you came tt day and e little bk which recorded our childhood!
thanks diana dinosaur! can't wait for dinner with u when i m bac frm manila. =]

thanks to team ahs - sheryl, ling, sek, chu for coming! *sheng zhong woosh* would never forget how much i love the game. it was u guys tt made up e happiest part of bball for me =] thanks for coming! =]

thanks to team kem for coming down! xiao dui for coming down be4 and da dui for coming down after! thanks loads! *xing xin* really touched. miss playing in kem! would be back soon! thanks for being 6yrs of my life!

thanks to 230 guys for coming down - xiaopang, qy,wx, kg n jeff.
thanks guys! thanks for all the steamboat tt u all had treated me!
really missed playing bball with u all! =]

thanks to nan da bball!
thanks loads team!
thanks for coming, for the sb, for e running shoes and for being being present!
u guys roxz my world in ntu! =]

thanks to lms mates for coming down! (and being e earliest)
thanks for coming and thanks for seeing me thur e 3yrs of academic life!
u guys wuld be missed nxt sem! =]

thanks to hall mates for coming!
jiaying mama, jo and wl!
thanks for coming! hall life wuld have been diff without u all! =]

thanks to programmers for coming!
thanks for being present! hope u all enjoyed urself as much as i do! =]

thanks to my tuition kids and family for coming down too! =]

should i miss out any1, pls forgive me!
it's 4am in e morning le! =]
once again, thanks loads everybody!
thanks for making my day special with ur presence!

and lastly, special thanks to..

daddy and mummy!
thanks for 21yrs of love!
thanks for caring for me more than any1! =]
m glad tt i managed to rush home to celebrate e moment! <3

family <3

hao la! i shall go zzz le.
flying off to manila tml noon till 30th oct.
so..anything jus email me ok! =]
hopefully there is internet connection!
haha..i would be kidding if i say i m nt nervous abt e trip.
how i wish 5yr old kid is here with me at the moment.
overseas trip (bball) jus get me jittery due to the past experience.
but breathe in and out.
this will be ok!
it will be good!
let's go team!
let's go fe! =]
con-fe-dence!

take gd care every1!
dun let e haze get u sick like me ok!
see u in 9days! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thankful.][

][.秘密 + 时间.][

2010-10-07T11:02:00.000-07:00

][.秘密+时间.][

若我想说，那就不是秘密。
若我不想说，那我就是无论如何都不会说。

我没有很多秘密。
所以都可以很坦然相对 =]

很多事情都需要很多时间来遗忘。
忘记一个人就和努力想想起一个没有遇见过的人一样难。

最近想的比较多。
面对曾经很熟悉却变得陌生的人时，需要很大的勇气。
但是，一旦时间久了，其实真的没想太多了。
两个人都不在彼此的世界很久了，那段过往就真的变成了过往。

时间，你已经帮我冲淡了一段过往。
能不能请你帮我冲淡另一段？
我已经很努力了。
是不是我不够努力？
是不是我的记忆太好？
无论如何，请您帮我这个忙。
谢谢您！

haha just some random thoughts!
no worries!
take gd care every1!
rest well! nitez =]

last game for sunig tml!
let's go 3s! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.time for bed.][

][.快乐不快乐，没什么快不快乐.][

2010-10-05T11:54:00.000-07:00

][.快乐不快乐，没什么快不快乐.][

快乐不快乐。
没有人应该决定你的快乐或不快乐。
只有自己应该主宰自己的人生，自己的心情。

不快乐，就有责任让自己再快乐。
不要埋怨老天。
不要责怪任何人。
就休息一下，让不快乐的情绪随风而去。
就让它随风而去。

在世界上，还有更多令人难过的事。
一点小事，真的没关系。
没关系。

别问我为何不快乐。
因为，没什么快不快乐。
只是，偶尔的沉默。

take gd care every1!
nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will be ok.][

][.1000 posts.][

2010-10-02T11:30:00.000-07:00

][.1000 posts.][

Happy 1000 post bloggy!
You had served me well thur' out these yrs!
Thank You very very much! =]

been trying to focus n mug for tue's quiz.
but nt being in the top form mugging mode.
so decided to stop a while and do a random blogging.
this is another random post but it's my 1000th post.
so smiles!

another normal sat spent with tuitions, game n rest.
another day ahead tml tt's gg to be spent w tuitions n study n rest? =]

it had been a gd wk.
started sunig and won our 1st game.
could have fought harder and get a better win but gd job team!
let's keep going for e remaining 2 teams ok!
the team who wants it more will eventually get it!
let's go THREEs! =]
keep the spirits up!
n i wanna tape my number for every game! cz tt wuld give me sakuragi's power. =]

being back in a season makes me totally focused on e game.
haha n 2 wks be4 i bid childhood goodbye and officially step into adulthood and take charge of my life.
used to had loads of stupid wish to achieve by the time i reach 21.
but as i m reaching it, all these are not coming true but yet there's no tinge of sadness that these are not achieved.
cz, i m really contented with all that i have now =]

oo n i finally sent out invitations for my 21st!

thanks to sh for designing this for me =]
awaiting replies be4 i can proceed on to order food and all.
haha..hope tt everything falls into place on e day. =]

aw..was finding compos for my kid tml.
came across a few articles.
one of which that i like..=]

把心交给你

总喜欢做这样一个游戏：闭着眼睛，拉着你的手，让你助我跨越所有障碍，到达目标。
刚开始，总是紧紧握着你的手，担心地闭着眼睛，小心地向前跨步。可不管怎样，我还是害怕。害怕前面就是一块大石头，害怕前面是一滩深水。尽管我与你的手紧紧相连，尽管我把你的手勒得生疼，可是我的心充满了彷徨。阳光是那样烦躁的热，前方是那样恐怖的远。于是，我忍不住睁大眼睛，发现我正走在一大片宽阔的土地上。你轻轻地说:你犯规了。可我看到你眼中的失落。
我想，原来是我多虑了。
我说，我们再玩一次。于是，你拉着我的手。你温热的体温传到我的心里。我轻轻地靠在你的肩头。你让我抬脚，我就抬脚。你让我跳，我就跳。我的耳边飘着你跃动的音符，心中充满这对你的信任。最后，我轻轻睁开眼，发现我站在一片葱郁的草地上。你轻轻地说：你赢了。我看到你眼中的愉悦。
既然是朋友，就丢弃那无谓的多虑，把心交给你，让你引领你走一段美丽的路程。

我也渴望有天有机会就这样闭着眼睛，被带到一片宽阔的草原。
在那儿看日出，日落，星辰。
简简单单的过一天。
会有这样一天的到来吗？=]

some1 told me..
I always knew that looking back to the cries would would make me laugh.
but..
I never knew that looking back at the laughs would make me cry.

what's ur take on this?
i had tried looking back on the cries and laughed at my own stupidity.
but i refuse to cry at the laughs.
cz smile becoz it happened. =]

always believed tt those tt are worth ur tears wun make you tear.
n agree with fungi - "those that promised never to hurt you, ended up to be the one that hurted you the most"

but what could we do? =]
believe that they nv meant to hurt you thou they did.
n smile n moved on.
try to forget all the unhappiness and just smile at all the laughs that you guys had shared. =]
it's hard.
but bit by bit time will do the job, heal the wound.
cz, that person that promised really din tot of hurting you. at least at e moment they did promise. i believe.

haha such a random post huh =]
2 wks to adulthood.
still behaving like a kid.
but it's ok! i dun care!
haha..gg to train daily for the remaining 2 wks.
thus, how m i gg to countdown to it? - basketball.

haha a few more yrs..n i will bid it byebye.
so love it more for now =]
hang in there knees,ankles, back, hands, fingers.
pls don't fail me =]

ok la! done w all my random thoughts.
it's 329am at the moment.
shall end off here n rest!
take gd care every1!
nitez. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ups n downs of life.][

][.959 post.][

2010-09-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

][.959 post.][

this is my 959 post.
one more to a 1000.
thanks to bloggy, i get to note down things tt had happened to me for the last 5yrs.
those precious memories.
happiness, tears, anger, disappointment and everything that was worth my memo.

it's a normal day of tuitionsss.
spent time w my "kids" and decided to invite em to my party. =]
had family dinner n came home to rest. =]
randomly watched videos and all e nan da videos.
if there's something memorable when i leave ntu, it would be ntu basketball.
the different seasons with different things.

sunig is starting on wed.
jiayou nan da! jiayou threes!
as i re-watched our victorious season and our lost for ivp 09/10, there was an overwhelming emotions within.
sunig may not be as wow as ivp.
but one thing for sure,
let's fight hard together ok, team! =]
63 = the lost to ite - 6pts. 3 = let's win it threeS!

hao la. tired le.
take gd care every1!
nitez. =]

listening to 933 is really gd therapy.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.剪断，放开，遗忘.][

][.the end of one & beginning of another.][

2010-09-25T11:04:00.000-07:00

][.the end of one & beginning of another.][

seeing more n more 21st parties.
signals the nearing of my own 21st.
the end of childhood and beginning of adulthood.

haha not tt 20 to 21 is going to transform me.
but jus feel diff.
haha it's gg to be e 1st party tt daddy n mummy is gg to leave it to me =]
from 1st to 12th bday..every party was done by them <3
thank you daddy n mummy!

haha n now tt it is only weeks away..
getting a bit excited n hope everything will go well?
thanks loads to 3 person in particular..moi, sh n llz. =]
thanks for helping me to settle down amidst e gan chiong-ness and offering me your help. really appreciate it!
thanks to moi - logistic and photographer =]
thanks to sh - image consultant and manager =]
thanks to llz - bday games and cake sourcing =]
thanks for helping me set things on e track!

heh..things had been really fast paced with school.
tired-ness within is beyond words can say.
but with the nearing of sunig.
there's something within which i m unable to express in words.
excitement? anticipation?
don't know.
let's go THREES!
i promise to give my very best. are you ready? =]
let's enjoy e season tgt!

ankle is nt doing v well.
so stay strong ankle. thank you. =]

ok la! take gd care every1! =D
nitez! tc!

p/s: looking forward to some changes to hair!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Distance.][

2010-09-19T09:13:00.000-07:00

][.Distance.][

ever felt the distance with some1 tt used to be a regular in your life?
very random.
suddenly feel that..
distance could be said to be by choice?

when you are part of each other's life..
you are walking side by side.
standing by each other =]

when you gradually walk out of each other's life..
there could be 2 possibilites..
1) you walked too fast and left the person behind and did not turn back.
2) you couldn't catch up with the person that left you behind.

we could say that these are by choice.
we could also say that these are things that are not within our control.
things are just moving on so fast.
n hence sometimes we walk so fast that we left people behind.
sometimes we are so tired that we decided to let the person that left, get further n further away from us.

ever felt this way?

the furthest distance is not in the actual distance.
but in the heart.
the choices that you made to allow some1 to be near or far away.

a long n tiring day.
but it was not bad.
sat was friendly.
sun was tuition n taking photos at marina barrage.
i would really ask for a kites party if daddy agreed =]
but he din..haha so i m still thinking of a theme.
e kites at marina barrage at nite was awesome too!

less than a month to my party.
cake, food, guest list etc - things to be done.
but there's more on hand.
we will be fine =]

take gd care every1!
nitez =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][

][.Universal Studio!.][

2010-09-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

][.Universal Studio!.][

if only there's a universal studio daily. =]
i officially declare that universal studio = happiness.
when you feel like a kid all over again.
when you just wanna go here n there n try things, clap to the beat of move it move it and see the characters dance about, taking all the rides that you don't dare but turned out to be awesome!

in summary, universal studio = brrraaavvvo!
had a wonderful wed night at US (universal studio) =]
once u stepped in, u feel as thou u r not in Singapore.
really kudos to the efficiency n e little waiting time cz there's always things to keep u occupied! =]

wonderful night.
wonderful experience.
n i m thankful for yog for it allowed me to see so many other things.
e revenge of the mummy coaster ride was gd.
i jus screamed my lungs out with all my might.
as thou screaming away a year's worth of unhappiness n hatered.
n it felt so gd after that. =]

if u have a chance, visit Universal Studio and find the happiness that u may have forgotten =]

they say pictures say a 1000 words.
gv12 says that line is an irony.
cz what we see thru pic may not be reality.
but for these, it's true.
universal studio is awesome n i had nt been these happy for long =]

n i m glad to have my "dumb-bell" bottle which sh n i agree tt water tastes much better with our new bottles.
hahahaha totally feel like a young kid =]

ok la! take gd care every1!
smile n pass e smile on.
things will be ok! =]]

][.10.fe.15][
][.where you find happiness again.][

][.smiles.][

2010-09-14T10:43:00.000-07:00

][.smiles.][

it's 1:44am.
i just finished eating indo mee from xiao hei's rm w sh n pris. =]
it had been a long day.
6 hrs of lesson stretching frm 1130 till 1830.
followed by training after that.

the tiredness within is woohoo.
but talking w jayne on e way back made me =].
i m really glad tt i m in ntu.
n i tink nan da basketball is a big part of e happiness.
everything seems to fall into place when you know tt there's e team there.
a team whereby you wanna work hard tgt for the champs.
there's just a sudden wave of awakening tt i wanna do more for this team.
one more champion.
one more wonderful season ahead. =]
cz all of you made my life in ntu a big =D.
esp this sem where we have to work harder tgt in terms of academic and bball.
jiayou nan da!
the fixtures are out - 29th sept, 4th oct, 7th oct.
can i have an advanced 21st present? =]
let's work hard for it!

haha aw..e reason for smiles is becoz tml is union day.
just one seminar den gym w yan2 n lunch w bx.
den rest n make notes.
n gg universal studio at nite!
compliments of yog!
woohooo! shiok!
can u imagine a weekend nite not spent on training and gg somewhere fun?!
haha woohoo! =]]
dun get e wrong idea..i und e nd to train even harder than ever for this period.
but 1st of all, i wanna get fit by myself 1st.
knees n left ankle feeling weak.
so are my limbs.
get fit fe!

going to jog w llz this sun in preparation for our 42.195km =]
haha i tink she would nd to drag me along le man.
run fe run.
get slim n fit! muhahah

with so many things to fulfil within e nxt few months,
everything feels organized n planned.
jus have to jiayou! =]

take gd care every1!
jiayou ba!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.一个人的我依然微笑.][

][.settled!.][

2010-09-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

][.settled!.][

haha hey bloggy!
there's so much within that i wanna say..
but i have no idea where to start from..

haha hmmm..1st of all..
let me let out a vvv big haaaa ok..
take away e "i" cz no sighs. no regrets.
everything happen for a reason.
you can't have everything in life.
sacrifices have to be made.
n for this sem, i made e sacrifices of dropping HT 201 and CBC 811.
my heart really dropped to rock bottom when i have to drop ht 201.
but it will float back. it will be fine it will be fine.
the 2 wks worth of work poof gone.
another 2 wks worth of work to catch up on.
poof poof poof.
it will be fine =]]
收拾心情！and face the start again!
with decision made, sem would be shorter than others.
but 6 of us have each another.
so we r in this tgt!
don't worry! we will pull thur it! =]]
come on fe! jiayou!
jiayou sh,cynthia,jayne,baoxian n jieqi!
we can do it!!

apart from that..
this weekend had been family funs!

thurs was stayover with nan da in hall =]
e usual games of murderer.
i swear i hate to lie.
n i shiver inside when i lie.
so..haha maybe i had evolved. maybe i had not.
nonetheless, it was a nice night.
miss all the stayovers we have.
season is starting soon.
let's jiayou nan da! =]

so with sleep over (whereby we dun slp) but i slept for 2hrs.
came home after tt for tuition den didi's party.
basically, sleeping for onli 2 hrs in 36hrs really drove my moves to turtle speed.
but it was nice. =]
had e whole family packed in under a roof. =]
den wen,moi n fungi came over for mj at nite.
we mj till we jus bored si diao.
but still mj.
really is compulsive gamblersss.

Family <3

sat was another family day spent w c mei =]
we watched love cuts n resident evil!
thanks to the free tickets tt coach gave me during last yr's x'mas.
it was a nice day out w c mei! =]

haha we tried archery too! thanks to gan die who sponsored us n joined us for e 2nd movie =]

so all in all..
it had been a gd weekend.
a break from the game.
quality time spent w family.
n i m jus back frm lingyi's 21st!
happy 21st tookie! =]]

n i m jus super duper tired now.
maybe it's time for bed n clearing of sleep debt.
take gd care every1!
nitez =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.blow wind blow.][

2010-09-08T11:39:00.000-07:00

][.blow wind blow.][

blow wind blow!
pls blow away my dark clouds!
they are gathering above my head too often these days.
dark clouds above my head.
dark clouds in my eyes.

things had not been going on easy these days with harsh reality.
not feeling the best of time.
hopefully aug and seaba would come to give me some comfort in this period of dark clouds.
let it be the reason for me to smile since you are part of the reason that causes my darkness now.

day had been rather dark but thankfully there's my team mates back in hall in the same block (Y) =]
the mail tt pris sent us made my nite =]
running up and down was tiring but so fun.
it's like you being a kid all over again!!

hao la.
v tired tonite!
take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.it will be ok.right?.][